Heroin/Opioid MEGA-Thread: Junkies check-in here!

[sixpartseven]

BIG MISTAKE!

If you're gonna join the military, go Air Force or Navy. Funny story, about 6 years ago, I decided to escape all my problems and join the Marines. Lo and behold, I got stationed in Washington DC, litteraly a block away from the Arthur Capper Homes (and yes, they sell heroin there). Needless to say, I wasn't a Marine for very long, and had to spend a couple months in the Brig. But I'd like to reiterate the point that you can't exactly escape life by joining the military. The military is largely a group of over-testosteronized young men with insatiable appetites for vice. And you'll soon find that the locals cater to this fact.

Thanks for the heads up, but trust me, it's not in escape. It's something I've wanted to do for four years now, I just never did. Now I think may be that time to do it. I have reasons for why I choose Army, too. I've considered all the others, but my reasons for Army outweigh all the rest.

I'm still not even 100% sure I want to do this. I'm just seriously considering it. More so than before.

 

[McFly]

Good luck whatever you decide man.

 

[QuasiStoned]

^^^
Hey man if you think you can handle it I say go for it.

I know that I personally could never make it, I have arthritis issues and the flattest feet I've seen in my life so I doubt I'd be cut out for the military, heh.

 

[xxkcxx]

So, I'm feeling like shit.

I haven't been using much in quantity, but I have been using every day for the past three weeks or so,

Yesterday, I gave a friend money to pick up for me, and I knew he wasn't gonna be able to give it to me that night, but he promised he'd be here at 7:30/8 am before work.

Well, through some random events, it went from that time to 11 to 12 to 2 to 3 to now 4:15. He claimed about 15 minutes ago he'd still be here "on time" but I never know with him.

I really wanna take a sub, but it I am going to be scoring soon I don't want to waste it.

 

[Carl Landrover]

^
Those are the worst fucking days, where you're sitting around waiting for some gear and whomever has it keeps pushing the time back.

"I'll be there in 20"

30 minutes later

"I'm the highway bro, it's actually 15min now"

25 minutes later

"Yeah, it probably won't be for another hour, dude"

It feels like such a waste of a day because you just been sitting around waiting for it.

 

[QuasiStoned]

^^^
My addiction has been so different from a lot of people. It's wierd having the postal service delivering your fix (poppy pods).

The only time I felt like that is when I underestimated my dependence and put off ordering the pods for several days... every day I was checking the status of those fuckers and they couldn't get to me fast enough. It sucks...

 

[eon_blue]

^^The worst for me was the time I got home on saturday only to see a note on my door saying that they had tried to deliver but noone was home to accept the package.

Of course, I was dependent then and had to spend the rest of Saturday, Sunday, and Monday afternoon sick as fuck until they finally got there.

 

[xxkcxx]

About 20 minutes after my last post he showed up

Thank god.

I actually threw up twice while I was setting up and before I was able to do it.

I didn't think I was that physically addicted this time around, but I was dead wrong.

I was sneezing, coughing, gagging, throwing up, runny nose, muscle cramps, stomach cramps, watery eyes, goose flesh, sweating. Basically every wd symptoms there is.

 

[Carl Landrover]

^
Glad you got it and you're feeling better...you boot it or sniff it?


Not to be a downer (well a non fun one ) got any plans for stopping or slowing down, I mean if you are feeling that sick without it?

I guess I'm curious why you're using? I know for myself the negatives were greatly outweighing the positives, which was essentially only getting high. And I only really like when I'm fucked up/nodding out high. Too expensive, too risky, too much damage to my health.

Well enjoy yourself now! I hated when I'd do something and spend the entire time feeling guilty.

 

[xxkcxx]

^ I snorted it. Haven't banged since the time last week or whenever it was.

I have probation on the 10th, so my plan is to go through what I bought today (11 bags) and start getting clean no later than the 4th. Then, since I will be done with rehab the first week of march (and I have really been playing with fire since if they drug test me I have no back up plan ATM), I will stay straight until then. Well, I will be using the suboxone, but you know what I mean.

Ever since I have been steadily using the Advair inhaler (2x a day), I haven't been getting the lung issues, so that has been great.

Unfortunately I am having a lot of guilt because my parents are starting to trust me and even sticking up for me to people who think I am still sneaking around

I'm really scared for them to find out I am screwing them over one again.

 

[QuasiStoned]

I was sneezing, coughing, gagging, throwing up, runny nose, muscle cramps, stomach cramps, watery eyes, goose flesh, sweating. Basically every wd symptoms there is.

Wow that's terrible man, I get all the above except for the vomiting and gagging. I guess I should consider myself lucky in that respect.

^^The worst for me was the time I got home on saturday only to see a note on my door saying that they had tried to deliver but noone was home to accept the package.

Of course, I was dependent then and had to spend the rest of Saturday, Sunday, and Monday afternoon sick as fuck until they finally got there.

OMG man I know what you're talking about, you must've gotten a sinking feeling in your stomach when you read that note!

 

[emingos]

damn ok i now realise ive have done it to much lately, ive been hitting the methadone to often! after 4 days i get sick... i have just realised it fully there is no way around, i have to tapper down...

at least i got enough methadone for a tapper and i can posible get some subuxone to, i also will get me some benzo's to easy it a bit.. now i just need some imodium and start to tapper

wish me luck"

EDIT: ohh yeah and some weed to!

 

[xxkcxx]

^^The worst for me was the time I got home on saturday only to see a note on my door saying that they had tried to deliver but noone was home to accept the package.

