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Gibberings CXXIV: Office Cakes

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my melatonin's just started to do its thing, so the only story I can tell right now is this one ---> ZzZzZzzz ...

will be around tomorra tho, but I'll leave yer in Mugz's capable hands for now ...

'nite folks <3
 
wild night, loved it, booze, 5-mpab and etiz now, feeling glorious. that 5-mapb is an expensive fuckaround but good, although, dithering, gives me the body load but not the stimulation and no pushy love, just peaceful content-ness, needs me something with poke, 6 used to be best all round but never do it every weekend like i did, odd creeping comedown
 
I'm currently sitting in an online NA meeting, first online one :)

NA said:
The 12 Steps of Narcotics Anonymous
We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had become unmanageable.
We came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God as we understood Him.
We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
We admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs.
We were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
We humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
We made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends to them all.
We made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would injure them or others.
We continued to take personal inventory, and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
We sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out.
Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to addicts, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.

I'm not sure I could buy into the whole NA thing Mugz - how are you on the whole God thing, and why would you need him to remove your 'defects of character' - couldn't you try, like, not taking drugs if you want to get clean?

Also, isn't it a bit self-defeating to be in an NA meeting on one tab, and on BL on another - if you're serious about abstaining from drugs, wouldn't a break from here be in order?
 
Exactly, what a crock of shit. and that god stuff is such bullshit

"God do this, admit to Him that" , fuck off and develop some self control

anyone else think this is funny? or that this guy is a complete bell-end? he'll do that to the wrong person one day and get the smacking of his life

"THIS GUY HAS BALLS
I wonder how many times he got caught.. "
https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=491258900920469
 
Are they the real 12 steps of NA?If so I don't agree with all the god & higher power stuff and the first point just takes away responsibility from the person by saying they admit they have no power over their addiction.
Couldn't go along with those steps if that's what NA entails.
Whinge over,hope everyone has a great Sunday. Favourite day of the week for me, lovely lazy Sunday.
@B&W congratulations on being offered a new job, hope its something you can enjoy.
 
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12 Steps is a load of old shite. Plus, according to their own figures, cold turkey with no outside help whatsoever is twice as successful in terms of staying off whatever it is you're trying to stay off of. It's a religious/psuedo-religious cult that causes more harm than it prevents in the longterm.

That aside, mornin' all :)

Still in pain. In more pain than the last two days in fact. Typing doesn't seem to be so bad now I've changed my position a bit but using me left hand for anything for more than a coupla minutes at a time at most hurts like all fuckery. Is shite and painkillers seem to make no difference at all. If anything, ibuprofen and/or aspirin and paracetamol actually seem to make it worse. Which is odd. Think I might make a doctor's appointment this week if it doesn't start improving. Doubt he'll be able to do much as it seems to be a nerve thing but worth a go cos it's really starting to cause problems now. You don't realise how much you use your non-dominant hand until you get screaming agony everytime you do :!

Hohum. Another day of rest and watching stuff methinks :\

Also, is a lovely sunny day out. Great day to do outside stuff. Can't think of any outside stuff to do, mind.
 
Good morning Shambles mate, how was your sleep last night, did u manage to get any?
Is it a trapped nerve you have got in your hand/wrist?
 
Mornin, Max :)

Ya. Am wondering now if it could be a trapped nerve. Definitely does seem to be nerve-related as it's so localised and specific. Wrist is the worst but pain goes from palm to elbow (actually to shoulder but is more of a dull ache than a sharp, burning pain as it is in the lower arm). Is all up and down the outside of me left arm but fine on the inner side which seems kinda nervy to me rather than just a strain or whatever which would presumably be less narrowly focussed and well defined.

Slept fine as it happens, thanks. Woke up a few times with the pain where I must've lain on it or put pressure on it in some other way. Also woke up for a wee at one point and in bleary-eyed semi-sleep state made the rather fundamental error of leaning against the toilet wall with me left arm. Won't be doing that again. Fukkin ow!!! 8o8(8o

Anyhoo, how's you today, Max? Anything planned or enjoying a nice day of rest?
 
morning all! Yeah 12 steps is a cult. straight up cult.

I got caught all fucked up off mam 2201 last night by my heavily pregnant partner and got in loads in trouble! She is being cool though and allowing legit(ish) benzos and real weed to help with the final jump off subutex due any day now 8(

Gotta treat her better than that. This rattle is already tough though. l-theanine, xanax and diazepam and bush weed is the order of the day :D And no xannies til bedtime;)

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Baby due 6 weeks! And I just got sacked! It's all good I was leaving it anyway, fucking terrible place. Just signed on online, and applying for 20k roles which I reckon I could get:)
 
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fucking sundays.
 
@Shambles that deffo sounds like you need to see a doctor if your arm is in that much pain. Better to find out why it is hurting and get it fixed rather than keep suffering with it.
I'm having a lazy morning then lunchtime is the agreed time with my flatmate to spring clean the kitchen and bathroom as they could do with it.
@Backroll sorry to hear about losing your job. Just be aware that if you sign up to the governments Universal Jobmatch site that you do not tick the box allowing the jobcentre to view yr job searches and applications.If they have access to that info and don't think you have done enough to find a job one week it makes it a lot easier for them to sanction you so you go without cash for differing periods of time.
Plus a lot of jobs on there don't even exist.
 
Unless there's a massive improvement tomorrow I will be going to the docs, Max. Seemed like it was just a temporary thing - touch of RSI from the change of computer setup - but seems to be getting worse rather than better in some ways despite making a point of resting it as much as possible. Saying that, typing is definitely not as painful as it has been recently so maybe it's starting to settle. Will continue to try to limit my keyboard use (after this lil morning flurry - am such an EADD addict :o) and generally try to give the whole arm as much rest as possible. Fuck know how I'm gonna wring me wet washing out though. Drip dry and sod the puddles on the floor methinks 8)

/whingey hurtyarm-based posts
 
whats wrong with sundays ceres

im feeling as rough as a badgers ballbag
 
I'm terrible for not seeing the Dr when I really should go and see him but i think most men are reluctant to pay the doctor a visit.
My drug worker has been moaning at me for months to go and see mine about these lumps I have got under my jawline.
As far as I can figure out they could either be inflamed lymph nodes or perhaps related to some dental problem.
If they caused me any pain I probably would have seen the doctor already but because they don't hurt or cause me any trouble I've not seen the doctor yet but I must see him soon just so I can find out exactly what these lumps are.
 
My meph session went on a leeettle bit longer than I planned, what a massive surprise!! Had vaguely planned to stop yesterday afternoon, actually stopped this morning. I had a great time -- it wasn't the best meph in the world (certainly nowhere near preban quality) but it was still nice stuff. No edginess and lots of frantic activity resulting in pretty much zero achievement. Meph. Yes.

Shambles said:
Hohum. Another day of rest and watching stuff methinks :\

Also, is a lovely sunny day out. Great day to do outside stuff. Can't think of any outside stuff to do, mind.

^^ exactly this. Rest, watch stuff, admire sunshine but don't go out into it.

That sounds nasty Shambles. Does sound like it could be RSI (the bit about painkillers not working at all is horribly familiar). Hope you feel better soon!

Happy Sunday all <3

I'm still actually quite fucked I think. The badgers ballbag will probably be along soon for me...
 
My nose seems to have decided it's refusing to let me jam any more powder up it. CLOSED FOR BUSINESS. hrmph.

Oh well, MXE and orange juice for breakfast.
 
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