How are you in one word? v. 2012

[mareseatoats]

-misguided...

 

[Allein]

Optimistic (at last)

 

[KiwiQflyer]

so not good.

 

[DexterMeth]

What's up Kiwi? I remember you saying that you weren't going to live past the end of 2011. We're both still here. What do?

 

[DexterMeth]

Your inbox is full Kiwi. Clear out some space.

 

[Carl Landrover]

Down

I've been feeling rather depressed lately. I just feel like giving up, but I don't know what that means. I don't sleep much lately and I have little to no appetite.

 

[DexterMeth]

^You still on gear? Quitting that would be a start dude. A big one.
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Hopeful - I'm doing better each day.

 

[Carl Landrover]

^You still on gear? Quitting that would be a start dude. A big one.

Yeah, and I know that's a big part. I keep getting close to being off, then I relapse. My use has been pretty minimal at least, but anytime I use (even if I'm clean and have a one time use) I just feel down for the next few days.

School is my biggest producer of stress and anxiety. The main parking lot is literally right around the corner from where I meet the dope man at. It's hard being on campus with the dude being right there. I finally deleted his number at least.

I'm very lonely in all this. All my friends have either moved out of state and the ones that haven't are all hooked on pills, and I can't really hang around them because of that.


I can make all the excuses I want, but bottom line is I am not in control and I would like to be. It's my own fault, so I can only blame myself. Knowing that I'm causing myself all this misery is depressing. It doesn't make any sense either.

 

[DexterMeth]

Take the jump and meet new friends at school.

I still get calls from dope dealers and users, and even free offers for smack and PCP. Fucking A right? Telling them to "fuck off" only tends to make them angrier and more aggresive. Just lay it out with honesty, and if part of being honest is telling them to fuck off, so be it.

 

[Pjkt2501]

Guess this thread has moved away from the point really...

But in accordance w/ the thread title - depressed

 

[snafu]

Fuckyeah

 

[S.M.F.G]

Relieved
The day has started good as opposed to the shit i been puttin up with for god knows how long now

 

[rangrz]

sigh Looks like its gonna be a long fucking night.

 

[laCster]

crave (ing) / triggered --- with all the drug combos i am readin on BL.. i need to get off this site for now atleast

i really want to use but i need to stay strong and continue on with sobriety

 

[Dave]

Grey.

 

[S.M.F.G]

SomewhatUnacomplished

 

[bigriz]

better

 

[snafu]

Murderous

 

[effie]

Dazed.

 

[DexterMeth]

Static - it doesn't feel bad, but it doesn't feel good. Can't say it feels great though.