Hi all!!!

Thanks again for all the kind words! Yous really are a great bunch of people! Chatting with all of yous on Bluelight is at least one really good thing that came out of this dreaded heroin drought!!! Its great to talk with people who genuinely understand!!!
I got 20 valium yesterday, i hadn't used valium in years, when my Dad was alive he used to give me about 30 a month for free, he was prescribed them but he rarely used them so thats how i ended up with them, but he died 15 years ago so i haven't taken them much since then.
Anyway I took my first 2 yellow valium at 3:30pm yesterday & smoked my first tray of gear! I had a lovely big chill out day yesterday

& by 12 o' clock midnight i had smoked 4 trays of gear & taken 8 yellow valium. The gear as usual was weak. Although I felt fairly mellow all day, but mostly tired. I didn't get as much as a buzz as i had hoped for. Methadone had been out of my system by over 36 hours when i first started my little session yesterday, so that wasn't blocking it. Surly i should have got a bit more of a buzz? Or am i expecting too much? What do yous think???
I finished my 4th tray of gear at around 12 midnight & i had taken my 7th & 8th valium just as i started that last tray, the next thing i knew it was 10am this morning & i was still sitting up right on the couch in the sitting room, i never made it to bed which is very unusual for me coz i love my bed!
So what do people think? Is there a way of getting a nice buzz from valium with out just falling asleep? Should i have taken them all together instead spacing the out through out the whole day? I took 8 yellows, is that the same as 4 blues? The tablets are yellow with a line through one side & 'D5' printed on the other side, does that sound right?
I woke up with such a creek in my neck this morning! I wish i'd gotten a bit more trolleyed yesterday!!! I'm still really tired & spongy to-day, i keep making stupid typing mistakes! Its taken me over half a hour to write this bloody post! But i have been exhausted all week, the night before last i only got two hours sleep, the night before that i didn't get a single wink of sleep! I haven't been sleeping well due to not smoking gear regularly & i've a lot of problems on my mind with work ect!

So i was glad of the good sleep last night!
So what kind of dose would people advise me to take of yellow valium when i don't have a tolerance! Than~you!!!!