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How high are you? v. Summertime: livin is easy

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^^^ LMAO - I've thought about pretending to be a junkie so I can get on MMT and have a mostly-free any-time fix -- but I have a feeling I'd have to prove it somehow and then the "diagnosis" would follow me until the end of time :[

it would be great to have monthly methadone as someone who only uses occasionally however.
 
SirTophamHat said:
^^^ LMAO - I've thought about pretending to be a junkie so I can get on MMT and have a mostly-free any-time fix -- but I have a feeling I'd have to prove it somehow and then the "diagnosis" would follow me until the end of time :[

it would be great to have monthly methadone as someone who only uses occasionally however.
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To you and above posters.

They test you when you start and continously test you at random, usually weekly for me it it was multiple times weekly. This is in idaho of course.

If you build a good rep with them you can get take homes up to like a month then would only have to test when you knew you were going in. So dose up before pickin up.

I was iving grams of h/lots of hydromorphone/oxycodone.

They started me at the max beginners dose 30mgs.
While still suffering wd I was only allowed to raise 5mgs every other day.

I met many actual pain patients who were effected by the prescription opiate crackdown.

I just had a pretty major surgery and none of my clinic history was included where my doc or n.p. could see.
 
Well got three more shifts then home for a week! I have 20mg methadone for each day so far since I dropped I feel no withdrawal symptoms at all. Hoping I just even out till Friday. Time for work!

COUSINCOCAINE hope all is well bro how ya feeling?


Joe bean
 
2 somas
1 g kratom tonight
20mg edibles
1 bowl of weed
...and a flip flop wine cooler I just discovered which are so easy to drink and at 6.5 percent stronger than a normal wine cooler or beer. they go down like sparkling cider. and as a bonus, the can looks just like an energy drink/refbull with a small 8 oz volume
 
kinda high. smoked weed, not enough though. i gotta clean my pipe. maybe i'll do it now.

i should buy mangos
 
After my 2 weeks of holiday and binge I have returned to my normal and daily routines both concerning work and going back to only taking what I am actually prescribed.

I went in over my head these two weeks and over did it. I made some rooky mistakes (for instance taking Etizolam and feeling sober while being visibly under the influence, taking too high daily doses of cocaine, ketamine, amphetamines etc.) which I am now paying for.
I have been struggleing with anxiety and depression-like-symptoms after returning to my normal dosages and work, and that is not exactly timed very well in light of having to go from holiday to a full work week.
Yesterday I choose to see if micro-dosing LSD can help a bit until I get back to normal. I tried it one day or two during the two weeks I am talking about, but this time it is a bit more planned and hopefully it will shine through as it is now only part of a few types of medications and not all kinds of medications both oral and IV and recreational drugs and what not.

Yesterday I took 35 ug LSD, today I upped to dose to 70 mg and this will be the dose for the next 2 days. I might attempt 100 ug one day, but I think this will be too much. I know from friends having tried these blotters (one blotter contains 280ug that the LSD on the blotters are potent), so I need to be careful as I do not intend to start tripping at work, I only search the small bost in well-being, creativity, energy and help with my "feeling down"-symptoms.

However, as I take the LSD with
80 mg Methadone (now down to - I intend to end up at approximately 60 mg each day)
+ even now and again some potentiators to help me cope with the lower dose
2 mg Clonazepam
10 mg Diazepam
600 mg Pregabalin
it might be harder for me to detect how the LSD influence me compared to someone not taking daily doses of what I do. However, I would be sad to come to the conclusion that I cannot "try" LSD as long as I am taking the amounts of opioids and benzodiazepines as I do. Do anyone know anything about this?

I hate how I know I have to control everything very carefully and write down each day exactly what I take in order for not just letting the inner addict run loose costing me a looot of money and yet despite knowing this and trying to prevent this - it is exactly what happens and now I will pay for this in several weeks to come both financially and psychologically. Stupid. But then again, I had some good days ;)
 
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1.0g Heroin
40mg Oxymorphone
80mg Methadone
4mg Clonazepam
2mg Alprazolam
2.0g Gabapentin
20mg Dicyclomine
100mg Promethazine
100mg Hydroxyzine

these opanas by KVK tech kick ass! They feel twice as potent as the others, the one currently on my avatar.

