Still feeling the afterglow of the clonaz and lorazepam I had last night feeling good
Fell into a full 90 script of 600mg gabapentins my mothers friend died sadly and before she died she gave them to my mom
my mother knows gabapentin is about the best thing I could be doing compared to my old DOC so she just gave them to me out of the blue she just showed up at my apartment cuz she knows I’m struggling
I’m extremely blessed to have such an open minded mother she is one of the only people who got me thru my 250mg a day alprazolam habit I had for a year she understands that I’m not just getting high and that it’s comin from pain and she always knew when I was in psychosis no matter how mean or ridiculous I acted she always brought me back to reality
She would literally place 1mg of clonaz crushed under my tongue when I was seizing which was a very common occurrence with that big of an alp habit she is the only reason I’m alive man
Anyways gaba makin me ramble
1200mg gabapentin IR spaced 300mg every 45 minutes with a fatty meal (with zero tolerance)
1mg clonazepam buccal (IMO best way to take clonaz) ik it’s bad for my gums tho gonna have to quit that
3 cups of strong black coffee
100mg diphenhydramine
800mg ibuprofen
Marlboros
Absolutely in heaven rn (I suffer debilitating anxiety disorders so it’s not just a buzz for me buuuut I am buzzing hard literally staring at the screen and pausing for no reason
Hope everyone is well and good
