SirTophamHat
Bluelighter
Dope weed booze
I'm feeling pretty good... picked up some bags (of dope) yesterday and a few more today, and so I've been maintaining a nice little nod for quite some time now.
I have to say, though, that the withdrawal has been getting bad lately. Luckily, we have a stash of suboxone, so we should be all right... phew!
IV'ing has been on my mind a lot as a 300 mg oxy habit is getting harder and harder to maintain. Wish it was back in the exam days a few months ago where I'd be more than content with 80mgs for the day. Wonder what I'm gonna do this semester's exams, just straight dilaudid ? lol
Please don't do that to yourself.. In the end it'll only make it even harder to maintain.
ot: 10mg ambien
I think I'm gonna go back to using benzos therapeutically (as in, every day). I can't even hang out with friends I've known for 10y+ anymore without being anxious as fuck and just wanting to go home. (I always force myself to stay, but I never have any fun because I'm overly self-aware and well.. Just fucking anxious.)
Had a good talk with my parents and I think I managed to explain to them how I feel pretty well, and they finally understand a little how I think and what I feel like ALL THE TIME.
I've tried beta blockers, they didn't do much. I've pretty much made up my mind. I have no idea when I last went to the doc though, so I'm not sure I can get rx's already when I call him tomorrow. I hope so. I only waited 25 days .. Hmm I'm gonna be sad if I don't get em.
There is a God, and a few minutes after I posted this, he divinely told me to go clean my room.
I was under the assumption that I was out of everything but weed, seeing as I put forth a concerted effort at blooming into a full retard last night; great success.
But anyway, yeah, cleaning my room, got to the bookshelf and went to grabbing papers... lo and behold, my pickled and peppered brain had the foresight to tuck away six 20mg Adderall IR and five 0.5mg Klonopin.
You fuckin' rock, me! :D
I KNOW, RIGHT?! %)
So yeah, so far tonight:
6.5mg clonazepam
60mg Adderall
Regular tokes of some nice fruity headies, gonna go smoke a bowl or something.
There is a God, and a few minutes after I posted this, he divinely told me to go clean my room.
I was under the assumption that I was out of everything but weed, seeing as I put forth a concerted effort at blooming into a full retard last night; great success.
But anyway, yeah, cleaning my room, got to the bookshelf and went to grabbing papers... lo and behold, my pickled and peppered brain had the foresight to tuck away six 20mg Adderall IR and five 0.5mg Klonopin.
You fuckin' rock, me! :D
I KNOW, RIGHT?! %)
So yeah, so far tonight:
6.5mg clonazepam
60mg Adderall
Regular tokes of some nice fruity headies, gonna go smoke a bowl or something.
Don't you keep the RX bottles ? I keep a journal that records such things - when it comes to appointments I journal every detail - so I never mess one up and don't get my meds. I practically always go in early but would never go in more than 10 days early (that's my ground rule lol). Unless you've got a controlling dr who gives you a time frame when he puts on something new before you can come back... Those suck.
Yeah I edited my post after, I searched my posts to find out when I got my last script, which was on january the third. He's very easygoing so I'm not too worried. I mean I was gonna ask to him switch up my benzos anyway, I'll just say the diazepam and lormetazepam aren't working as well as they used to and I want clonazepam back, I'm also asking for bromazepam. He's never prescribed me the latter one before, but I doubt he'll refuse. I'm thinking either I get what I want or I get nothing at all.