Dexedrine not sure the amount but I've only slept about 12hrs in the last 4days(?) I've honestly lost track, the days seem to run together. Also 450mg Lyrica and A LOT of nicotine (went through over 8ml of e-liquid in less than an hour while dipping).
@Joe Bean : Good to hear you've been doing pretty good overall! Even though mine is doing way better certain things will still definitely trigger mine, for you it was changing spark plugs, for me the worst thing I've noticed for mine was riding an ATV (although it's probably because I was high on dexies at the time which added to the adrenaline already pumping had me numb so I was going through somewhat rough terrain on two wheels like a bat outa hell and didn't feel it until that night. I definitely paid for it the next three days I could barely move.) It's good that you think you're going to be able to be able to stop taking methadone (I wish you the best of luck) , just don't push yourself too hard or it could end with a relapse, although I'm sure you already know that. I've used kratom several times in the past, every time dosing high enough for the opiate like effects rather than stimulant. I think it varies a lot from person to person but for me in both terms of pain relief and buzz it felt about the same as a NORCO 7.5mg (without any tolerance), so idk if it'll be enough for your pain by itself but it's worth trying for yourself. Maybe if it's not enough on it's own you could see if you could get a prescription for something a little stronger to take as needed. Sucks to hear you can't use the Marinol trick, I think people will come around on weed sooner or later especially medical. As for the H, I wanted more really bad as soon as it had worn off which I knew was a very bad sign so I flushed the rest which was honestly pretty difficult. I thought about it the entire day but today I haven't really thought that much about it, although I know that would be a different story if I had any left to tempt me. Honestly my amphetamine use is getting to a point it could be a problem (although think that every binge then after I get some sleep I'm fine and stop l at least until my tolerance is pretty much gone), I've been eating Dexedrine and Dextrostat like candy and also snorting some, like I said above I've had so little sleep I can't remember when I even started. I wanna say I started 4-5 days ago, the heroin got me about an hour of sleep I think, idk the days seem the same and the short periods of sleep I get make me think it's been an entire day.[/QUOTE
Honestly I love this site for this exact reason being able to chat with other people who have the same problems or life as me! I don’t wish chronic back pain onmmy worst enemy but I’m glad I have friends here tochat with and talk about what we use to help our days seem better. I’m scared to jump off methadone but I want to try it out and see how I do. I know I could get anything g prescribed I wish for pretty much the rest my life. But I just want to smoke weed and I can’t sue to my career. So it’s making good money and take opiates or stay home barely make it in life but able to just smoke qeed they both have its pros and cons! Ya any bending or sitting down in a chair like the plane seats has my back screaming and yes I’m sore also after rising anything but not sore for three days more like two as of now but later on in life I’m sure it might end up being longer and worsen! Lastly be careful on the drums they will make your back ache terribly as you may know the come down and being wide awake and doing shit you wouldn’t normally notice until it wears off you could end up really fucking shit up for your back! Just be careful ok brother! I can’t do them anymore it’s been a long time for me like ten years I might do some blow every now and then even then my back is pissed at me lol so I stay away plus I don’t like being up for days fuck that ! I love my sleep!! Speaking of sleep time for a quick nap before work peace out cousin!!!
Finally got some sleep and slowed down on the stims (having a script for Dexedrine as well as Dextrostat, not to mention benzodiazepines for comedowns can be problematic because it's so damn tempting). I need to go pick up some more grass asap to help cravings for other stuff. I can definitely understand where you're coming from about it being nice to have other people to talk to who can relate to similar problems (but definitely also wouldn't wish chronic pain on anyone). I'm going to have to make this post kinda short because the DXM I took is kicking in which makes typing difficult, sorry bout that. I did wanna mention quitting methadone while still in pain is definitely pretty damn brave. I've been shot (just a .22short to the forearm but it stuck in the bone. Long story ), stabbed (stepped on something metal which almost went through my foot), cut bad enough I had to give myself stitches (because I didn't wanna deal with a hospital, I shot it full of lidocaine or maybe benzocaine and treated it with antibiotics, I may or may not have a small amount of formal education in pharmacology lol) and been burned (butane torches and firecrackers both while drunk as fuck) and honestly I think the nerve damage is the worst pain of it all.
I also thought I should mention that you probably need to make sure it's safe to mix with kratom because both are CNS depressants but Kava Kava seems to be somewhat helpful with opiate withdrawal.
15mg Dexedrine Spansule + 2.5mg of Dextrostat
120mg DXM
Almost forgot about 150mg oral ketamine