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Fuck me @Nightraver you can norralf take a lot of downers! Feels like we're kindred spirits.
Fuck man I still feel edgy. It's hard not to feel like I'm gonna feel like this forever. Fucking shite man. Oh well I'm on the upswing at least, that's a positive.
It’s a blessing and a curse bro
A curse because I’ve such a fkn tolerance only massive amounts of cash or drugs to get totally wasted
And a blessing because I got this tolerance having the time of my life in the late 90s early 00s and it just never left
 
Im sober! My Friend is tipsy. So nothing crazy. Just drinking a couple beers.

I did have my medical marijuana card, but i burnt through two ounces in two weeks by myself no joke! I don't have that kind of money. Plus i really don't like flower anymore, not even alcohol unless it's liquor and I'm around some bitches and need some liquid courage.


Im boring and relatively sober minus the two miller lites.
 
160mgs of Memantine this morning, still riding the wave. Gonna dose again tommorow heavy as well and push my way through these Methadone withdrawals. But when all is said and done i probably wont be all the way back to baseline for quite awhile. This is just my world now 🤔
 
Will you need to slowly taper the meantime? Does it have a withdrawal? Any good reading material about it @cosmic charlie?

Well tommorow morning is gonna be day 4 on nothing completly, i didn't take any memantine at all today because i was up all night and im still heavily dissociated. Ended up taking 420mgs in three days which is a substantial amount, its also a dopamine agonist as well as NMDA so the stimulating effect from larger dosages can make sleep an issue.

Memantine doesnt have any withdrawal of its on its not physically habit forming, for the purpose of treating an opioid detox like im in its good to take a large attack dosage like i did those first days and now im just gonna load up on 50mgs a day tommrow after i get some sleep hopefully tonight. I still feel no dope sickness whatsoever, this stuff is remarkable. Only issue i have is fatigue and mild RLS.

Im gonna place a link in here to my TR, @plumbus-nine posted alot of great info in there about using Memantine to come off opioids. You should absolutly give it ago. Its much less complicated than using something like Ibogaine IMO. I hear thats amazing also but i have some health issues and ive always been scared of a flood dose for that reason.

https://bluelight.org/xf/threads/truly-a-wonder-drug-memantine.927991/

Im gonna update my report and add more after all this is over, hope this helps ❤️
 
Took 100mgs of Memantine today, started with 50mgs in the morning but i was still kinda uncomfortable so i ended up taking more. Went to see the doctor and she is gonna send in the script for Buprenorphine and i should get it on Monday or Tuesday.

So im just gonna have to ride this out the weekend. Not sure how much i will dose tomorrow it all depends. But all in all im pretty good right now at this level, just hanging out and listening to music 😊
 
little buzzed on the delta 8 pineape upside down cake but only a puff.
another small bit of coffee and hit again.
got absoutely nothing to do today cept engineer and create an inpenetrable orb of tungsten lined with rubber room material. A mental place to leave shit that only I have access to when/if I feel the need or want.
A shift in frequencies is the only way to pass through and access contents and I alone know this frequency.
Problem is tungsten may be the hardest of metals but brittle and can be shattered with a sharp blow.
exercize ;)
 
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Happy shaturday beautiful Blue Yonder
180mg oxy
Usual dose of gabapentin
40mg diazepam
Few vapes purple soda weed approx 3g
100mfg naproxen
Half g Scottish brown shit insulfated
Smoking weed/tobacco joint and sipping a fckn amazing cup of tea as I type
Hope you’re all having a good safe weekend whomsoever is bothered enough to read this
As always peace ✌️ out
Nightraver
 
Fck it am railing up another 80mg oxy and big bowl of stardog weed
It’s shaturday av no kids today and bored/lonely so would be weird not too
 
50mgs of Memantine

Really uncomfortable right now from the Methadone withdrawal, my body just cant stay still i wont stop squirming around its driving me nuts. Still not getting on Bupe for another couple days.
 
