MikeRWK
Bluelighter
If Fentanyl was personified; it would resemble King Midas.
At one point, 750mcg of Fentanyl would have elicited the same pleasure, in me, as a 750kg bar of Gold would in the hands of the King.
Fentanyl presents to me as feminine in form, a cruel, elusive Femme Fatale.
She allows one to experience the purest opioid hedonism, euphoric, apathetic, analgesic, anaesthetic ecstasy. But only once.
Just once.
The admission price for entry into her Nirvana climbs, scaling linearly with the desperation, the hunger, the agonising desire that only yields to she.
The eternal bliss she promised? A lie. She exists there, alone.
Never again will you accompany her.
Cursed is every mortal who looks Her in the eyes, blinded by the wonderland She promises without remorse, and yet cannot see the fiery, demonic, apocalyptic, soul-devouring abyss lurking just behind.
OT: Ya' know the 2 typical detox gameplans:
1) Taper (if possible) and use BZD/GABAx to mitigate excitory signals in PNS, plus sedation.
2) Nuke the WD by blasting away on a stim-binge. Insomnia, anorexia, temp. issues? Accept them as stim side effects - you're up for 48/72 hrs either way, may as well try and enjoy them!
I'm trying (3).
Taper, Vals, Triaz as last resort KO, 'Caine, Bud and N-Foxxy is my kit.
I like that description and even though I've never tried fent or ever IV'd I feel like its dead on. OT PST Tuesday is going great! Starting to feel a glow :D