"How High is North America?" v team nod spring training

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I can balance drugs and school its my depression I can't. That's why I'm out and my depression was here long before the drugs. I'm graduating in less than two months got into all these universities so I'm good yet I can't get any more unexcused so I have to get a doctors note. I'm also thinking about getting homebound for the last days so I can catch up on work.... Lol you don't even wanna know how many days I missed this whole school year.

I also been an insomniac lately which is weird with the amount of opiates I'm using. My sleep schedule is so messed up... Drugs really don't help my situation though with the depression. I am trying to do better though.
 
xstayfadedx said:
I can balance drugs and school its my depression I can't. That's why I'm out and my depression was here long before the drugs. I'm graduating in less than two months got into all these universities so I'm good yet I can't get any more unexcused so I have to get a doctors note. I'm also thinking about getting homebound for the last days so I can catch up on work.... Lol you don't even wanna know how many days I missed this whole school year.
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Shit happens, I'm glad you're doing what you can to graduate :) Depression and anxiety were from well before drugs for me too, so a lot of my life has had those symptoms. Luckily I was good at school, horrible at social interactions and often ate lunch alone, but got an MA while still only 23 which although I'm sorta modest/dont think it's that cool about it, other people seem to.

Drugs are super super fun in college (it seems like you are talking about highschool still) so it's super super fun to make it there :) )


I didn't get EXTREMELY depressed until the last semester of my master's coursework, and my professors understood for the most part. I sorta lost it after I didn't have classwork to distract me anymore, and got psychiatric help.
 
purple_cloud said:
Shit happens, I'm glad you're doing what you can to graduate :) Depression and anxiety were from well before drugs for me too, so a lot of my life has had those symptoms. Luckily I was good at school, horrible at social interactions and often ate lunch alone, but got an MA while still only 23 which although I'm sorta modest/dont think it's that cool about it, other people seem to.

Drugs are super super fun in college (it seems like you are talking about highschool still) so it's super super fun to make it there :) )
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Yeah I'm seventeen and a senior. I got into party schools like penn state but I don't know if I'm going there. I might just go to ccp in philly then to temple to save money. That's still a party school but I'm going to try to focus on school more than parties or else I'm screwed...

Yeah if I have to get homebound I will. It will suck but ill live. And I get good grades and my principal was like its obvious you're very bright and keep up your grades. You can learn outside of the school building but we need you to come in. I was like uh huh okay whatever...he gave me a speach about how he knows everything about depression and how when you wake up there's a cloud over your head. I wanted to punch him because he was being so stereotypical and he even was rubbing his hands on his head when telling me depression is a chemical imbalance. Some people these days.

I have anxiety too but my doctor doesn't believe in combos but she said I should go to a psychiatrist but I don't know if benzos would be a good idea.
 
Well, I'm nodding my ass off and it took me forevere to read that, so my response for now is that, I told my psych dr that I don' think my anxiety is being addressed, and she said "is not its own disorder, its part of the major depressive and borderline personality diagnoses" so I'm not sure they distinguish them which they probably should.

However, at 17, you don't wanna start eating benzos. At that age doctors don't want to prescribe them to you sine you are still young and a teen because then you wont learn anywa ways of controlling our anxiety withsout it.

I apologize for the grammar in this already an di hawevent even proofread it yet.
 
purple_cloud said:
Okay all you team nodders tonight, I am forwarding for your beloved mod, Tommyboy, a message of highness for the night (welcomed me to share via txt) : 60mg hydro, 7 beers, and 3 bowls thus far. So he's out there making us proud.
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Thanks for passing the message along.

Of course I performed a CWE on the hydrocodone. Smoked some more weed as well

Typing with one eye open at this point.
 
Its okay I had to edit my posts lol. And yeah I should see a psychiatrist and I already mess with benzos....valium and xanax but not a lot well lately. And yeah I took two more 7.5 mg hyrdros and I'm nodding and I want to take a bong rip but ill prolly fall asleep with it. And then I don't know...just picturin me sitting there bong in hand and fall asleep mom walks inb room lol wow it prolly doesn't make sense but that's in my head.
 
Tommyboy said:
Typing with one eye open at this point.
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Me too, I'm nodding my ass off. I'm typing this out slowly to be accurate, you see what a mess my IM messagfes are.

xstayfadedx said:
Its okay I had to edit my posts lol. And yeah I should see a psychiatrist and I already mess with benzos....valium and xanax but not a lot well lately. And yeah I took two more 7.5 mg hyrdros and I'm nodding and I want to take a bong rip but ill prolly fall asleep with it. And then I don't know...just picturin me sitting there bong in hand and fall asleep mom walks inb room lol wow it prolly doesn't make sense but that's in my head.
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Be careful, I didn't end up addiced to benzos until 22 I think, a couple years after my mom passed away. They really helped me. And i've smoked pot daily since I was 15 and still do...jus be careful :)
 
chinky said:
and bricks try takin 4mg of subs first then if that dont work 6 then 8...its a strong pill and over scripted..i bet you dont need more then 8mg cause your not a shooter
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I know the whole thing with subs, but the first day 8mg didn't do nothing but make me stop puking I was still shivering, sweating, and gagging. Takin the other 8mg helped with that but I still felt like shit. I plan on gettin down to 2mg within a week or two if I can, but while it stabilizes or whatever Ima take as much as I need to not feel like killin my self and everybody around me.


Yesterday mornin when I did the 2 pills I was sniffin em so I had to wait like a half hour between every half a pill cuz it's so much fuckin powder and after the first 4mg I still could barely get out of bed. I'm startin to feel a little better today I just did 1 and a half, I wont do the other half unless I need too, but at least today I'm not thinkin about d as much as yesterday.
 
