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Yesterday: [looks pleased]

Caffeine 400mg
Sertraline 400mg
Morphine (oral) 20mg
Fentanyl (IV) 500mcg
Midazolam (IV) 3.5mg
Propofol (IV) 100mg
Bisoprolol 5mg
Gabapentin 2700mg

Today [urghhhh]

Codeine 90mg
Morphine (rectal) 30mg
Gabapentin 1500mg
 
Yesterday: [looks pleased]

Caffeine 400mg
Sertraline 400mg
Morphine (oral) 20mg
Fentanyl (IV) 500mcg
Midazolam (IV) 3.5mg
Propofol (IV) 100mg
Bisoprolol 5mg
Gabapentin 2700mg

Today [urghhhh]

Codeine 90mg
Morphine (rectal) 30mg
Gabapentin 1500mg
Wow you had surgery ?

fent + mida + prop sound too heavy

OT
10g of kratom
10mg diazepam
100mg hydroxyzine
1200mg Gabapentin
Tea
Joints
Energy drink
 
Wow you had surgery ?

fent + mida + prop sound too heavy

OT
10g of kratom
10mg diazepam
100mg hydroxyzine
1200mg Gabapentin
Tea
Joints
Energy drink

Nahh, that's just a typical day for me :)
JK

Yeah...most of the Fentanyl was post-surgery, they only gave me 100mcg before. My first time having Propofol! It was fun when I first woke up (mayy have been the Fent, though) as I remember being really friendly and chatty with the nurse and feeling good, but then I just felt shit, like on the verge of falling asleep without actually doing so...sedated in a BAD way...closer to like an antipsychotic sedation than to a benzo or opioid sedation.

Wasn't a major surgery. Had a large perianal abscess cut out.

Kinda pissed today, though, First, they sent me home with zero pain meds. I get that it wasn't like a massive operation, but it is the most painful type of abscess, mine was huge, and I still had fucking surgery. They would not give me ANYTHING. Which was mostly fine while I still had SOME Propofol in my system (takes 24hrs to toally clear app.) and also the IV Fentanyl they'd been giving me...but by the middle of the night it was getting pretty painful. And then they musta done a sloppy-ass (no pun intended re: MY sloppy ass) job with dressing the wound because I went for a poop and the dressing/sticky-plaster/massive-band-aid type thing just fucking FELL OFF.
So, like, open wound.
And then the gauze they'd packed it with started coming out.
Urgh, nightmaresss
Called my dr at 8am and FINALLY got a call back at 4pm, but she sent some Morphine and bandages/dressings to the pharmacy for me.
 
ran out of 7-oh and MGM15. so ugh lets see. 1-2mg of clonazepam, a joint throughout the day. but red wine and bourbon. lots of those. some gabapentin too now that no more opis. (partner getting Suboxone those can be ok if used sparringly and at 1-2mg doses). remember, gabapentin doesnt fully absorb over 150mg/dose. a good schedule is 1-200mg every hour 3-6 times.

cheers.
 
I made a tray of brownies earlier today and just had one.

I kind of eyeballed the distilate and can't really remember how much I put in so I'm either in for a good time or a long time.
shinji come home
shinji come home
shinji come hooooome
shinji come home
 
Rough fucking week, but going on a speed bender now to try and study for exams. Negative shit aside, I did get accepted for an apartment, which has been my dream for a long time, so got something to look forward to at least.

Anyways, ramble aside, today’s chemicals so far:

- 0.10g IV speed
- 0.08g IV 2-MMC

Hope y’all having a decent weekend so far :)
 
i've posted in the past few pages about my experiences smoking cigarettes and weed. that i put .5 grams of weed at the tip of a cigarette while walking and then smoke the rest of the cigarette. i barely inhale the tobacco. i fully rip the weed. when the weed hits the tobacco, i rip a half hit of tobacco and weed fully into my lungs. that's all i really inhale 100% of the tobacco. when i smoke cigarettes with out the weed, i don't really inhale, but still get a pretty strong buzz.

i've been waking up smoking like a half 1/8th of weed through a bong over the course of like 2 hours. then i go on like 5-10 mile walks through out the day where i smoke cigarettes as described. i feel pretty good. when i get home i chill on some ASMR with out smoking more. after some time i start smoking again and smoke like another half 1/8th.

some days i eat gummies, 50mg thc. this really helps with the cigarette withdrawl, which i don't even mind, but the gummies make everything really peaceful. i do physical therapy like yoga and chill with the ASMR for hours, longer than if i weren't taking gummies. when i don't use gummies it leads me to just rip bong after bong... i haven't taken gummies for more than 2 days in a row cause of tolerance. the first day is usually pretty intense and the second day is nice but not as wonderful... i went up from 30mg gummies to 50mg and the first time i took 50 was a more pleasant buzz similar to toking than i've ever gotten from thc edibles. 30mgs thc gummy wasn't enough. when i used to do cannabutter, i used to get too under or overwhelmed. i think there was a feeling of smoking the first time i took 50mg gummies more than any other time i've eaten thc. i've been weeks for a tolerance break, but after the first time taking 50mgs, it's not really the same. it's still REALY REALLY GOOD and REALLY REALLY PEACEFUL... i'm thinkng about taking like 60 or 70mgs to see if i get the bizarre what i call "firey buzz" that i get from smoking weed. it's a feeling all over my body. i only really got it that one time from edibles. it's not 100% the same feeling as smoking. i'm worried if i up my dose though, it will just be a one time thing, and i'll need more and more mgs to get where i want to be.. it seems i keep getting the same peaceful high from the 50mgs after the first more intense smoking-like experience. it's pretty chill. i'm thinking if i take gummies every couple days that i can keep achieving the same high.

