Harambulus
Greenlighter
I pretty much live constantly in fight or flight mode currently and it feels im at the brink of mental collapse if the smallest things don;t go to plan- which happens very often.
I seem to get full blown panic attacks form one cup of coffee and oftentimes and paralyzed by indecision like every choice i would make would be wrong so I just lock up until I eventually do something due to the time having elapsed. A good example of this is how you know if you;re in the street and walking towards someone and one of you moves and sometimes the other one moves in the same direciton and theres sometimes like this 'shuffle' till you both get out of each others way. Well for a long time now ive had this thing where i seem to not know which way to go which throws the otehr person off so that we may be doing a 'dance' for several seconds until apologizing to one another and finally getting out of each other's way.
Like someone pilling more and more on my back and since im almost at ful cpaacity just the smallest things could overload me- or a cpu at 100% processing will cause errors above that.
Anyhow ive been looking at the official uses for benzoes and they are used for this.
I know why i am stressed but its due to outside factors which wont be solved any time soon- work and social not going well.
So is it a good idea to take benzoes to give me some breathing space and allow me to be more productive or should i just wallow in misery indefinitely and pray it will abate one day?
I know this if form stress/overwork and i havent really made a concerted effort to cut down my workload cos i have my own business and theres always work to be done. Quesiton is when are drugs an acceptable answer vs trying non drug methods.
Naturally exploring non drug ways to solve the issue is best which im doing as admittedly id neglected this area of my life as i just wanted to work work work til its reached breaking point.
So it begs the question of when is it appropriate to use drugs to aid in these situations? Im not tlaking about daily btw as id never want some strong drug daily if i could hlep it but i mean like once every week or two like someone would have a beer or joint to release pressure in the evening.
Im thinking the general philosophy is explore all other avenues 1st since like i said i havent done yet.
I seem to get full blown panic attacks form one cup of coffee and oftentimes and paralyzed by indecision like every choice i would make would be wrong so I just lock up until I eventually do something due to the time having elapsed. A good example of this is how you know if you;re in the street and walking towards someone and one of you moves and sometimes the other one moves in the same direciton and theres sometimes like this 'shuffle' till you both get out of each others way. Well for a long time now ive had this thing where i seem to not know which way to go which throws the otehr person off so that we may be doing a 'dance' for several seconds until apologizing to one another and finally getting out of each other's way.
Like someone pilling more and more on my back and since im almost at ful cpaacity just the smallest things could overload me- or a cpu at 100% processing will cause errors above that.
Anyhow ive been looking at the official uses for benzoes and they are used for this.
I know why i am stressed but its due to outside factors which wont be solved any time soon- work and social not going well.
So is it a good idea to take benzoes to give me some breathing space and allow me to be more productive or should i just wallow in misery indefinitely and pray it will abate one day?
I know this if form stress/overwork and i havent really made a concerted effort to cut down my workload cos i have my own business and theres always work to be done. Quesiton is when are drugs an acceptable answer vs trying non drug methods.
Naturally exploring non drug ways to solve the issue is best which im doing as admittedly id neglected this area of my life as i just wanted to work work work til its reached breaking point.
So it begs the question of when is it appropriate to use drugs to aid in these situations? Im not tlaking about daily btw as id never want some strong drug daily if i could hlep it but i mean like once every week or two like someone would have a beer or joint to release pressure in the evening.
Im thinking the general philosophy is explore all other avenues 1st since like i said i havent done yet.