PapaverSom
Bluelighter
Off on my 6 hour round trip to score will post back later...please pray I get something nice! (yeah right)
so give urself a pat on the back. When ur opiate free will u be taking naltrexone? just in case u slip? good luck with it & keep it up anyway-Ive noticed ur posts seem to be getting shorter on the whole-either that or Ive got quicker at reading thru all the practice! peace
Off on my 6 hour round trip to score will post back later...please pray I get something nice! (yeah right)
@ Jspun I been on Benzos for 15 years "2day i picked up me weekly .
One of the few i ain't had id Clonazepam , it's only scripted for Epiplepsy over here.
I do get a nitro benzo though Somnite ( Liquid Nitrazepam 2.5mg in 5ml)
I see u have ben on em 4 a wee while , how do you find they effect u Congnatively if at All?
I would like To explore that area of tranquilisers more.
6 hours!!!! Things are really gone crazy!!!! Best of luck mate!!! I have my fingers & toes crossed for you, i hope you get the very best H!!!! You deserve it!!!![]()
I see u have ben on em 4 a wee while , how do you find they effect u Congnatively if at All?
I would like To explore that area of tranquilisers more.
@ brimz
Hey Brimz, thats a great question, I think the cognitive deficts are there. I have alittle more trouble remembering names, reading comprehension isn't what it use to be but I think I have developed a tolerance to these effects as my benzo receptors have accomidated to the dose, so these deficits are modest at best. Now when I am having a panic attack I get a strange sharp mental clarity when the panic attack is terminated. Having said that, its been a while since I've gotten one at work.
But I think it does effect my longterm memory ability, albeit modestly. Ultimately, they just make me feel normal and as I stated before, and sometimes have a paradoxical stimulating effect which I think is more a function of behavioral dissinhibition.
I wish I could have conducted cognitive tests pre and post. So summing up, mild short term memory loss- long term- I forget what my wife told me days before but I think its because I'm ignoring her while bluelighting,:D so I think the deficits are mild- the disease is worse than the cure- will work on tapering though and maybe using another med or a lower dose.
What has been your experience?
@Runctions: How are you holding up today? Any luck? Any good music lately to post? When's Steve Ignorant comming to SoCal?
btw, anyone else notice bluelight went a bit weird earlier? couldn't get in and kept getting error messages on me Google Chrome browser and posts on threads seem to disappear, plus i'm sure i've lost a PM, there's an alert in my e-mail box that I have a message, but look in my BL inbox, there's no messge so i can't read it, plus i sent a PM, but can't find no copy of it in PM box, dunno what the hell's goibng on whether it's just my browser or BL or if i dreamt it all
anyway i'm ranting on... lol so i'll shut up now & get ready for some kip
@pp: we bloody ignorant yanks live a blissfully sheltered life ignorant about conditions in other parts of the world you know.
@basket: Good luck to you too comrade- I got the loose bowels and mild goosebumps today. As far as benzos the strongest is probably nimetazepam or something like that- called Erimin-5 I think only Rxed in Japan and Malaysia I think. The weekest- maybe librium. At any rate tapering on diazepam might be best because it has a long half life, best done slowly like the meth. Maybe you can convince your drug worker to do one at a time. Good luck with that and may blessings and the power of healing come to you.
@Runctions: I'm one of the few people not on facebook- I'm too paranoid but I bet the NSA knows all about me by now so whats the point? Maybe I'll get with the times. I liked your song- my experience is once you've had a habit- going back to chipping is nearly impossible in most cases- our brain chemistry changes and it takes a much shorter time to get a rattle. Like the song you posted.
I got a song for you Runctions too from the great band Operation Ivy, precursor to Rancid (I had the fortune of growing up in the San Francisco Bay Area). At a time the world needs peace, an end to war especially the longest war- the war on drugs, a war without end. Songs short, hopefuly it will show you Euros that all us yanks aren't woremongering scum.
To World Peace:
Op Ivy "Unity"
disregard the ian paisley comment- don't want to ressurect the troubles on EADD heroin social.
Late and God Bless from Seppoland
Tapering from diazes as well, the dose i take doesn't do anything anymore, I have too high tolerance to them & been on them too long. our clinic wants everyone off them anyway (more cutbacks! lol), not done a benzo 'rattle' before, obv not looking forward to that either![]()
I did ask my drug worker if I could swap over on to a different benzo, like temazepam or nitrazepam for example, if they were different more stronger, then I said maybe I wouldn't need to be prescribed as much mg. Say 10 or 5mg instead of 14mg diazes. She wouldn't change them though said it wouldn't make much difference, plus they don't script any other than diazesah well, at least i tried. Just wonder if this was an excuse to fob me off tho, because yezs, they are very tight on prescribing benzos in this country, lucky if you can get them at all. wonder what the weakest & strongest benzo is? wonder if i would be better off on a stronger benzo at a lower dose, seeing as diazes don't do anything for me anymore, they do help a bit with cravings and anxiety, but don't help me sleep anymore unless i take a bigger dose, or whether drugworker was right?
btw, anyone else notice bluelight went a bit weird earlier? couldn't get in and kept getting error messages on me Google Chrome browser and posts on threads seem to disappear, plus i'm sure i've lost a PM, there's an alert in my e-mail box that I have a message, but look in my BL inbox, there's no messge so i can't read it, plus i sent a PM, but can't find no copy of it in PM box, dunno what the hell's goibng on whether it's just my browser or BL or if i dreamt it all
anyway i'm ranting on... lol so i'll shut up now & get ready for some kip