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How are you in one word? v. 2012

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If you can get it, proper chamomile blossoms (as in the whole herb, not just the tiny bit of sawdust in 'herbal infusion' teabags) is great for both sleep and very vivid dreams. When it was available here, I used to take a press of it - around 3 or 4 tbsp in half a litre of hot water, and drink it over ice about half an hour before bed. The only lousy thing was that I'd usually have to get up at around 3 to pee, but could fall aslseep again easily.

ATM: drowsy. Need to get on the bike though :|
 
floating.

I just found out that a co-worker died in a car wreck today so I just don't know what to feel. We were friendly but not very close but it's really making me re-assess my life and it just hasn't sunken in yet. The reality of life if hitting me and i feel like I'm in limbo. I'm lucky to be alive but do i appreciate it enough?
 
^ tired mainly,a bit nausious and genraly crappy although feeling very headstrong... have had my 2 xanax on schedule, no alchohol an last of the weed went last nite, complating weather or not to hang onto that for another week or just try an dump it also, The ciggys and booze have been intollerable enough that has to remain under controll no matter what, thats no 1 priority.
 
DexterMeth said:
^Do you have parkinson's, just RLS, or major depressive disorder?
Why did you stop taking it?

Check out Selegiline: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Selegiline (Emsame is the transdermal patch of it to get around old school MAO side-effects)
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Just RLS, but I guess I could be diagnosed with some sort of depressive disorder. I've been depressed for most of my life. But yea, I was first started on pramipexole for RLS, and it had to many side-effects for me to continue, so I was switched to ropinirole. I liked it's anti-depressant qualities, some ADHD benefits, it's social anxiety benefits (one of the best I've ever had, as good if not better than ketamine), and it's ability to make music sound amazing as well as making women sooooo appealing and beautiful. I ended up getting some bad side-effects on it as well (achiness all over my body). So I was then switched to clonazepam, but that really only helps with PLMS by the way of helping me fall asleep and stay asleep. It didn't help my RLS, so gabapentin was added. I like it's mood stabilization so much, as well as it's social anxiety relief, but it didn't help my RLS. I then tried tramadol for the RLS, but it didn't help much and was too stimulanty. Thats when I finally moved to methadone which is working out fantastic. One down side is it lowers my libido, but in a way atm thats a pretty awesome effect as I'm not getting any (haven't for 5 years :( ).


anyway, feeling hopeful

I had a wonderful session with my counselor and she was soo impressed with my progress. I've been working hard to move forward and work on myself out side of the sessions so I'm continually progressing. I can actually smile again.
 
anniekds said:
floating.

I just found out that a co-worker died in a car wreck today
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Sorry to hear about this annie :( I can relate to your feeling)


In one word, I am ....... Nervous

My Dr after all my current tests and their results, wants to send me for more tests as a last resort to figure out if my problem may be cancer and they just missed something in the blood work that should normally show the markers for it.
 
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