Ayahuascalobster
Greenlighter
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- Jan 27, 2017
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Hd =high dose
I've had two greatly disturbed trips in the past on high doses that resulted in mental issues and medications. Well I weaned off my meds and took 15 tabs of high quality blotter the other night (albeit with a tolerance). But tripped hard. The whole room was dancing. I felt closer to drunk than stimulated. Didn't have close eyed visuals on the comedown. It was a glorious trip. Not scary at all. But I realized it's all in my head my fear / love relationship with psychedelics. I think it was the hardest I've ever tripped without mixing with alcohol. It's just I read a post "you need a strong ego to return to after ego death". And I have a very strong ego now to return to. I think that was the reason for my mental issues...not a strong enough ego...so I wasn't ready for high doses. I'm now ready for a 6 gram mushroom trip, salvia, dmt, mescaline... I have 15 tabs left of acid and I won't be compelled to take it for a while cuz I'm still kindve coming back to pieces after 2 days. But when I do I plan on tripping even harder than Friday night. I'm 26 now and I regret somewhat getting into psychedelics at 19 years old. Cuz me personally, I wasn't ready. But now I'm more ready than I would've been had I waited til now to do psychedelics. I also wanna roll on mdma. I've never done that while not on meds. So I imagine it's an entirely different experience. IMO these drugs are less dangerous than marijuana for me at this point.
I've had two greatly disturbed trips in the past on high doses that resulted in mental issues and medications. Well I weaned off my meds and took 15 tabs of high quality blotter the other night (albeit with a tolerance). But tripped hard. The whole room was dancing. I felt closer to drunk than stimulated. Didn't have close eyed visuals on the comedown. It was a glorious trip. Not scary at all. But I realized it's all in my head my fear / love relationship with psychedelics. I think it was the hardest I've ever tripped without mixing with alcohol. It's just I read a post "you need a strong ego to return to after ego death". And I have a very strong ego now to return to. I think that was the reason for my mental issues...not a strong enough ego...so I wasn't ready for high doses. I'm now ready for a 6 gram mushroom trip, salvia, dmt, mescaline... I have 15 tabs left of acid and I won't be compelled to take it for a while cuz I'm still kindve coming back to pieces after 2 days. But when I do I plan on tripping even harder than Friday night. I'm 26 now and I regret somewhat getting into psychedelics at 19 years old. Cuz me personally, I wasn't ready. But now I'm more ready than I would've been had I waited til now to do psychedelics. I also wanna roll on mdma. I've never done that while not on meds. So I imagine it's an entirely different experience. IMO these drugs are less dangerous than marijuana for me at this point.