Of course, I was dependent then and had to spend the rest of Saturday, Sunday, and Monday afternoon sick as fuck until they finally got there.

I thought if you got one of those "could not deliver" notes you could go to the post office a certain time that same day to pick up...guess not though cause I'm sure you would have thought of that!

Wow that's terrible man, I get all the above except for the vomiting and gagging. I guess I should consider myself lucky in that respect.

Well, the gagging was really from the constant cough, and then the vomiting was from, you guessed it, the gagging, lol. It wasn't really all coming from a nausea, though if I went longer that would have kicked in, as well as the diarrhea.

Not to be gross, but like I said, the diarrhea didn't kick in, but I did get to actually take a poop (yep, I'm 12--I call it poop, lol) which was nice cause I have a suspicion it had been awhile, though who really keeps track when they are too high to care.

 

[drug_wench]

god, sounds like uve bn going thru hell, kc
i hope it all comes right for u someday, cos although life on it is great while high....as soon as ur in wd u wish ud never heard of it if ur anything like me!
someone was saying theyre on suboxone but still getting cravings to use (cant remember who)
my advice - look at putting up ur dose
wen i started on suboxone i was on 16mg and i was still having mild cravings, so i talked to the methadone counsellor (we go thru a methadone clinic here) and ive gone up to 20mg
now im not craving at all - im still totally functional
thats the strange thing about suboxone - theres no high, i just function....without the cravings
as far as needle cravings go, im down to shooting sterile water evry second day
the only problem i hav with suboxone maintenance is like being on any opioid it keeps me bunged up but ive developed a taste for prunes lately
ill echo others in that suboxone is a wonder drug - maybe it wud b really helpful for u to go on maintenance for awhile, kc

 

[Carl Landrover]

Not to be gross, but like I said, the diarrhea didn't kick in, but I did get to actually take a poop (yep, I'm 12--I call it poop, lol) which was nice cause I have a suspicion it had been awhile, though who really keeps track when they are too high to care.

I've been extremely fortunate with regards to the constipation factor. I think it's cause I run (even on dope) and have a pretty good metabolism (if that's at all a factor).

Even during my original heavily addicted period in 05-06, I still was able to take the morning shit.

Dopeboy was complaining about that a lot the last few times I saw him. Stomach hurt, shittin' once every 5 days...and at those points it was super painful. I've had that happen maybe 2 or 3 times (never a 5 day absence) and it scared me enough to take in fiber and anything else that will keep me regular. Though running and exercise do a great job with that! Gosh, I'm soo coked out right meow.

 

[eon_blue]

Not to be gross, but like I said, the diarrhea didn't kick in, but I did get to actually take a poop (yep, I'm 12--I call it poop, lol) which was nice cause I have a suspicion it had been awhile, though who really keeps track when they are too high to care.

ugh, that's the worst, I HATED not being able to drop a deuce regularly. Then, when you finally can, it's like childbirth. I remember I was lucky to go once a week when using regularly.

Laxatives and stool softeners are your friend

 

[xxkcxx]

I've been extremely fortunate with regards to the constipation factor. I think it's cause I run (even on dope) and have a pretty good metabolism (if that's at all a factor).

Even during my original heavily addicted period in 05-06, I still was able to take the morning shit.

Dopeboy was complaining about that a lot the last few times I saw him. Stomach hurt, shittin' once every 5 days...and at those points it was super painful. I've had that happen maybe 2 or 3 times (never a 5 day absence) and it scared me enough to take in fiber and anything else that will keep me regular. Though running and exercise do a great job with that! Gosh, I'm soo coked out right meow.

Seriously, when I was on the regular sub maintenance for a couple months, I had to lower my dose from 8 mg to 4 mg because I was only shitting every 7-9 days and NOTHING helped me. Not stool softeners, laxatives, enemas, suppositories, nothing.

The first time I went after 9 days I had to use magnesium citrate, the second time after 7 days I tried it again and it didn't work and I had to use mineral oil.

When I went back on the maintenance (or when my doctor put me back on it as far as he knows), he gave me Amitiza, a drug for IBS and just approved for constipation specifically from opioids.

 

[chicpoena]

Edit.

 

[xxkcxx]

I was high this morning, but sober tonight because I borrowed a friend a couple bags and am not getting them back until tomorrow.

Anyway, I tend to look at my pupils when I am high and always wonder how big they actually are because 1) I am high a lot and 2) I tend not to think about my pupils when I am sober.

Compared to my pinpoints--they are F'N HUGE! Seriously. I was really surprised.

 

[QuasiStoned]

ugh, that's the worst, I HATED not being able to drop a deuce regularly. Then, when you finally can, it's like childbirth. I remember I was lucky to go once a week when using regularly.

Yeah I can remember some of those "childbirth" shits, haha. I rarely got bad diarrhea during my withdrawal episodes because I'd be so damn bunged up!

Ya know I always knew that the withdrawals were bad and all that but I still must admit that after using for over half the year (times passes so quickly in the game of addiction, it seems) I was totally unprepared for some of the mental effects that I was experiencing!

I started using poppy pods for pain management (and I loved the high...) and when I was withdrawing over the past week every day just seemed so hard. Even after I was feeling physically better, I still could detect a complete lack of endorphins, and the depression caught me right off guard. I remember thinking about suicide a few times and just feeling hopeless.

Thankfully, I'm feeling much better now. It is rediculous how critical endorphins are to our mood and general happiness! I guess that's why opiates are such a tempting drug, the high is so great (for a lot of us) and then the withdrawals are just so physically and mentally terrible!