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Benzos definitely also reduce motivation. These are a few of the negative things about benzo use that I don't like.
That's what I have been thinking, too,for a very long time. I was prescribed them like 20 years ago and never took them, gave them to a benzo-addicted friend who of course ate my monthly dose in one go. Eventually I got SSRIs and THEY killed anything in me, increasing my anxiety instead of helping.
Finally trying benzos I came to this same realization:
Zero benzos does not feel like an option at this stage. It feels like any performance gains would be offset by the increase in anxiety and the negative effects that can have on performance too. Bit of a shitter really.
Some days are fine and I get by without any. Some days I feel bored and take them just for fun, and some days (the anxiety ones, after something upset me) I can't function at all without a clona.

I still wish I had my motivation level back to where I was before that phase with the SSRIs, and the only thing I got (prescribed while getting off the SSRIs) are modsfinils which are good for working three hours non stop, but don't really motivate.
 
Nice 3 hour walk totally alone in the local woods.
Found a whole stash of these Mofo fungus too, this is a small example of my bounty.
Get yourself a cheap hammock and a tarp, a wool blanket and a lighter. Get a night in the woods with a fire keeping the mood. ๐Ÿ”ฅ ๐Ÿ•๏ธ

Amazing for resetting the brain ๐Ÿง 
 
O M G !

I've seen it all now. So this is what it's come to.

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wool blanket
Isn't that very itchy? (I'm not joking or taking the piss here btw I am 100% legit in asking)

I've been spending way more time totally alone since I kicked that crack addict out I moaned about for ages, I've long been suspect that most of humanity aren't nice people & his behaviour just made it click in my head I'm right 100%.
I quit watching TV for nearly 3 months now & spending more time outside as I live right on a UK borderline & a few minutes walk up the road I'm deep in rural space & about an hours walk I have access to National Trust Land & a huge forest which has two famous caves, I posted a picture of the Witch Cave on here a few months back.
I've wanted to spend a few days way off the usual walking path in the woods alone for ages but I've not done it yet as I was worried I may get attacked by a Fox or some horny male Badger (I have a weird issue with fucking Badgers taking a dislike to me & I'm sure a angry male one could cause me some extreme damage, when you see one up close I'd not fancy having to fight it to the death)
"I'ma call a coupla hard, pipe-hittin' niggers, who'll go to work on the Badger here with a pair of pliers and a blow torch. You hear me talkin', hillbilly Badger? I ain't through with you by damn sight. I'ma get medieval on your ass."

cheap hammock
How much do you call cheap?
Also you suggest taking a pack of fire lighter stick things? The white blocks that stink.
I got a birthday coming up & I fully intent to stay outside for a few days, come hell or high water.
I agree with you 100% that being alone in the woods does something to the brain, it's like a "Reset" button is pressed.
 
I'm not so convinced that wing Chun is effective against a boxer

However, incorporating elements of wing Chun into one's striking may have benefits
Put most people up against a beast like Buakaw Banchamek (in Thai เธชเธกเธšเธฑเธ•เธด เธšเธฑเธเธŠเธฒเน€เธกเธ†) I don't care what they learned & how taught them you will loose, I've taken it up (Wing Chun) as I am going to break this little prick who thinks his tough. You know the type with a nose full of Coke & Drill music on his phone but nothing else to back up his attitude ;)

"Result: Angry Buakaw" LMFAO


I looked hard for a Proper Bangkok teacher of Muay Thai round here but they are all full of shit, Muay Thai will always be my #1 thing to learn but IMHO you gotta move to Thailand to learn it 100%


That one punch in slow-motion you see the power go right through the guys body & shake his whole shoulderblade, this is why if i ever went to Thailand I'd never be rude to any Thai people, I would get broken in half.
 
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Excellent night at the temple, got loads of Indian sweets to eat.

Made friends with a local catto also, it looks like a smol snow leopard & just ripping the classic Shaolin Vs Wu Tang movie which is where the rap group took their name from.
Going to feed the cat some Tuna tomorrow and get a photo of it as it Fur markings are insane.

It had a nice chat with me & we exchanged several "meow" noises but sadly I'm not fluent in Catto so I have no idea what it was saying to me, the odd part was we kept up the conversation for a good 3-4 minutes & it was ssssoooo eager to reply when I did a meow at it.
Kept using my leg to rub itself, I hope to the dog god's the cat wasn't making shady sexual offers to me.
 
I can't wait for my mom's new dog to try these Indian sweets. I swear to God they make the perfect stoned snacks. Indian sweets are mainly pure sugar in something else which is super sweet. I can't recommend their sweets highly enough.

