it's right up there with phatass and pilltochill. i don't think T*R lies, fwiw, he's just him.
i'm buzzing nicely off of my morning fix of thc and caffeine. psyched to get today's work done.
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To those commenting on what I did and to anyone who thinks I was lying - maybe this will straighten out things a bit:
I did take too much, but I just naturally have a really high tolerance for benzos. The first time I had benzos, I used at least 100mg of diazepam and felt only moderate effects at best. If it had just been the benzos and none of the other shit, I could have probably acted normal. I do have some physical tolerance to them now, but it is mostly just natural.
My tolerance to hydrocodone has increased, but that was still a lot more than I have used of it at once before.
I was feeling suicidal when I did that to be honest and was hoping it would be just enough to do me in, but I was too scared to actually make it a suicide attempt so I just decided to do something that may have had a small potential of causing death - that is really all there was to it. I was intentionally doing something dangerous.
I have lied about doses a few times - I'd take a really massive dose of a research chemical and claim the dose was smaller than it really was because I would not want someone else trying to copy me with my excessive doses and dying. I haven't lied in that way in quite a while, but if I decided I wanted to plug 250mg 4-aco-dmt + 90mg 3-meo-pcp, I would list a smaller dose if I posted about it here - not to be deceptive, just to keep anyone else from trying it out.
I was not worried about anyone copying that combo of downers as that was obviously dangerous (unless tolerance is really high) so I just posted what I used instead of saying the dose was smaller.
I've been feeling suicidal a lot and I think I could be coming closer to a time when I'll just use all my stash at once - I really don't want to be alive and it is only getting worse.
Edit:
The amount of hydrocodone was probably a little less than I posted because part of it was a cold water extraction and I am sure a little of the hydrocodone was left behind/lost.