Anyhoo thanks for the kind words of encouragement guys n gals actors and actresses
Was very touched at how the support messages came through
@AutoTripper not a dig at you bro am just grumpy and you seem a kindred spirit
Need some dam meaning in this shit show they call life
Imho we are all in purgatory
Anyhoo @AutoTripper i hope life is treating you good my fellow shining diamond 💎
 
Fuck abusing pregabalin btw. It feels great every now and again but the withdrawal is horrible.
You’re not wrong. And even if you’re not ABUSING it, but using for therapeutic reasons, it’s hard AF to quit.

My daily intake was steady and consistent, up until recently. My pain levels are soaring, and I’m genuinely worried I won’t be able to quit these things…

I usually take 1 300mg pregabalin every night, and I supplement with gabapentin during the day if needed. These days I’m taking 2-3 gabapentin a day! I also take kratom daily, but my dosage was low; well, I’ve been taking extract lately, and tons of it. Just to not be in screaming pain. Idk wtf is going on with ny stupid body lately. I’m also having trouble quitting the nicotine vape, so that and weed (again for pain, usually in the form of edibles but I just stole a bunch of pre rolls and some nice buds from my ex, lol. Remaining just a tad stoned does seem to help.)

I hate to say this, but I missed heroin today. The pain was that bad, usually I don’t even consider it. And this isn’t the first time lately I’ve said this…
 
Fck am still here fckn absolute bastard llf
Just railing up 160mg ox
And plan on washing down 80mg diazepam with a cup of tea
Have already rolled a j for after
And will probably have another 80mg oxy before
Lunch
Then see where the day takes me
Peace out
Nightraver
 
Anyhoo thanks for the kind words of encouragement guys n gals actors and actresses
Was very touched at how the support messages came through
@AutoTripper not a dig at you bro am just grumpy and you seem a kindred spirit
Need some dam meaning in this shit show they call life
Imho we are all in purgatory
Anyhoo @AutoTripper i hope life is treating you good my fellow shining diamond 💎
Yo brother love always.

Mate if you weren't down atm I'd consider you a lucky one, a deluded one, or I dunno lol.

Thanks for shouting me always. Dig is the wrong word too lol.

It's a harmless call for help. No harm there.

As it happens too man, if it's real meaning you want, you've come to the right man,

I've berm accruing it in bundles as far as a heavily damaged Nervous System, and faculties allow.


However I can't say it will "help" you lol. More like blow a mind.


I've been through a bitter endless personal hell here. Finally, finally just bout fully healing a torturous anal fissure which occurred after about 9 months of brutal hemorrhoids the entire time my insides of anal canal and and bowels were worse sliced up 2 pieces no sleep no rest pick sick and in pain levels I could never put into words for so long this stuff stresses you out following a simple back injury on Halloween night 2021!

It's completely lost it seems on the vast though. 99% plus actually.

I gave up.

I'm in the darkest place ever atm too. Never been so truly suicidal. I've gone crazy. But none of my theories thoughts ideas beliefs.

Just temperament, losing head from too too much for any mind & body eventually.


So excuse me here f sounding so clinical cold etc.

V v v fatigued and stress like never!


But first. This might at least lift your spirits.





Now meaning, I can too do. Except I gave this up. Most people like 99% + if not 100 still are basically under electronic mind control which always averses the truth for them never realising.

AI Nanotech in us our DNA as a breeding hack.

Plus Earthwide saturation with Chemtrail sprayed Graphene Oxide, bodies extra loaded all toxic conductive heavy metals.

Really not far fetched IMO and these tings real too!


It's darker & darker deeper we go though, hence ignorance so bliss!


But this is by definition Meaning lol.








More meaning..





From here screenshotted. Again seriously to the core meaning.



Plenty plenty more. But f now.

Hold in bro. Big times big tings huge changes on way nobody knows when or what though!
 
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