Seyer
Bluelight Crew
Maybe this is the problem...NOW
Snortaline to eject from my body for a bit
Maybe this is the problem...NOW
Snortaline to eject from my body for a bit
No youre not breaking rules; we are just genuinely worried about you. NDMA treatment for depression is just what it is: treatment, not a cure. Drug use/abuse/whatever is not going to help in the long run considering what you have been through in literally just the last 3 months man. I dont mean to sound like a dick considering this is probably the last thing you want to read when youre high on drug but this is serious real talk.
OT: Victory Dirt Wolf (8.7% DIPA)
Clonazepam and WGFJ
a bowl of dank
probably close to a fifth of cheap whiskey depending...
TD: The only reason I bother to post is because I know how you feel. I haven't been in the exact same boat of course. But I can at least guess at what it's like. I'm not perfect either. Even though I live a normal functional life I drink and smoke lots of pot everyday to deal with a serious case of rapid-cycling bipolar disorder. I was hospitalized many times before accepting the diagnosis. I had read psychology books for years so before they told me I already knew what I had. When I told my family I was bipolar nobody was suprised. My dad smiled and said "son I knew your were crazy years ago. Now you just have a label to go with it." Well I may be crazy but I'll be damned if I don't do anything about it.
I quit doing hard drugs. I can't believe I did that. I quit a lot of negative things that were making my condition worse. And I started doing some postitive things like ride my bike to work and that kind of thing. And still things are pretty shitty I gotta be honest. But I've been worse. I've been a lot worse. I never thoughf I'd support myself. I do and have for over a year. I don't make much but I work hard as a cook. I can move up in the industry when I'm ready. I'm smart with my money and eat at the restaraunt. I don't buy shit I don't need. Just weed and booze for recration\self-medication. And so it's not like I'm even "clean" by some definitions. And yet I am going forward in life everyday. I'm taking some winter classes and fall classes for college this year. A couple month ago I quit smoking cigarettes and chewing tobacco. I'm just constantly working on ways to better myself and making sure that once I improve an area I keep it that way. I don't pretend to be perfect or have all the answers but if you want to talk send me a pm or give this a reply. Just trying to look out man. The only reason I even log on is to help people so let me help if you are willing.
n1, keep it going.
Morning oxy, a quarter of my usual dose 1.5 OC 40s and no oxy norm.
so not high, or barely comfortable. Shoulda listened to my last surgeon who said if i carry on with the strong opiates im gonna become pathetic. Gonna suck the coating off an OC 80, that should give me a boost.
We are all in this together
Ther r oth
I think it all will be set good in time
all is one
unity