1. K 71 KVK TECH
2. 54 814 Roxane
3. E 795 10 Endo

I love mixing long acting and short acting opiates/Benzos.. the high lasts alllll day. Feeling GREAT.

cheers BL!
 
Went to a party last night and snorted many adderral+suboxone lines and got properly boozed.

To cure the hangover that I woke up with at 5pm I consumed (over the course of 3 hours):

60mg MSContin
Few bowls of herb
10mg baclofen
2.5mg etizolam
10mg flexeril

Up in Wal-Mart high as shit
 
Ignio I know how ya feel I took to much methadone at work not my last few days I'm scraping by. Shit sucks. It the addict in me had fun that's for sure. Hope my doc on Friday isn't pissed but I'll tell him the truth my pain was bad which is true and I took more then prescribed. I'm not hurting or in wd yet which is nice but I'm dosing 5mg when I get up and snorting 2.5 mg every few hours I work 12 hour shifts so tomorow is my last shift I'll hopefully have 10 mg left for that shift I wanted 20 but that's not gonna happen as that's what I have remaining but the hardest part is not being high or in a good mood because I'm not normal I'm jus blah lol hope work goes well for ya !

Joe bean
 
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^^oldschoolaz
Popped a few oxycontin 30mg, couple of tramadol 200 mg er, xannies, oxazepam, going for a cigg. I only took what I'm prescribed... phatty doin aight.
 
Few days of no painkillers and agony went by but now I'm now on and have a steady supply of buprenorphine prescribed for my pain. Luckily I didn't have to go through a methadone/Sub clinic (and since it was prescribed for pain instead of addiction it's the kind without naloxone, which I assume is used in an attempt to prevent people from getting high but idk...?) This stuff doesn't work as good as methadone but it has my pain down to a level I can tolerate + since it's a Schedule III rather than II they give me a way longer supply and it's not a pain in the ass to refill :) I know a lot of people say it's not a very recreational opiate (recreational potential is currently very low on my list of priorities compared to pain relief right now btw) but I'd honestly disagree with that. I'm personally enjoying it quite a bit. It doesn't have a nod anywhere near as good as methadone but I mean besides fentanyl, hydromorphone and very high doses of oxycodone what prescription opiates do? (Also sometimes morphine, idk about Opana and some of em because if never had the privilege of trying it/them)

I know a lot of people have very different opinions but I'd like to tell a few things I've in my personal experience noticed and enjoyed about buprenorphine so far. It seems to be a very mellow opioid, not a very sedating opioid like say IV fentanyl which had me sprawled across the bed drooling and laughing (very fun experience btw), just super relaxing but not to the point I can't function. I'll probably get a ton of shit for this but this is just MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCE, this surprises/suprised me as well but I honest to God find it more euphoric than methadone (euphoria was one of the few classic opioid characteristics I thought methadone was a bit lacking in) almost as euphoric as a moderate dose of morphine. It has that great opioid itch that I fell in love with when I first got into opiates, not too much of one just the perfect amount. Great warm feeling. It honestly feels almost exactly like codeine but with a hell of a lot more of a kick to it (like the time I took 250mg codeine with absolutely no tolerance +DPH +promethazine +Klonopin +temazepam +shot of 100proof rum. Just one of those almost perfect combos it's REALLY hard to beat. But buprenorphine is even better than that)

I think this might be in my top 5 favorite drugs now. Love this shit, say what you want but I think it's really really underrated. Had more typed out but I fucked up and deleted it somehow.

4.5mg buprenorphine (sublingual tablets, no naloxone as I mentioned earlier)
50mg tramadol (I randomly found in the bottom of a weed grinder lol)
2.25mg Klonopin
15mg temazepam
25mg Benadryl
25mg promethazine
a bowl of mid

Feeling great, even have a decent nod going on now :)
 
Bupe is shit for pain even when you are nodding off it.

