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How are you in one word v. Pedalling through the dark currents

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heavy tongue, sloppy face
line renders form before color
longing for the hottest of summer's sun.

OD- i know exactly how you feel.
 
ocean said:
Getting sick.
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Oh that sucks hun!! :( Hope you feel better soon <3


Me: hesitant
Just saw a potentially-concerning status update on facebook from a friend who I don't know that well. I'd like to reach out, but for the fear that he will scoff and make me feel silly for asking him if he's okay....
I'll ask him anyway.
 
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((this didnt cause the thought, nothing did except
the awareness of further inhibitions.))
im still astounded at how i didnt go to the
pain management clinic, and how, that was needed to know im in ~ 70% less pain, besides w/d-- guaranteed to end some day now...
im not stepping out of that constant hell, and chase of pain killers, and astounding loss to sit around thinking about it all.
~ lol.

good things -- more awful and greater then can be imagined come to those who are patient, try, do, accept, and grow with life.

... i think i really should continue doing so.
and it aint happening like that.
im not to be placed in a nursing home in the next 20-30 years; this seems like what will become, after its too late, "the best choice" so, more thoughtful battles i accept.
 
panic in paradise said:
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star gazing at all?
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If it wernt so cloudy.. :[

just the feeling of working my ass off, and seeing that i'm becoming a better person around here in the community.

I'm a little nervous. Doing my Step 1 with my sponsor here in a little. (NA step-work).

I'm ready to share my struggles with addiction with someone face to face.
 
pushingthrough
this can all go away if I do 'just one'
Fuck that! I knew it wouldn't be easy. I know it will pass eventually.
I have become one of those hurt people who is hurting people.
 
D's said:
If it wernt so cloudy.. :[

just the feeling of working my ass off, and seeing that i'm becoming a better person around here in the community.

I'm a little nervous. Doing my Step 1 with my sponsor here in a little. (NA step-work).

I'm ready to share my struggles with addiction with someone face to face.
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cool man, to each his own eh?
i dont do meetings well, but the steps i cant ignore-
1-5 i skip through often in a couple of thoughts sometimes.

this can be a true spiritual experience in my blue ish book... breaking yourself down right in front of yourself, acknowledging the crap, and sorting through accepting it as, then disposing of it honestly,, leaving room for more humanitarian thoughts like your community, and yourself more , lovingly.
~
its good.

haha
 
panic in paradise said:
cool man, to each his own eh?
i dont do meetings well, but the steps i cant ignore-
1-5 i skip through often in a couple of thoughts sometimes.

this can be a true spiritual experience in my blue ish book... breaking yourself down right in front of yourself, acknowledging the crap, and sorting through accepting it as, then disposing of it honestly,, leaving room for more humanitarian thoughts like your community, and yourself more , lovingly.
~
its good.

haha
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I've herd that good shit comes after steps 1-5. usually when I hear of someone working their step 6+ I only hear good things.
I've yet to hear someone feel like they dont understand the program after working steps 1-5.
I JUST started my step 2. the come to believe in a power greater than myself to restore me to sanity.. I'm having to break this down.
like I believe that some external force has stopped me from putting the syringe in my arm, and that "external force" has restored some part of my sanity.. lol not all of it, but the basic insanity things.. like being able to enjoy the "simple" things in life. :)

Yeah I've worked the steps the AA and CA way.. and I dunno, I'm just not a huge fan of just reading something and moving on.. I'm a well believer on putting pen to paper in order to understand something(even if it's just a smigin).

It felt nice to get all that shit out there. In 2 weeks I'll hopefully be done with the step work, and will move on to 3.

eh I had such a bad headache today, like after i did my step 1, my head just started to POUND! like holy shit ouchies.
I still have some ibprophin 800mgs, so i took one, and it's like starting to get better.

hope im not getting sick.. :/
 
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