Still testing that new methylphenidate analogue perchance, Swarm :D
I can't be sure who or exactly what was to blame for that, but i reckon that analogue has to be well up there. For one thing i noticed that there was none left in the bag when i went to do a bit earlier so thats pretty good evidence. Its hard to tell though. I don't take stock of these things too closely but before i went to bed yesterday i estimated that i had only got in two nights sleep out of 7. In the grand scheme of things thats not too far out of the ordinary for me but is still something to bear in mind. I remember being so tired last night that it took me like half an hour to set my alarm for work.
The main problem i get when i don't sleep is that i get double vision and lots of other visual problems. i had my phone but i couldn't see the numbers properly to set the alarm right, and then when i did get it focused i would suddenly sort of fall over or semi pass out from the tiredness and then have to start again. It was quite funny actually cos i was trying to write someone an email but i kept falling into my computer and hitting my head against it, so i just wrote something about saying i'd finish it off at another time and just fuckin sent what was written.
But yeah that post i wrote on this scared the shit out of me. Not the content, i haven't reread it yet, except the end about telling that girl on the bus about the monk story - i can't think why anyone would do that. No it was when i posted it initially, i was like what the fuck, i hope that hasn't broken the word record limit record or something. So i just turned the fucker off and went and got my shit ready for work. I unfortunately never made it in though due to an injury i suffered at the train station, which means i'm not at work now funnily enough.
Its quite a funny story actually. :D I was late for my train so i sprinted all the way to the station and got there while the train was already pulled up and stationary. The motherfuckers definitely saw me but went and pulled off without me anyway. Since i had clearly suffered a cost to get to the station, breathing out my ass and covered in sweat, but had missed the fucker anyway i felt compelled towards a public show of machismo in order to make up for the damage to my rep. Therefore i spontaneously took the decision to kick a reinforced metal lamp post as hard as i could. Unfortunately this backfired as i made slightly too clean contact, right on the laces as they say.
I felt the pain immediately and knew there was a good chance i'd atleast cracked a bone in my foot. It was a bit unfair actually as i managed to suppress any audible signs of pain, not even a hint of the tysenesque yelps every time his corner work on his cuts, and stepped back with the kind of posture like yeah i fuckin showed them who they're fuckin with type of shit. But as i stepped back instantaneously realised that my right foot was no longer in weight baring conditon. I was trying to walk as if everything was normal but was easily overtaken by everyone at the station, even like old grannies with their wheelie carts and shit, as i turned and attempted to walk up the small incline that marks the entry to the station.
It was a blessing in disguise though as one more late and i was looking at a disciplinary so a sick day proved a lot less costly. I got today off as well but my boss is on at me about getting it x rayed. I really can't be assed though cos i know its a hairline fracture if its anything. Plus, tomorrow off and i make it the weekend so the 3 day rule applies. I think i might just make up a lie but i'm not sure what i should say. i'm on holiday next week so i reckon i'll tell him that i got a hairline fracture so can't go in tomo. A week should be consistent with the healing of a hair line shouldn't it.
Has anyone had an x ray lately? Do they give you any shit to take away with you or is there anything i should know about that he could catch me out on? All answers much appreciated.
