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How Are You In One Word v. I know the feeling!

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Fighting myself, shit not lookin like it gettin any better anytime soon:(
also pretty Cut my relationship is yet again failing and it hurts me but it hurts her more me bein like this... Just wanna c her happy, even if it takes crushing my heart to do so.
 
disrespected: I want to tell you to fuck off. Maybe then you will finally get the picture -____- I'm tired of your bullshit but of course ill just end up dealing with it.
 
n3ophy7e said:
Much love to you dude, I hope you're feeling better soon <3
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Mad love right back at you. I feel slightly better everyday when I wake up, but when its night and nearly time for sleep my mind just runs wild. The process of moving on and forward from being seperated from a loved one is long and tough, but I know I can make it through.

At this very second, Im feeling okay. Not good or bad, just somewhere in the middle ground.
 
Nighttime is the worst because no matter how ragged you run yourself during the day, you're going to have that time between when you get into bed and when you fall asleep where your mind has a field day with your emotions. I'm running into a problem now, where I keep doing stuff until I am absolutely exhausted so that this time is minimised, but unfortunately that has me up half of the night most times (and then screwed for work the next day).

One thing that actually does help me is to read before bed. I find that I think about the plotlines of the book instead of the plotlines of my life, and in that sense it's not as bad. I find it best to be a complex mystery novel.


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I've been letting my insecurities get the best of me the past few days, and as a consequence probably missed out on a few social opportunities. I'm so freakin' shy and anxious when I'm clean/sober that I'm rendered paralyzed quite often. I need to work on this.
 
I only have 2 books with me at the moment, all the other ones are in boxes being shipped to me along with all of my other things which wont be arriving for a number of weeks. Ive read these 2 books so many times that Ive basically memorized the story. Theyre memoirs about drug addicts, which I find to be the most appealing tales to me. I think that soon will be the time to head to the big city and invest in a few new books.
 
sweaty

It was over 100 degrees today and it is supposed to be like this the rest of the week. I guess dealing with 3 miserable months of heat is the price I pay for it to be nice the rest of the year. Yuck :(
 
Happy and hopeful.

Life is hard, but sometimes we get a short reprieve.
Time off from work is also nice.
 
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