@Joe Bean : Long time no see man! How you doing with your chronic pain? They did a test and found out my nerve injury isn't permanent (thank God) that was a few months ago and I'm actually doing well enough now that I've almost completely kicked the painkillers. My doctor still wants me to stay out of work for now something about if I re-injure it now it could make it permanent, I can't pay for school right now either, so I feel like a total asshole loser because I'm having to rely on my parents for just about everything, I try to help around the house so I don't feel like a complete waste of life. Nowadays weed, Lyrica, OTC shit and the occasional tiny dose of codeine (which is the only opiate I seem way more sensitive to than other people, believe it or not 30mg with no tolerance and a bit of K gives me a buzz, no tolerance without K 60mg gives me a decent buzz and 120mg actually has me nodding. Yet with no opiate tolerance but moderately high benzo tolerance I can take 4x OxyContin IR 10mgs + 5mg Valium + 15mg temazepam + 0.5mg Klonopin + a couple shots of Old No.7 and a promethazine 25mg It definitely makes me drowsy but I can still function and even act sober if the need arises.) It sucks that you're employer won't allow you to smoke weed, because I know how much it helps with nerve pain. Didn't you say you were in Alaska or am I completely confused? If so don't they have medical and if so do employers have to respect it? We don't have medical in my state yet unfortunately, so idk how that works. There are a couple other things I could think of to make it possible. The first is tell your doctor how much weed helps and explain your dilemma and try to get them to let you try Marinol off label for pain (in my experience they're either completely fine doing so or will just look at your like a retard. So not much to lose by trying I guess lol) If you do manage to aquire a prescription (btw most insurance won't pay for it and I can't give prices so I'll just say it ain't cheap) you can try it out and see if it works, but personally I found it to be a lot different than smoking bud/hash or even eating edibles. The other option would be use the script to make your employer ignore any THC positive tests (because it's nearly identical to THC only difference is it's FDA approved and schedule 3 federally instead of 1) then you can smoke without the fear of getting caught on a drug test because I'm fairly sure (I'd check for myself tho) that the two should be indistinguishable on a drug test. If the other options aren't something that you're interested in you could always try CBD which is nowhere near as good as the true stuff but is somewhat helpful and shouldn't be tested for. Also topical lidocaine and using a TENS unit seems to give mine a bit of relief at times.
Update: This is more to do with the actual topic. So I scraped together enough weed to get a tiny buzz, but I really needed to get higher to get my pain down to a more tolerable level. Then I remember I have a chunk of hash hidden, only problem is it wasn't/isn't just hash. Anyway awhile back I purchased a bit of hash that was more expensive than normal which I assumed just meant it was higher grade. Anyway I'm about to smoke some so I open the bag and it has the smell I normally associate with hash but also a hint of something that reminded me of vinegar and the color was glossy rather than dull black. So I call my guy and I'm like "is there something different about this stuff besides what grade it is?" And he's like "that stuff is rolled in black tar heroin. I thought you knew." So I just kinda set it aside because I don't mess with H but I didn't wanna throw it away because I paid quite a bit for it. Anyway tonight I'm in pain and all my other weed and hash is gone so I'm desperate and get the bright idea that I can cut through the outside and get just hash. So I cut it up take several small chunks and roll em up in a spliff. After smoking I definitely felt good and stoned then I felt something different that hit me like a ton of bricks and all of the sudden my vision got kinda blurry , even though I'm stoned I start to feel really sick (maybe happened once or twice in all the times I used opiates over the years), a wave of complete euphoria hits and I got so dizzy I had to sit down. Then I feel a high that honestly reminded me of fentanyl, and was almost overwhelming then it gradually started to feel more like morphine or Oxy and the side-effects subsided. I'm pretty sure I made a big mistake... How long will this last (honestly wanna enjoy every last second), should I be ok I'm nodding like crazy and how bad am I going to wanna repeat this after my high wears off?
or I'll be back in 30m to edit it. 