Bricks & Stacks said:
I know the whole thing with subs, but the first day 8mg didn't do nothing but make me stop puking I was still shivering, sweating, and gagging. Takin the other 8mg helped with that but I still felt like shit. I plan on gettin down to 2mg within a week or two if I can, but while it stabilizes or whatever Ima take as much as I need to not feel like killin my self and everybody around me.


Yesterday mornin when I did the 2 pills I was sniffin em so I had to wait like a half hour between every half a pill cuz it's so much fuckin powder and after the first 4mg I still could barely get out of bed. I'm startin to feel a little better today I just did 1 and a half, I wont do the other half unless I need too, but at least today I'm not thinkin about d as much as yesterday.
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16mg of sub in a day is ridiculous. im not knocking you at all because lord knows i had a habit like that at one time but i couldnt imagine being able to take 16mg of sub. the few times i have taken suboxone i have been nodding off 8mg...
 
purple_cloud said:
Me too, I'm nodding my ass off. I'm typing this out slowly to be accurate, you see what a mess my IM messagfes are.



Be careful, I didn't end up addiced to benzos until 22 I think, a couple years after my mom passed away. They really helped me. And i've smoked pot daily since I was 15 and still do...jus be careful :)
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:( i sowwies. my mom passed in 2008. super sucked.
 
MemphisX3 said:
16mg of sub in a day is ridiculous. im not knocking you at all because lord knows i had a habit like that at one time but i couldnt imagine being able to take 16mg of sub. the few times i have taken suboxone i have been nodding off 8mg...
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Yeah, like I said i know the whole thing with sub being over perscribed and after a while you don't need anywhere close to 2 pills a day, but like I said, I'm comin off a 25 bag (or more if I had extra cheese)a day habbit, if I was able to take any less amount of sub and feel decent I for sure would be. I was on subs before for a few months (buyin them off the street) and last time it was pretty much the same thing, 2-3 pills a day at first, after a while 1 pill was lastin me like 5 or 6 days.

I expect this first week to be close to 16mg a day, maybe only 8-12 towards the end of the week. Then next week I'll try to get down to 4mg, and then maybe later that week or the next week down to 2mg. But no way in a month or 2 willl I still be takin 16mg a day, now that would be ridiculous.

This shit be makin me super depressed tho, I feel like my girl just left me (she kinda did) but I don't even miss her ass I just miss the d, just can't stop thinkin about rippin open a few bags and the great taste drippin, then doin the dope fiend lean for half the day and bein content with doin that and nothin else.

On the other hand, I can't wait to spend some more money on somethin besides d. I got some new forces yesterday for the first time in a fuckin minute, it almost felt weird spendin $60 on somethin that didn't come wrapped in a rubber band and to actually have somethin to show for the money spent. I was about to sell my whip last week to get some cheese for some d, good fuckin thing I couldn't find the title cuz god damn would I be regrettin that shit right now. Shit like that is what makes me want to get clean.
 
Bricks & Stacks said:
Yeah, like I said i know the whole thing with sub being over perscribed and after a while you don't need anywhere close to 2 pills a day, but like I said, I'm comin off a 25 bag (or more if I had extra cheese)a day habbit, if I was able to take any less amount of sub and feel decent I for sure would be. I was on subs before for a few months (buyin them off the street) and last time it was pretty much the same thing, 2-3 pills a day at first, after a while 1 pill was lastin me like 5 or 6 days.

I expect this first week to be close to 16mg a day, maybe only 8-12 towards the end of the week. Then next week I'll try to get down to 4mg, and then maybe later that week or the next week down to 2mg. But no way in a month or 2 willl I still be takin 16mg a day, now that would be ridiculous.

This shit be makin me super depressed tho, I feel like my girl just left me (she kinda did) but I don't even miss her ass I just miss the d, just can't stop thinkin about rippin open a few bags and the great taste drippin, then doin the dope fiend lean for half the day and bein content with doin that and nothin else.

On the other hand, I can't wait to spend some more money on somethin besides d. I got some new forces yesterday for the first time in a fuckin minute, it almost felt weird spendin $60 on somethin that didn't come wrapped in a rubber band and to actually have somethin to show for the money spent. I was about to sell my whip last week to get some cheese for some d, good fuckin thing I couldn't find the title cuz god damn would I be regrettin that shit right now. Shit like that is what makes me want to get clean.
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25 bags a day!?!!?!?! FUCKING CHRIST. when i first started doing H the most i ever got up to was like 7-12 bags.
 
MemphisX3 said:
25 bags a day!?!!?!?! FUCKING CHRIST. when i first started doing H the most i ever got up to was like 7-12 bags.
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Yeah sadly, 7 bags wouldn't even get me thru the day. I wont get into my whole sub doc story here but that's what pisses me off is I told the doc that and he gave me 2 subs a day, mean while this stripper bitch said she was hooked on hydros and got 3 a day. What the fuck kind of fuckin sense does that make. It'd probably take a couple hundred mg of hydro to make me stop puking in the morning and some how this bitch is more needy then me.
 
Bricks & Stacks said:
Yeah sadly, 7 bags wouldn't even get me thru the day. I wont get into my whole sub doc story here but that's what pisses me off is I told the doc that and he gave me 2 subs a day, mean while this stripper bitch said she was hooked on hydros and got 3 a day. What the fuck kind of fuckin sense does that make. It'd probably take a couple hundred mg of hydro to make me stop puking in the morning and some how this bitch is more needy then me.
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The power of tits :\
 
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