i started smoking cigarettes with weed at the tip cause i'm not gonna get to rip hit after hit in smoke free housing. i'm just gonna get to rip like one big hit at a time and use a smoke buddy carbon filter... idk. the cigarettes actually make my schiz crazy sometimes. i like it. i get a lot of HPPD and i love it. the cigs with the weed at the tip are a crazy buzz. it's different than ripping a bong. it's its own thing. i like both. i won't have a bong in smoke free housing... that i don't really have HPPD acid hallucinations when i don't smoke weed. that i'm hoping i can keep enough weed in my system to keep hallucinating when i move.


i've been taking breaks from smoking cigs. a few pages back in this thread you can read me describing how i got dizzy after going a couple months smoking after getting a super low dose of an anti-psychotic injection that normally doesn't bother me at all. it was pretty intense. i didn't like it. i was gonna quit smoking.. i picked it up again after like a month or two, don't really remember, and i've been stopping use like 6-8 days before the injection. i ween myself off the nicotine and it's fine after i get the injection. i start smoking cigs again a few days after the injection. i smoke about 30 cigs and that lasts till about 6-8 days before the next injection. i don't have withdrawl symptoms by the time the injection runs around and i'm not dehydrated from the cigarettes. the last two times i got the injection have been fine. i don't get dizzy or anything. i lit up a cigarette a few months ago after an injection and got SO DIZZY while walking.

i don't know if i'm gonna be able to keep smoking cigs when i move cause sometimes i'll rip through like an 1/8th of weed in a few hours while withdrawing from cigarettes when not using gummies. like the bong rips are crazy for a few minutes and it's enjoyable, but then i get sober super quick and it's nervous. i just rip bong after bong.. that doesn't happen on nights with the gummies... i don't really know. i can take gummies two nights in a row and that usually passes the withdrawls and dehydration, but it kind of seems like i want to smoke a lot of weed, more than i'll be able to do in smoke free housing... i really don't know what i'm gonna do... if i'm getting HPPD acid like hallucinations from just ripping my bowl and maybe vaping sometimes, i might not smoke cigs. i really like the nicotine buzz though. it's cool a few hours after and it's not that bad smoking for a few weeks. as time goes on i just get fucking dehydrated and stop sleeping correctly and need to quit... like if i smoke a pack in 7-10 days and go a couple weeks with out smoking, i might be good... i don't know if i can handle it though with out a lot of weed\

at least i'll be able to rip bowls sometimes.... for the past couple years i've been living awesome and feeling great for the most part getting to smoke as much as i want with these new cheap ass dispensary prices. i get some banging bud for great value. i get high as fuck. i've been getting a ton of HPPD before the cigarettes, but a lot with the cigs and weed.. i love waking up with 2-3 cups of coffee and some bowls... i'm not gonna be doing coffee all the time 100%, maybe not at all, when i move to smoke free housing. i need to smoke like 3 times as much, which is a lot when i drink coffee. coffee makes me feel like shit alone, but it makes me feel so fucking amazing when i use it with a hefty amount of weed. i love it.



while withdrawing from cigarettes a few months back, i was very sleep deprived. i was doing meditative breathing and slipped into something like people describe as the K hole through meditation and was immersed in schizophrenic audio. it was amazingly awesome. my mother was up all night with the dog trying to discipline it from stealing her clothes. everything just managed to wake me up and fuck with me for a few days... this made me kind of want to use some more stimulant drugs to get schizophrenia. i made a thread about being curious about taking benedrex and smoking weed. LOL... i forgot to mention the cigarette withdrawl and meditation to over come cigarette smoking made me curious to take drugs that could cause pain. i got dissed for making the thread by a poster. LOL.... anyways. i'm not gonna take benedrex....

this is gonna be my last time updating this thread about the subtleties of cigarette smoking with schizophrenia... something a regular person could get out of it is the power from taking a break from cigarette with using gummies, if they happen to respond to be able to do that.. it makes it a lot easier.. i've talked about smoking cannabis to get over stimulants, downers, and alcohol before... for me pot makes it so i can take drugs and with draw so much easier.. i fucking love pot.

people diss cigarettes. they are pretty good for a couple weeks at a time every now and then IMO.. they kind of lose their magic and i always feel like dehydrated shit after some time though and the buzz gets less and less..... keep cigs around though... camels are the fucking best.. the turkish yellow packages are good, and i also do camel 99s cause i like a longer thicker cigarette. the turkish yellows are good though. i like them both.. i had a pack of american spirits. i prefer to go hard with the camels having more nicotine. i find myself inhaling american spirits harder to get the buzz and it's not even worth them not having the chemicals and what not. i like the taste of the camels too!
 
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