Bizarre that you experience it the exact opposite way that I experience both drugs.
For me triazolam has never really given me a 'high', instead it just knocks me on my ass and tends to put me to sleep (it's been a long time since I've taken triazolam, since I don't like 'em so I usually decline them when offered). Either I'm just sleeping, and if I force myself to stay awake it dulls me out and puts me in a lazy 'mood' where I don't enjoy anything. The same is true for pretty much any benzo when I try abusing it nowadays, but with other benzos I've always had to double or triple my dose in the past for recreational effects. But if I try now, again, I become lazy and tired. So I don't try anymore.
Muscle relaxing benzos can still be somewhat recreational for me. A fairly high dose of diazepam; at least 50mg still feels pretty good. I much preferred (now banned in most places, if not everywhere) tetrazepam. Only needed 2 pills which came in only 1 strength; 50mg. 2 of those actually felt quite good. The muscle relaxation from tetrazepam was wonderful and caused me to feel great physically. Diazepam (not at any dose) doesn't even come close to tetrazepam's efficacy tbh. But it's more recreational than most benzos...
Compared to triazolam, brotizolam provides a more mellow feeling and, even now with my history of abuse and later therapeutic use, which has been going on 7ish years, I get a unique type of euphoria. 1st time I felt it was before I knew what thienodiazepine even was so I assumed it was a really lovely benzo (though later on when trying out etizolam and again, even later, with clotiazepam I noticed they all possessed a very similar type of euphoria) & this effect didn't seem to appear in any other benzo (I still thought that's what they were) until I finally noticed what they had in common with each other but not with any other benzos. IME, this particular kind of euphoria appears to be unique to thienodiazepines, since I've only felt it with clotiazepam, brotizolam & etizolam.
When you have a lot of anxiety and a benzodiazepine kicks in offering relief, the contrast can feel really good, which is also a type of euphoria I suppose. I know that when I was having bad anxiety and panic attacks and I used xanax for the first time it definitely felt really good and I
would say that those first times actually felt euphoric too. However, the unique type of euphoria that (for me, and so far anyway) only thienodiazepines have been able to cause in me is something else entirely IMO.
I think the gigantic success of etizolam is also due to it being a thienodiazepine and the euphoria that comes with that. Other thienodiazepines that are used in medicine aren't as widely available. But every time I see someone post their experience about any of em its super positive. In fact yours is the first 'negative' review I've ever read on brotizolam. Also the first time I've seen someone say they like triazolam better.
Interesting
but that just goes to show that not everyone prefers brotizolam over triazolam and not everyone is affected by the same drugs in the same manner. To me triazolam is the one with the large knockout potential at normal therapeutic doses, and even if I stayed awake it's never been that great recreationally, IME at least. For you it's vice versa. :D So yeah, again: different strokes for different folks.
No anxiolytic or hypnotic tranquilizer from either -diazepine drug classes are very addictive to me anymore, I still have a physical dependency to benzos because I genuinely need them for severe social anxiety disorder, but I limit my use to therapeutic amounts now without any problems ever. I've gotten a real good handle on my 'downer' (not including opioids, obviously
) over the time period between 6 and 5 yrs ago, and ever since then I've got it under control. Before then, I devoured every substance ending in either '-pam' or '-lam' quicker than I could take them out of their packaging. :D But now I have a rather large collection of most of my favorite benzos saved up (+brotizolam :D). 5-6 years ago when I still abused them heavily, I also had a big stash. But I doctor shopped back then, and did so a lot. I had to in order to keep taking the crazy doses I was taking.
What I have now, I all got/get from my GP and my psychiatrist. The former is rx'ing me 2 benzos (or well, 1 'thieno' and 1 benzo hah, it just doesn't roll off the tongue like 'benzo' does.
), and 1 benzo from my psychiatrist. But only at therapeutic doses.
Still, I ask for more than I use seeing as I take no more than 1 benzo per day (usually anyway
, it's definitely all I need to keep my dependency in check). I always like to have a healthy backup so I could do a taper without needing to go to the doctor first per se if circumstances ever demanded it (which they never would). And could do so at any given time. And meanwhile my benzo stockpile keep growing :D. To me (and i do think in general too, judging by the reviews I've gotten from friends irl about both, or read online when ppl compared the 2) brotizolam definitely has more potential for an addiction.
Opiates are my Achilles heel nowadays, and I could never get so addicted to any benzo or thienodiazepine ever again. But generally speaking I think brotizolam is more 'risky' for benzo lovers than its cousin triazolam. Or well, they're both pretty risky if you've got a soft spot for benzos and are prone to benzo addiction.
Sry for the essay bamos. I blame it on the amphetamines..!
So yeah. Sounds like a plan to me. 
