It has been 2 moths since my first MDMA experience and I'm thinking to take it again soon.
There was no real ''back-end'' just a subtly pleasant afterglow.
I don't think I got the full experience but it was worth it nevertheless. It definitely felt like weight has lifted off my shoulders as others have put it. And it did change me for the better.
Reading the forum makes it clear, MDMA abuse can mess people up - cognition problems, poor memory, anxiety, depression..
Which would be totally counterproductive to my intention.
I have to approach this as careful as possible, I definitely want to avoid these issues.
It's necessary to do a cost benefit analysis when it comes to substances that can potentially cause devastating effects if abused.
The initial dose had a great aspect of benefit, now not so much as I have come to a realization that there is not much to learn anymore from an mdma induced state,
I know what I have to do to fix most of the problems that are constantly bugging me and keeping me depressed/hopeless.
Now it would be more for fun, I don't want to deceive myself into thinking I have to take MDMA to fix my issues.
So the ''benefit'' has lessened and the ''cost'' has probably increased.
Well my question is -
Is a 2 month break long enough to avoid a bad comedown and rather have an afterglow like I had before?
Keep in mind this will only be my second experience and I don't plan to take much, max 120mg.
I'd appreciate your input.
(English is not my first language so please excuse the bad articulation. I was kinda beating around the bush and not really finishing what I intended to write)
There was no real ''back-end'' just a subtly pleasant afterglow.
I don't think I got the full experience but it was worth it nevertheless. It definitely felt like weight has lifted off my shoulders as others have put it. And it did change me for the better.
Reading the forum makes it clear, MDMA abuse can mess people up - cognition problems, poor memory, anxiety, depression..
Which would be totally counterproductive to my intention.
I have to approach this as careful as possible, I definitely want to avoid these issues.
It's necessary to do a cost benefit analysis when it comes to substances that can potentially cause devastating effects if abused.
The initial dose had a great aspect of benefit, now not so much as I have come to a realization that there is not much to learn anymore from an mdma induced state,
I know what I have to do to fix most of the problems that are constantly bugging me and keeping me depressed/hopeless.
Now it would be more for fun, I don't want to deceive myself into thinking I have to take MDMA to fix my issues.
So the ''benefit'' has lessened and the ''cost'' has probably increased.
Well my question is -
Is a 2 month break long enough to avoid a bad comedown and rather have an afterglow like I had before?
Keep in mind this will only be my second experience and I don't plan to take much, max 120mg.
I'd appreciate your input.
(English is not my first language so please excuse the bad articulation. I was kinda beating around the bush and not really finishing what I intended to write)
