I took 100mg tramadol and poppy seed tea 225g yesterday for cold/bronchitis with my daily 5g kratom and small dabs and it had me blasted all day with my relatively low opiate tolerance. I went from feeling like death with chest pain and congestion to feeling completely normal, it was such a relief. Something about opium tea (pst) in particular makes it a miracle cure for a really bad cold/upper respiratory tract infection. The sedative effects of morphine, and the papaverine and other muscle relaxers, maybe? Also the seeds were unusually potent: huge clumps of seeds in the container, very brown liquid, very bitter, etc.
Tbh I didn't really like getting super high on opiates this time around, although being zonked out for the day during the peak of a really bad cold was a godsend. Today I took 5g kratom, 100mg tram, and 175g pst and it was dosed perfectly. I drank the first wash at 4am to sleep for 7 more hours, then the other 2 washes with the rest of my drugs. Don't feel blasted at all, just mildly high. I can read comfortably without nodding out, and I used to love being zonked out of my mind on opium tea/hydros/nucyntas, but I guess my priorities in life have changed, as have my desired drug effects.
Went for a 5 mile bike ride with no drowsiness, while being careful not to exert myself too heavily to not exacerbate the bronchitis. Beautiful day, not humid at all, very polite drivers who left plenty of space while passing me, I love Sundays sometimes.
I feel somewhat opiate/stoned now with the runner's high on top of it, but it's such a more natural, focused, energetic, less mongy high. Gonna swim a couple laps, take a shower, and ride this feel to finish a PKD book I've really wanted to finish for some time now.
So basically: I still love ya, opiates, you have helped me so much, medicinally, and at a time when I was in a lot of emotional pain, you helped me get through that as well. However, with better coping mechanisms, different priorities, and different hobbies, I don't like taking ya in anything more than threshold doses anymore. I am still grateful to have access to plenty of your variants to treat chronic pain, but am also grateful I've matured enough to realize that they are not a sustainable medicine to treat emotional pain.
This was a bit long, but it kind of hit me this weekend dosing PST that my relationship with opies has changed drastically for the better, and wanted to write it down ASAP to remind myself how I was feeling now in the future. I guess I'm in a much better place now, and I should be so lucky to be able to realize that and be as prudent as possible in changing my life and achieving the things I've wanted all my life.
