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I've never had a pleasant od, I've had worse ones than the slow mo morphine one, but I don't want to bore you. Drowning....with vomiting. It's really not whooo hoo fun.

Poppy seeds are no good, Coasty. Glad you are still with us.

I play guitar too. How long you been playing? It's not inevitable, you don't have to die, schroomy. Write some songs about it, get a band together.
 
ShroomySatori said:
Wow. Overdosing doesn't sound as pleasant as I thought it would be. I thought you just drifted off to oblivion...

That sounds horrible. Whenever I used to fuck around with heroin a little much and do bigger lines of raw #4 than I typically would, I occasionally would pass out and wake up several hours later, not remembering what happened and just feeling like I took a nap. I was alone whenever this would happen. I figured an OD would be like an extension of that... just never waking up...

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I OD'd a few times when over the years that I was using. Personally, they were pretty much as you imagined...except for one time, I didn't even know it was happening until I came to. *Then* it was no fun, though...getting smacked around, bags of frozen peas on my balls, with the lovely patina of my own puke down my front.
 
Fuck man. Glad you made it through simco. Well just so you know dude I haven't been abusing my prescription yet. Not in any way whatsoever, but I'm still taking my 40mg oxy a day for pain. I'm going to be doing that for a while. I had some slip-ups with cocaine and heavy benzo use (I realized that nothing but klonopin works for me anymore), but I am still going strong with the opioids dude.

Hi I.Miss.You, I have been playing guitar on and off for a decade. How about yourself? However, just last year I became very serious about my playing. I began keeping a notebook of lyrics and chord progressions etc. and also learning a lot more musical theory to help me improvise. Everything I play now is improvised, and I am considering switching my career path from an engineer to that of a post-hardcore guitarist. I play melodic, little grungy, kinda rhythmic / funky post-hardcore because I have funk influences, and Nirvana of course. I love writing songs and I really want to get a band together in the future - but for now, I need to work on myself and my own playing until I am ready. I'm really out of practice because when the addiction got bad, I stopped giving a fuck. So I have a timer going on my phone when I play now, and I aim to practice at least 4 hours a day. I'm really serious about it and I find that I am more creative than ever before. Definitely not the burnout I refer to myself as at times.

It's good the people who mentioned OD's above are still with us : )

Today is a better day. Not so frustrated and lonely today. I've got my guitar, and a simple but awesome signal chain set up: my overdrive to my Maxon analog delay (a nice warm one that goes well with distortion)... followed by my clean boost to kick my tube amp into overdrive. Loving it. Last year was when I got all my sweet equipment and guitars too... my fender american deluxe fat strat is incredible, and I have a telecaster as well, both with maple necks. And a nice analog pedal collection too (albeit, I sold half of them for drugs, but kept all my favourites). I can't even believe how well I've been playing today. I am really improving since I got out of this withdrawal funk. I was shredding hard enough that it was like a physical workout, I had to stop for the time being because my body isn't used to it yet.
 
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ShroomySatori said:
Fuck man. Glad you made it through simco. Well just so you know dude I haven't been abusing my prescription yet. Not in any way whatsoever, but I'm still taking my 40mg oxy a day for pain. I'm going to be doing that for a while. I had some slip-ups with cocaine and heavy benzo use (I realized that nothing but klonopin works for me anymore), but I am still going strong with the opioids dude.
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You're doing awesome, man. You've got this.
 
For sure man, thanks for the encouragement. I'm stable on the oxy's now (what I need for back pain, not to get wasted), and I have a whole lot of personal shit to deal with. Getting my life back on track and not living for drugs. Feels really good, I just have to make smarter choices because when I start feeling good like this is when I tend to do stupid shit!
 
Hi schroomy. Good to hear you sounding strong. We should have a blue light post our music thread. ..I've a Norman acoustic, and I play a 1970s fender mustang , or my beloved Dan electro....mesa boogie amp, a few pedals. Been playing 22 years. I do mostly singer songwriter stuff alone, but have a project band called the paltry sum. We've been recording a lot recently. Didn't finish the album (everything's a concept album), because...drugs. anyway, don't wanna bore you. I'm old and washed up now.

That's finished for now, we are moving south for winter.
 
I have a Norman acoustic too! It's a nice light colour with a dark rosewood fretboard. Really nice looking and sounding; I got it all tuned up last year since it is pretty old now.

I must say it gets hardly any use at all anymore since I picked up these badass fender guitars last year. Great guitar though, and it's nice for when I have to keep quiet.

I've been starting to record some stuff, just with my looper pedal which has the capability to create layered pieces and save them over to my laptop. Just for fun really and I have to get started somewhere.
 
That's all I'm doing, just for fun. I use a 8 track tascam recorder with an multi effects machine, reverb etc....but we can get it to sound pretty good.

I can't get along with computer software recording.

The Norman is sweet, but I miss my martin grand auditorium.

I've no idea how to pm...but if you ever want to talk guitars I'm around. I'd like to hear what you are doing.

Hang on in there. There's hope for you. I'm finished, I don't expect ill see out the fucking year at this rate.
 
Fuck eh we all seem to be suicidal. I took a huge dose of xanax with a bit of oxy tonight. The xanax was really not necessary and it was also etizolam, which I really quite enjoy (not so much xanax). Don't know what I was thinking I just hope I'm okay. I mean... I feel great, but it's just bad and self-destructive. I couldn't handle the emotions I was experiencing. Crushing loneliness.

If you are gonna do anything stupid like I just did, we can have a chill talk if you'd like.
 
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