Any other Indian sweet fans on here apart from me?
The 2nd best one is some kind of thick cream so dense it's hard like toffee and has nuts in it. I've had these red things which are the shape of noodles but have gotta be 80% sugar, I've never had anything like it in my life.
 
Just enjoyed a 24h drug holiday... premier inn for the night, 3 W 3 D, packet of red Leicester cheddars and some chocolate. Not bad really x3 use ups in a year. The crack was strong but weird, got a great rush then after a while felt almost like being on K. Smack was as a,ways very nice...as you were.
 
He looked like he was doing break dancing half the time are you having a laugh. W
No I'm not joking it is a Proper Southern style based upon the moves of dogs.
If you watch the video from 38 seconds in he does a move which is based on a dog bending its leg to take a wee & the film is intercut in with the footage of a dog actually taking a wee.

The best Animal style is without question Duck style but I think that is more of a North style, well I'd say it's a North style as it's not as loose & free flowing like the stuff from the south.
The most deadly in my view is Tiger & a friend is an expert in Praying Mantis, Duck style is well worth a watch if you think dog style is taking the piss.


"One of the legends on the origins of Dog Kung Fu says that in the southern area of China in Fujian Province, resided the White Lotus (็™ฝ่“ฎ) temple, where often the nuns who were admitted previously lived secular lives. At that time women were often subjugated to the practice of foot binding. Therefore, any practice that required standing physical exertion was difficult in the least and practically impossible at worst. In response to these physical constraints, the nuns developed a system of fighting that they could use to defend themselves from bandits and wild animals. During the Qing Dynasty imperial regime's destruction of the temples, a nun by the name of Si Yue had left White Lotus Temple and traveled to the northern areas of the province. Supposedly she had fallen ill in the Yongtai region near Fuzhou, it was there that she was assisted by the Chen Family who took care of her until recovery. As she was indebted to the Chen Family she remained and taught their son, Chen Biao, Gouquan. The Chen family kept this art a family secret for several generations.

Another legend suggests that the famous Fong Sai-Yuk was a master of Dishuquan and had passed his skills to monks in the Zhuyuansi Temple (nowadays known as Guanyuan Temple), this was passed through various generations until a monk named Hui Kai taught the style to Zheng Yishan.[2]"

You DON'T see cats doing this as they are still a bit rubbish & too lazy


And here is Duck style @acieed_ed this is a legit thing. The technique is deadly & brutal till the person doing it eats some toast, then they are really fucked. 30% Fist, 70 beak. Hands open doors, Palmates break them down.
(I must have the most bizarre Google search history ever, I learned what Palmate(s) were ages ago when I had to settle a debate with someone about what ducks "feet" were called etc.
 
No I'm not joking it is a Proper Southern style based upon the moves of dogs.
If you watch the video from 38 seconds in he does a move which is based on a dog bending its leg to take a wee & the film is intercut in with the footage of a dog actually taking a wee.

The best Animal style is without question Duck style but I think that is more of a North style, well I'd say it's a North style as it's not as loose & free flowing like the stuff from the south.
The most deadly in my view is Tiger & a friend is an expert in Praying Mantis, Duck style is well worth a watch if you think dog style is taking the piss.


"One of the legends on the origins of Dog Kung Fu says that in the southern area of China in Fujian Province, resided the White Lotus (็™ฝ่“ฎ) temple, where often the nuns who were admitted previously lived secular lives. At that time women were often subjugated to the practice of foot binding. Therefore, any practice that required standing physical exertion was difficult in the least and practically impossible at worst. In response to these physical constraints, the nuns developed a system of fighting that they could use to defend themselves from bandits and wild animals. During the Qing Dynasty imperial regime's destruction of the temples, a nun by the name of Si Yue had left White Lotus Temple and traveled to the northern areas of the province. Supposedly she had fallen ill in the Yongtai region near Fuzhou, it was there that she was assisted by the Chen Family who took care of her until recovery. As she was indebted to the Chen Family she remained and taught their son, Chen Biao, Gouquan. The Chen family kept this art a family secret for several generations.

Another legend suggests that the famous Fong Sai-Yuk was a master of Dishuquan and had passed his skills to monks in the Zhuyuansi Temple (nowadays known as Guanyuan Temple), this was passed through various generations until a monk named Hui Kai taught the style to Zheng Yishan.[2]"

You DON'T see cats doing this as they are still a bit rubbish & too lazy


And here is Duck style @acieed_ed this is a legit thing. The technique is deadly & brutal till the person doing it eats some toast, then they are really fucked. 30% Fist, 70 beak. Hands open doors, Palmates break them down.
(I must have the most bizarre Google search history ever, I learned what Palmate(s) were ages ago when I had to settle a debate with someone about what ducks "feet" were called etc.

