Just popping in here & I see that I just can't join in, ye are all so close & I feel like I would be intruding so I don't want to be rude. I wish ye all the best, & A BETTER WAY, wherever you are hun, you seem to be getting quieter in your thread for some reason, please PM me asap, I need someone to build me up badly.
I've been reading this thread since it started & feel like I know ye all so much but it's yer thread/discussion, not my place to just butt in.
Love Rachel
Hi Rachella!
u can join in any time! I kinda vanished for a few weeks but now I'm back. Please feel free to join in any time. This thread is fir everyone.
how are u? Are things any better for u hon? If you feel comfortable doing so, wrote us here... I know you'll get lots of support from
a variety of folks here. You aren't intruding AT ALL. ?
Lwt us know how things are, ok?
sending u good vibes !
sasha
Ditto-
It's really nice to see both of you back here.
Now where's Sasha ?
ABW I seriously hope this clears up or goes into remission and quickly. Your thread is not the same without you, even if you do not feel like posting about yourself the general supervision is appreciated.
Shroomy, are you going to slowly phase in the Oxy or drop the H and and switch immediately ? This has my curiosity piqued as my experience is lacking with the more conservative, responsible doses that you are at. Regardless I hope it's a smooth transition.
Okay, back in to the woodwork.
hi you!! ����Thanks for checking in, buddy! Sorry I vanished from here.
(and thanks Shroomy for letting everyone know im ok. I appreciate it, my friend!! ��).
and I appreciate y'all looking after me. Im
good. Shroomy was right- I was really busy wrapping up my old job... making sure I left everyone as organized as I could before leaving.
I'm in my first day of a week off before I start a new job. All's well... except I finally found a umm... supplier...(I can't remember if I said this before) so now I don't have to be in withdrawal 2 weeks out of the month.
While that's great in some ways, my pill use has obviously gone up. Pills are super expensive , good god! ....especially when I consider how little I pay when I get mine through insurance.... so I gotta try and get my shit together. I don't know how anyone could support a habit like mine or worse without having a script for most of the month.
Been doing some coke too. I use to do it a lot .... I love it so much.... and then I stopped about 5 years ago and use to only allow myself to do it once ever year or two. The past month or two I've done it a few times. I can blaze through a gram in a few hours. So I'm at least going to stop doing that for the foreseeable future. It's dangerous for me to mix that w all the pillls etc... and since I can still control my coke use, I should and I will. So I'm really gonna try to not get any more for at least 6 months or more...
My hope for pills is to cut down again .... this new job I have is at a very prominent company and is a fairly high powered gig. I can't have my pill use fuck that up. I can't be nodding out or be in withdrawal or oversleeping etc. My other job was a breeze so being really high there and spaced out didn't matter cause I knew my job like the back of my hand... and it was pretty slow and easy.
but this new one I think will be the opposite... which is good for me. I need to be busy. It keeps me out of trouble!
Below is what I hope to be my pill schedule over the week to get me ready for my new job:
I'm allowing myself a little fun during this week off w my pills - but not too much... like today (Monday) and tomorrow I'm allowing myself 180mg of oxy .... but then We'd-Fri I'm keeping to my schedule of 120mg/day plus 90mg of embeda (soaked) once a day during those 3 days.
over the weekend I'm going to try to drop to 100mg/day. When I start work, I want my body to be use to 100mg of oxy a day. Id like to drop to 80mg/day but I'm never able to be successful. I "have" to be abke to take 20mg in the morning... 40mg during the day and another 40 after work. That's the lowest I can go and be comfortable. So I guess I'll try to keep it there for now.
i hope everyone is ok. I have to catch up on all the posts. But I'm sending love to all you guys. I love this thread. I think it's amazing.
ABW- I haven't read everything but I saw that u got very sick .... but now you're on the mend? I hope I read that right. I'm sending u healthy vibes to you. Thank god u listened to your instincts. Seriously! I'm so sorry you've been going through such a hard time. I know you already have a lot on your plate. I'm here if you need any extra support! I hope you're able to rest and keep your stress relatively low. Easier said than done.... anyway, I'm thinking of u.
Trevor- wow! You're kicking ass! Big congrats! I'm so proud of you!! Keep on going!!! Wooooo hooooo! ��
ok gotta catch up on everyone else's posts.
be well
Sasha