P2c. Nice work on the MDA.

OT

Just discovered kratom extract ...once u go extract you never go back.

3oo mg extract kratom 50x
1 mg xanax
7oo mg soma
2oomg lyrica
2 glasses of wine
...more wine on deck.
 
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@LSD: did you make it or acquire it already extracted? is it alcohol based? i eventually want to try making one myself.

i just smoked some kush, had a coffee, fixing a 2nd. got like 4 things i ordered in the mail so it was a good day. starting this weekend i am working 13 days straight but other than that life is good :)
 
SirTophamHat said:
@LSD: did you make it or acquire it already extracted? is it alcohol based? i eventually want to try making one myself.

i just smoked some kush, had a coffee, fixing a 2nd. got like 4 things i ordered in the mail so it was a good day. starting this weekend i am working 13 days straight but other than that life is good :)
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bought it extracted. You can see crystals of something formed in the brown extract. hope its not laced with o-desmethyltram or some crazy opioid rc. Ive been using this braind of normal kratom for a year though.

This extract is much more stimulating than normal kratom. me likey. my xanax would normally have me sleeping.

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1 line of ketamine and weed edibles kicking in
 
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Joe Bean said:
Ignio I know how ya feel I took to much methadone at work not my last few days I'm scraping by. Shit sucks. It the addict in me had fun that's for sure. Hope my doc on Friday isn't pissed but I'll tell him the truth my pain was bad which is true and I took more then prescribed. I'm not hurting or in wd yet which is nice but I'm dosing 5mg when I get up and snorting 2.5 mg every few hours I work 12 hour shifts so tomorow is my last shift I'll hopefully have 10 mg left for that shift I wanted 20 but that's not gonna happen as that's what I have remaining but the hardest part is not being high or in a good mood because I'm not normal I'm jus blah lol hope work goes well for ya !

Joe bean
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Friday is getting very very close now :) I hope you got through your shift.

I am considering telling my doctor that I would like to be able to take 100 mg methadone each day instead of the 60-80 mg I am getting today. I don't have any physical reason for this, but psychologically I am a mess in terms of cravings and so on.. I thought they would diminish over time, but after 6 months I have just as many unplanned relapses if not more than before and it is coming to a point where I cannot focus on work because I think about what ever the fuck I have to take to feel a little..more high..
It is obviously the addict that are in control, but I don't know how to take the control instead. I talk like there is the addict me (which is kind of a little devil sitting on my shoulder) and then the 'real' me that are not an addict battling that bitch constantly, but that is the biggest defense mechanism I have ever seen :P

Today:
80 mg Methadone
100 mg Meclozine
400 mg Tramadol
10 mg Diazepam
4 mg Alprazolam
2 mg Clonazepam
600 mg Pregabalin
70 ug LSD - I feel like it is giving me more energy, a better mood and enhancing my focus. However, considering the amount of benzo's I am taking, I don't know if it actually have any effect (not the mention the Ketamine and Quetiapine I take to sleep currently).

I have been able to come out on the other side of the worst depression-like symptoms. Either it just happeneded coinsidently with my start of micro-doing LSD (if you can call 70 ug a micro-dose - you probably can until 140 or something?) or the LSD helped. But up to and including monday, when I woke in the morning, the only thing I wanted to do was to go back to sleep instantly. I kinda panicked as soon as I woke because I had NO energy what so ever to tackle what the day would bring. This - at least - is gone now. This is one of THE worst things I experienced during my ~two years of deep depression. So all the "alarm systems" in my body goes of as soon as this happen, and this is kinda like a synergy effect make things eksponentially worse.
This waking up and panicking because you just WANT to get back to sleep and do nothing else but sleep scares the shit out of me, as this make death seem so inviting. Sleep all the time. Forever. But I don't want to die. Not anymore. Being 30 and feeling like you are done living your life is a terrifying feeling. Believing that all the good days are in the past - and despite that you still have more tomorrows that yesterdays (from a point of view of the average life expectancy) - you think that the future will bring nothing more than more pain and addictive behavior.
 
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