Sorry I missed it and got it wrong my apologies
 
Amazingly one of my Hens and Chicks poppy plants, started too late in the year, meaning an increasingly severe lack of daylight and sunlight, and so it's against all odds that one has survived so far and has continued growing to the point of starting to produce a pod.

It's one seriously determined and resilient MF I have to give it that.

There has virtually no sun what so ever this last week though. Really could do with a month of sun now. As if that is going to happen though, here in North West England at this time of year.

2 batches attempted this year and many lessons have been learnt from all the things that went wrong.
 
Isn't that very itchy? (I'm not joking or taking the piss here btw I am 100% legit in asking)

I've been spending way more time totally alone since I kicked that crack addict out I moaned about for ages, I've long been suspect that most of humanity aren't nice people & his behaviour just made it click in my head I'm right 100%.
I quit watching TV for nearly 3 months now & spending more time outside as I live right on a UK borderline & a few minutes walk up the road I'm deep in rural space & about an hours walk I have access to National Trust Land & a huge forest which has two famous caves, I posted a picture of the Witch Cave on here a few months back.
I've wanted to spend a few days way off the usual walking path in the woods alone for ages but I've not done it yet as I was worried I may get attacked by a Fox or some horny male Badger (I have a weird issue with fucking Badgers taking a dislike to me & I'm sure a angry male one could cause me some extreme damage, when you see one up close I'd not fancy having to fight it to the death)
"I'ma call a coupla hard, pipe-hittin' niggers, who'll go to work on the Badger here with a pair of pliers and a blow torch. You hear me talkin', hillbilly Badger? I ain't through with you by damn sight. I'ma get medieval on your ass."


How much do you call cheap?
Also you suggest taking a pack of fire lighter stick things? The white blocks that stink.
I got a birthday coming up & I fully intent to stay outside for a few days, come hell or high water.
I agree with you 100% that being alone in the woods does something to the brain, it's like a "Reset" button is pressed.
Not itchy at all, you can buy some cheap ex army wool blankets for fairly cheap. And if you want the ease of knowing you can get a fire on the go, some fuel tablets will help, but what works well and you may already have, is a small tea candle.

Light it, and just add small twigs on top and build up the thickness of materials as it catches.

Iโ€™ve got some ex army stuff I can send you if you want. Send me a message and Iโ€™ll sort some stuff out.

Re: hammock; I picked up a cheap one to get me started from Amazon, covacure branded, less than ยฃ25 delivered I think it was.

https://www.amazon.co.uk/COVACURE-Camping-Hammock-Mosquito-Ultra-lightweight/dp/B089RD6VR5/ - hammock

https://www.amazon.co.uk/Osportfun-Tarpaulin-Camping-Waterproof-Lightweight/dp/B09WR42PZT/ - tarp
 
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Just enjoyed a 24h drug holiday... premier inn for the night, 3 W 3 D, packet of red Leicester cheddars and some chocolate. Not bad really x3 use ups in a year. The crack was strong but weird, got a great rush then after a while felt almost like being on K. Smack was as a,ways very nice...as you were.
Ya never get 24 hours at a premier inn unless you book two nights. Check in usually around 2pm and you gotta be out be 11am. They might as well charge by the hour.
 
@F.U.B.A.R i recall you saying that moving away from BL massively helped you cut down on drinking. gotta say same for me. i had a while where i was horrendously ill and on antibiotics that you genuinely couldn't drink with. i tried but it made me feel the worst i've felt since my last proper rattle.

my mental state is better, i'm calmer, i've been more active with my buddhist community, reading more, i've made progress on a problem that myself and my colleague have been working on for nearly a year with 0 progress and is fucking hard. at first i was replacing my time on BL wasting time elsewhere on the internet, but now i spend it doing stuff irl, or if i'm online its usually chatting to irl friends.

honestly if anyone is spending too much time on here and are noticing problems with their mental health, i'd consider stepping back. BL didn't cause my massive relapse into cPTSD so i'd still have had an awful year for mental health but i'm just amazed at how much more even my mood has been, and how much calmer. and how that changes the second i engage with certain people on here.
 
Oh I can't forget in a trillion lifetimes to not ever again try to be funny and ask someone for help trying to see when a forum goes dark.
 
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