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How Are You in One Word v. Somewhere Over the Rainbow

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Alone After what has probably been the worst year of my life so far. Just waiting for it to end and start again but not even sure i can do that yet.
 
spork said:
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God I feel ya. My boy posted this diagram earlier on fb.
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Lonely. I haven't left the house or spoken to another human since Sunday. I feel so alone it hurts, and I don't have drugs to fill the void. I wish I had someone.
 
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SeanC said:
Alone After what has probably been the worst year of my life so far. Just waiting for it to end and start again but not even sure i can do that yet.
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kace said:
Lonely. I haven't left the house or spoken to another human since Sunday. I feel so alone it hurts, and I don't have drugs to fill the void. I wish I had someone.
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you know what they say; loneliness is patience way of reminding you that you are worth the wait.
 
Sad. Today marks one year since my grandpa has died. I miss him soooo much more than I ever thought I would. We used to jam together; him on his trumpet and me on my clarinet. Tonight 'm going to go buy some reeds for my clarinet and try to play it again for the first time in over 13 years for him. I wish I could hug him one last time. :(

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Aww, sweetie, biiggg hugs to you.. That sounds like a good way to remember him.

I'm ok today. Think it's a good time to focus on me. Scary.
 
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Sad. Today marks one year since my grandpa has died. I miss him soooo much more than I ever thought I would. We used to jam together; him on his trumpet and me on my clarinet. Tonight 'm going to go buy some reeds for my clarinet and try to play it again for the first time in over 13 years for him. I wish I could hug him one last time. :(

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That was a heart touching story spork! <3

I recently started to play the Oboe again (I actually found one usable reed! double reeds break so easily too) after at least 3-5 years of not playing it. Let me know how it goes for you. :)
 
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you know what they say; loneliness is patience way of reminding you that you are worth the wait.
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Hope so. :)

Word atm is sick did something bit stupid with alcohol and meds but will be okay. Trying so hard not to keep going down this path!
 
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That was a heart touching story spork! <3

I recently started to play the Oboe again (I actually found one usable reed! double reeds break so easily too) after at least 3-5 years of not playing it. Let me know how it goes for you. :)
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It ended up being so awesome. :) I was going to back out because I thought it would just make me super sad, but as soon as I saw the clarinet and touched its keys I remembered why I loved playing so much. At first it was difficult, but I got into it really quick and surprised myself with how much I've remembered. I'm by no means as good as I was but I think I could actually get there again. This is what has been missing in my life and I haven't felt this alive in years. I know it sounds corny, but I feel like this was one last gift given to me by grandfather and I couldn't have asked for anything better. <3
 
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i feel fucking horrible.
i'm not sick or anything, or well maybe i am? not physically that i can think of.. more emotionally? the thought of suicide has crossed my mind these past few days. I don't see my life going anywhere, I work for fucking gas money it seems like because i live 30+mins from work and get paid minimum wage.
the girl that i've been living with has made things hard on me, wanting a relationship and i'm no where ready for one. hell i cant even help myself.
my depression has been kicking my ass, and i've been self medicating with weed and various pills. only seem to help for a littlewhile then it's back to reality.

did talk to my dad today, and he's wanting to plan a vacation in the smokey mountains, ive been there alot as a kid and fucking love it there. thats exactly what i need, is a vacation from this shit. maybe that will help me? who knows, hope i can last until then or something.
 
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Hanging out with an old female friend. N;;;o intention for sex its just nice to hold feel and rub her down caress and make out. Sorry to sound sappy gut i've been lonely. Her and i have a very comfy relationship. We're both touchy feel and we're just playin around.
I've been single since July and just moved and saw her whom i hadn't for 5 years. This feels good i hope it could turn into something
 
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Hanging out with an old female friend. N;;;o intention for sex its just nice to hold feel and rub her down caress and make out. Sorry to sound sappy gut i've been lonely. Her and i have a very comfy relationship. We're both touchy feel and we're just playin around.
I've been single since July and just moved and saw her whom i hadn't for 5 years. This feels good i hope it could turn into something
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Sounds comfortable and lovely. I hope it turns into something too.<3

@PA--good for you. I hope tomorrow is a little better too and the day after and that it turns into a whole lot less stressed soon.<3

@D's--I hope you get to go to the mountains. Nothing like nature to reset the brain.<3
 
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