Do you think that the NEP helped process things and become more accepting of your gender identity and sexuality? Or do you think it just helped you recognize things in a factual matter? I hope that makes sense.
NEP was useful for recognizing and exploring things, I've never had issues with accepting anything about myself, I simply exist. I feel bad for people who struggle with self-acceptance, but I also feel super lucky that I've never had issues with it. I suspect it ties back to my family and friends always being supportive, accepting me for whoever I am, all that. NEP was useful in that the mania it induces allowed me to explore things with an energy that my usual depressed self would struggle with, but most mania inducers for me (PCP, psychedelics, other stims) are too focused on other shit like exploring my mind's inner workings, cleaning my house, or grinding out code/music. NEP was so sexually oriented that it drove me to manically explore that side of myself, which was interesting. I'm not sure to what degree any specific thing would help with self-acceptance since I don't really experience issues with that, like anxiety it's kind of a blind spot for me since it's something I never experience.
That's good to know. I'm interested in sinicuichi and lotus just in terms of their general effect or as something calming and mildly psychoactive that could be a sort of replacement for cannabis. Kanna I think I've picked up a lot from reading your posts in the past. How did it pair with bupropion? I'm usually fine dropping the bupropion for a day if I ever need to in order to safely partake in something
Lotus is a mild BZD agonist iirc (benzodiazepine binding site), there are two solid ways to approach it, and two things sold as lotus. Nymphaea caerulea and Nelumbo nucifera are the two flowers sold as lotus, and they can come in blue, pink, and white. I've rarely noticed a meaningful difference between N. caerulea and N. nucifera, except that nucifera lasted maybe an hour or so longer, and caerulea responded to harmaline potentiation but nucifera did not. Oh, and nucifera clears up congested sinuses consistently, but that's a weird side note that's not very important. The bigger differences come from the color, and the preparation method. Blue is the best one for sedation, pink is an exceptionally horny aphrodisiac that's still calming but not quite sleepy, and the white one sometimes did nothing, but sometimes acted as a more euphoric version of the blue one. White was hit-or-miss as flower, but consistent as a concentrate, which brings me to the next thing, which is the variations of preparation. The simplest way is to steep 3-8 flowerheads in water that's at a rolling boil, let it cool, and drink away, it genuinely tastes fantastic. Another step up would be making a tincture, but the most potent form is what I used to call "lotus opium", it's a waxy, resinous concentrate made by boiling down a fuckton of lotus flowers. You can also buy this concentrate already in this form, I've worked with it up to 400x before, in which case a small piece I tore off the block which was no larger than 1x1x1 centimeters knocked me out involuntarily for about 6 hours, with some residual sedation upon waking up. This "lotus opium" can be smoked (the flowers can too but they don't do much), it can be dissolved into wine or other forms of alcohol, or it can be eaten straight just like you would do with normal opium. I fucking love lotus, personally.
Sinicuichi is super strange too, it's kind of calming and focus enhancing in low doses, but if I line up 5-6 bowls of it and smoke each one back to back (they burn wicked fast), the experience is like a super clearheaded mushroom trip that lasts 4 hours, with faster moving visuals than mushrooms, and absolutely do NOT mix this with CDP-choline or any other choline prodrugs as it dramatically amplifies the experience and I have no idea if it's safe or not. I've yet to try sinicuichi as "sun tea", but I'll eventually get around to it. If you're looking for a cannabis replacement specifically, my advice would actually be dagga, both klip and alpine varieties are fantastic cannabis substitutes, and are also fantastic when mixed with cannabis.
Kanna in combination with bupropion never presented any issues, friends of mine who used to use kanna frequently also took bupropion and methylphenidate alongside it and never presented with any issues, I'd just beware of any MAOIs with kanna given its SRI/SRA qualities.
Never tried any of the NBOH. Have you done 25E before (NBOH or NBOMe)? Let us know how MXPCP is. I'm gonna pick up 3g each MXPCP and FXipr next payday. Was thinking about getting some MXPCP this payday but opted for 3-me-PCP. I hope that wasn't a mistake and MXPCP sells out before I have a chance to nab some. After that I'll be liking how my stash looks a lot more. Very well stocked on psychedelics and just stocked up on enough cannabis product to last me at least a few months. Thinking about picking up SR-17018 while it's available and need some 7-OH while it's available. After that I'll just need some Soma and things be looking good.
I've never come upon 25E-Anything, only 25C-NBOMe, 25I-NBOMe, and 25B-NBOH. I'm excited to test a fourth one, I adore 25X-NBXX drugs in general. I'll definitely update BL on how the MXPCP goes, the reviews seem kind of lackluster compared to 3-MeO-PCP or 3-HO-PCP, but it was just SO cheap that I threw a gram into a purchase damn near impulsively. If it's good, I'll grab another couple, or maybe try some O-PCP, idrk yet. 3-HO-PCE is also around, and boy do I love that shit but the price is quite high. Let me know how the 2-FXiPR is when you try it, I've seen two brief reviews so far and if it's anything like 2-FXE/CanKet I'll probably be all over that shit. I didn't find any 3-Me-PCP available from the vendors I trust, but if I ever do I'll be sure to grab some. CanKet, 3-MeO-PCP, 3-HO-PCE and 2-FDCK are my top dissos easily, I just wish 2-FDCK, 3-MeO-PCP, or CanKet were still available around my way.
Having 500 units of a benzo is kinda nice, especially in blotter form. Much more convenient than a dropper. As for suggestions, my plan for MXPCP is for mixing with psychedelics. Any will do that are also safe with SRIs, just incase MXPCP shares that in common with MXE.
It's actually arriving as crystal, I'm going to throw some in a box mod like I do with my etizolam, and then the rest I'll probably keep in a dropper since my etizolam blotter was so uneven that it was a fucking tragedy. Etizolam is super tricky to dissolve though, and I don't have a functioning magstirrer right now. Phenazolam is potent enough to where I can't really fuck around with possibly taking a severe overdose of it, and the data surrounding whether it's ethanol soluble, PG soluble, etc. is severely lacking. If it's only soluble in ethanol, I'll probably put it onto mints or candy lego blocks or something so I don't have to worry about tracking the volume to beware of solvent evaporation.
Was MXE and SRI? I was unaware of that, I used to know people to mix MXE and MDMA constantly and in shockingly high doses. I was intending on possibly mixing MXPCP with the likes of MDA, 25E-NBOH, 25B-NBOH/25I-NBOMe, MDMA, DXM, methamphetamine, and a variety of other monoamine releasers so I'm going to try to figure this out beforehand just to play it safe. In the meantime, I'll keep the mixtures to non-monoamine releasers. First one will be MXPCP, DiPT, and something, with that something either being allylescaline, metocin, miprocin, 2C-B, or a potent cannabinoid like THC-[H/B/P].
The name phenalozam brings me back. Never tried it but my first benzo was Phenazepam. Phenazepam was actually one of my first RC's
How was phenazepam? I know it was around when I was in high school, but the kids I went to school with really preferred etizolam, clonazolam, and sometimes flubro.
OT: Today's a day where I'm pushing for productivity, so bupropion (150mg to start), caffeine (200mg), THC-O (50mg), and maybe a little bit of etizolam would level all of that out. The etizolam is of a totally unknown dose tragically, a nasal sprayer died so I've been just pouring little bits of the solution into soda and drinking that.
Does anybody on this forum know of a nasal sprayer with good build quality?
