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๐ŸŒŸ๐ŸŒŸ Social ๐ŸŒŸ๐ŸŒŸ Gibberings ver. CCXIX - "what's new, c*nty chops?"

Jackal said:
tbf that was MDMA, MDPV, 2C-E & around 50 n20 whippets in a row and probably red wine and weed on the side
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Haha sounds like an insane combo.

Peevee is the ultimative even on its own, but adding molly and an 2C-X would really intensify the experience.
 
Nicklazz said:
Haha sounds like an insane combo.

Peevee is the ultimative even on its own, but adding molly and an 2C-X would really intensify the experience.
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Funnily enough, MDMA temporarily clears the intense brain fog associated with the tail end of a peev run. Iโ€™d actually recommend it. 2C-X works similarly only less effective and, obviously, trippier.
 
I must have taken 2cb over a thousand times, maybe thousands who's counting. I guess it's my favourite drug. Almost endless in its versatility.

Never thought to IV it though... I mean, I don't IV anything so I wouldn't have but can't help wonder if doing so would show me a side of a drug I presume to know like the back or my hand.

It's been at least a couple of months actually. Been too busy to reup.

Unrelated: @Shambles how're you enjoying being the boss? Power tripping yet?

I gotta find me some rules to break... What's the current policy on nudes?
 
Power tripping? Well Iโ€™ve got Hugo Boss coming over to measure me up for a uniform soon but no, not reallyโ€ฆ ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

Nudes are fine as long as theyโ€™re your own afaik. Iโ€™ll leave that with you then, shall I? =D
 
Shambles said:
Funnily enough, MDMA temporarily clears the intense brain fog associated with the tail end of a peev run. Iโ€™d actually recommend it. 2C-X works similarly only less effective and, obviously, trippier.
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Hah of course you allso tried it my old friend. :D

These days apvp has taken over, no peevee to be seen.
 
Salutations fiends. A quick Q for the masses. Has any of you perchance taken Citicoline for help with focus/memory? If so, how did you find it? Thanks in advance.
 
Shambles said:
Funnily enough, MDMA temporarily clears the intense brain fog associated with the tail end of a peev run. Iโ€™d actually recommend it. 2C-X works similarly only less effective and, obviously, trippier.
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OMG the comedown from that combo would have been absolutely horrific for me. Especially if it was before I'd started using benzos.

I was so glad of benzos and mirtazapine to end my Peev sessions quite quickly and painlessly, once I'd decided that the time was up.

I think I remember you saying that you kind of enjoyed the natural winding down of a peev session. It was awful for me, I remember feeling paranoid as hell, totally wired, strung out, exhausted, dehydrated and generally awful physically and mentally.

I wasnt built for multi day and night stimulant sessions.

Definitely one of the most Marmite and YMMV substances in recent history I think.
 
^ Yeah I genuinely enjoyed winding down from a week-long peev session. Definitely felt very drained for a couple days. I wasnโ€™t against benzos for the end-stages as such, just didnโ€™t personally find them especially necessary.

Nicklazz said:
Hah of course you allso tried it my old friend. :D

These days apvp has taken over, no peevee to be seen.
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Ugh. I never enjoyed a-pvp. Found it very โ€œcoldโ€ and โ€œemptyโ€ feeling. Not for me.
 
I can not fall asleep if I have not followed compulsions up to the standards but I always can not follow compulsions up to the standards if I am tired.

Pattern of absolute bullshit can be recognized in every function of OCPD. I finally took megadose of clonazepam. I would take even more if I had enough. I will fall god damn fucking asleep and spend whole wednesday absolutely wasted and good bit of thursday too.
 
Pissed_and_messed said:
I can not fall asleep if I have not followed compulsions up to the standards but I always can not follow compulsions up to the standards if I am tired.

Pattern of absolute bullshit can be recognized in every function of OCPD. I finally took megadose of clonazepam. I would take even more if I had enough. I will fall god damn fucking asleep and spend whole wednesday absolutely wasted and good bit of thursday too.
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Have you tried a hot shower, a wank, a chapter of a book and then getting into bed. Fresh bedding always helps.
 
Bleaney said:
OMG the comedown from that combo would have been absolutely horrific for me. Especially if it was before I'd started using benzos.

I was so glad of benzos and mirtazapine to end my Peev sessions quite quickly and painlessly, once I'd decided that the time was up.

I think I remember you saying that you kind of enjoyed the natural winding down of a peev session. It was awful for me, I remember feeling paranoid as hell, totally wired, strung out, exhausted, dehydrated and generally awful physically and mentally.

I wasnt built for multi day and night stimulant sessions.

Definitely one of the most Marmite and YMMV substances in recent history I think.
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mdpv always put me up my own arse

I'd have a few grams and then be eyeballing the tiny dose after weighing it a few times and be awake for days. put me off spedy stims. but during that particular phase I had a more crippling issue with fucking GBL of all things lol so quit both not long after trainspotting style locked in my gaff with tins of cambells soup and a bottle of wine a day for a week
 
Jackal said:
mdpv always put me up my own arse

I'd have a few grams and then be eyeballing the tiny dose after weighing it a few times and be awake for days. put me off spedy stims. but during that particular phase I had a more crippling issue with fucking GBL of all things lol so quit both not long after trainspotting style locked in my gaff with tins of cambells soup and a bottle of wine a day for a week
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OOOh I loved GBL so much, even though my sessions got rowdy, even home alone, I was able to limit use to once a fortnight-ish kind of rate.

It must have been all the tales of horrific w/ds that made me so cautious with how often I would use it.
 
LoginNotSecure said:
Never took you for a necrophiliac, but I guess the 'tism takes all hobbies into account.
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It really makes you feel alive, you know?

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OCPD obviously got triggered of last nights struggle, leading to functions happening to make sure it doesn't happen again, leading it to happen again. :forestwhittaker: So I just adjusted my expectations, as those were the problem in the first place. Finally resolved the issue. Slept a bit and woke up to pelvic floor cramp. I am reaaaaalllyyyy slowly tapering off bupre because of bruxism, numb dick and thousand other reasons, but this is one type of WD symptom I get every now and then.



I have 2x2 h psychiatric evaluations this month, and while I know my conditions, except that histrionic PD is uncertain for me and has never been implied by any mental health professional, my goal is getting statement I need the god damn CBT provided 90 % by state. And exactly CBT, fuck the rest.

Like, friends and lovers can provide so much, but they don't know how to do stubborn pain-in-the-ass work systematically and make tricks happen. I just need really specialized therapeutist. I have no fucking idea how to manage in the job when my studies are done, if I am not provided opportunity to do that work.
 
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