Stargazer
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Thankyou Sim 
. And I thank you for your response TPD, it's always a pleasure . On the previous page (10), I explained that I re-started the 24hr waiting period to start a sub taper 3 previous times in approx 7 days. O. M. G. -it was beyond frustrating not to mention sickening.
On my final attempt-I had gave in the day prior and gotten dope-7 bags. The plan was to do them then begin the sub taper 24hrs after using last bag. The wrench in my plan was: I fell asleep w 1.5 bags left and therefore woke up with ...1.5 bags. Shit. That was not the plan lol. I was 12hrs into my 24 hr waiting period when I woke up. To me, 12 hrs is a good amount if hours when Im dopesick.
I was going to use it. I completely set it up in a rig-did the whole dang ritual. Was tied off-and thought for a minute or two. I decided it was not worth re-starting the waiting period at 12hrs in for what would've been the fourth time in about 7 days. My God, the insanity of the using is just unbelievable.
I then put the cap on the loaded rig and put it away. So I had it next to me. When I was out of subs feeling bad I decided to use it for relief. And thats what I got for about 12hrs. I wasn't high just stable. When I said I was doing 5 bag shots at my last use, I wanted to clarify I meant 2yrs ago when I stopped- I was up to 5bags at a time to get high. Now its 2 bags to get high. I don't want to return to that lifestyle.
Its 3:30am Sun morning. Im beginning day 8 of my taper. Im having difficulty sleeping.
TPD-I have begun asking myself the questions you encourage-the why's what's and how's. Yes, I used that final rig for relief. I was planning to use it later than I did -I was hoping to not use it for 3wks then use it when I got a craving. But used it to feel better. My sub taper I must thank you for. From the wealth of information that you share w the BL family, you convinced me to try this for a less miserable and more effective detox. Thankyou TPD.
I am trying my best. This 2mos plus slip has my nerves bad. But I think of my BL family always and know Im not alone and I'm supported and cared about. Love you guys. 10
. And I thank you for your response TPD, it's always a pleasure . On the previous page (10), I explained that I re-started the 24hr waiting period to start a sub taper 3 previous times in approx 7 days. O. M. G. -it was beyond frustrating not to mention sickening. On my final attempt-I had gave in the day prior and gotten dope-7 bags. The plan was to do them then begin the sub taper 24hrs after using last bag. The wrench in my plan was: I fell asleep w 1.5 bags left and therefore woke up with ...1.5 bags. Shit. That was not the plan lol. I was 12hrs into my 24 hr waiting period when I woke up. To me, 12 hrs is a good amount if hours when Im dopesick.
I was going to use it. I completely set it up in a rig-did the whole dang ritual. Was tied off-and thought for a minute or two. I decided it was not worth re-starting the waiting period at 12hrs in for what would've been the fourth time in about 7 days. My God, the insanity of the using is just unbelievable.
I then put the cap on the loaded rig and put it away. So I had it next to me. When I was out of subs feeling bad I decided to use it for relief. And thats what I got for about 12hrs. I wasn't high just stable. When I said I was doing 5 bag shots at my last use, I wanted to clarify I meant 2yrs ago when I stopped- I was up to 5bags at a time to get high. Now its 2 bags to get high. I don't want to return to that lifestyle.
Its 3:30am Sun morning. Im beginning day 8 of my taper. Im having difficulty sleeping.
TPD-I have begun asking myself the questions you encourage-the why's what's and how's. Yes, I used that final rig for relief. I was planning to use it later than I did -I was hoping to not use it for 3wks then use it when I got a craving. But used it to feel better. My sub taper I must thank you for. From the wealth of information that you share w the BL family, you convinced me to try this for a less miserable and more effective detox. Thankyou TPD
. I am trying my best. This 2mos plus slip has my nerves bad. But I think of my BL family always and know Im not alone and I'm supported and cared about. Love you guys.
10
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