Empty. Neither here nor there. Not happy, not sad. The only thing I felt today, was anger.
I got home from work with a 12 pack of red stripes. I realize that red stripes need a bottle opener and are not twistable. I frantically search for a bottle opener and cannot find one. I take a deep breath and say "It's okay.. don't freak out". I freak out. I throw a bottle on the tile, punch the shit out of my laundry room door, and slam other shit around, until I realize that I had a bottle opener on one of my keychains. My anger is suddenly wiped away, and I resume my life like nothing happened..
That is my emotional depth. I feel like I'm going through life as a zombie. I go to work every day, and see my co workers every day, and am left to hypothesize that I am just missing something. It's just so frustrating, I can't even begin to explain it in words.
I. Just. Want. To. Feel. Something......