I cannot believe that no. And thank you dude that really means a lot, I do doubt myself often, especially today... although that could be the 3 hours of sleep and the fact I know I have to have a small argument with a certain someone in a few hours.

You seem like you've got your shit together too if you'll excuse my lame echo of your really nice compliment lol but genuinely Bluelight is a better place with you on it, you're one of the good ones for sure.
Have you ever tried any of the non-pharma ones? (really dislike that "RC" term

..) Some interesting there I think, etizolam is one of my faves too because of the short duration but less manic, more valiumesque feeling. Clonazolam was pure knockout, so a bit dull. Pyrazolam is another I'm super interested in though, had some once and it was so clear headed, I believe I've read the ultraselectivity might make it less tolerance-inducing too although they often say this about novel benzos and it's probably bull... must be some reason it's not prescribed, AFAIK anyway. Got some coming soon I hope... but a bit dubious of the source so we'll see...