@AutoTripper You trip a LOT

You take all that etizolam at once? Or throughout the day? Seems like a huge dose. But don't have much experience with that stuff.
Feeling alright. Stoned out of my mind if anything.
.5mg xanax
250mg phenibut (most likely placebo. will try more next time)
~15mg methadone
Some fire weed.
Roll up cigs.
Lots of food.
Don't know whats up with me. I feel like my drug usage is still out of hand, but read what you guys take. I guess I am just taking the bare minimum to stay alive lol.
Hi there hope you are well tonight. No not all at once with the etiz.
I try my best to limit it, and scatter on a need basis.
Often my 10-13 mg intake starts awaking in bed before nearly enough sleep, feeling rough and panicky. 2 or 2.5 mg can calm my mind, relax my body, enable me to get back to sleep for a few more hours restful sleep.
But I aim if possible to leave it until I am finally up,and about, usually by Evening time these days.
It is very heavy usage though. Equivalent to 100-130 mg Valium per day, or 10-13 blue 10 mg diazes. It's very flexible and spontaneous, I aim to use less, and spread it out, less psychologically dependant.
But I will need a massive change of circumstances, plus substantial outside help, which is cut off from me at present.
And true also, lots of LSD, but nothing too crazy. 180 100ug legit tabs in 13 months is nearing 300ug per week, averaged out
Like an OG Microdot weekly, for 13 months.
Just finishing 50 grams Kava tonight after 5.5 mg Etiz, after the most blown up, head to head, doomsday, traumatic argument mum and I have ever had earlier.
Only a good dose of Cannabis edibles to follow now, a little more etiz too probably.
I only wish the Etiz was more euphoric/antidepressant and less sedating.