I think I have a neural abnormality.
Ok, the first time I rolled it was OK...subsequent times have been OK...but honestly, rolling just doesn't do it for me. It's fucking weak and it doesn't feel THAT good. It's nice...but damn, let's not exaggerate things. Ecstasy...it just struck me when I took it first (and each subsequent time) that the name wasn't right but you really can't sell a 20 dollar pill named pretty-good-but-nothing-to-write-home-about.
LSD, though...whooooooo. Never haveI felt anything to match the moment on a strong acid trip where little bits of light start dripping off of everything and you forget who exactly you are and you become EVERYTHING...where you can communicate with someone else without either of you opening your mouths...just an infinite, something...understanding maybe.
But sex is highly overrated, too, it's just unfortunate that every male on earth is born hopelessly addicted to it. Fuck nature, genetics suck sometimes.
Euphoria? That's not chemical...chemicals are just (usually) too shallow. The only real fantasic feelings I've ever felt were deep in zazen or sometimes just lying somewhere in the dark before sleep with millions of thoughts rushing through to just stop suddenly.
At least for me. I have been consistently disappointed by every drug I've tried (with the exception of LSD). Well, that and speed's usefulness shocked and amazed me..
Anyway, after reading all of these, I think I may have a neurochemical disorder, i mean, damn, drugs, or anything else besides deep meditation or pushing a mystical experience just doesn't do it for me.
And ps...trance isn't euphoria...it's the same boring synth strings over the same boring drumline in about 18 9 minute arrangements, all of which are played by every trance dj to the point where you get nauseous or fall asleep to hear them again.
house, techno, jungle, dancing to them all night, funky shit, that's approaching euphoria.
I guess maybe I'm just bitter that trance has hijacked dance music.