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Kronos

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Aye & stay calm, thats the main thing, the rest will come in time, wheras early memories play a pretty big part, you had a bad day, like max said itlbe better tomorrow, or i hope itl be anyways, the kids my mum looks after were terrified of me for ages since i was barely about for a long time but warmed really quick when you play with em and give them the attention they crave, i think you'l be fine mate :)
 
maxalfie said:
@Farmaz I'm off to bed now mate but just wanted to say that I hope tmrw is a better day for you.
Try and play some games with the little girl and show her you are her friend.
Good luck mate, hope it all goes well for you mate.
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A huge thank you for the time to read & post.
It means alot to me
 
badandwicked said:
Are you clucking a bit farmaz?
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Nah, I am 100% clean atm but the feeling that you want to score will never leave you when you had a big habit.

I really think once you had a heavy "back brain" drug habit it effects your mind in some way that it changes the way your mind works for the rest of your life.
I still get a rattle chill in my body when I see people scoring or see heroin, it's really strange but it's the truth.

my advice to anyone is never fuck with drugs that effect your brain in the most basic parts, I am no brain surgeon but I know basic bits about how the brain works & I know the opiate part is right at the back near the spine, I really do believe it changes the way it works & it gets "broken" in some way & will never work right again.

what makes you think I got a monkey on my back atm?............
I ate some seraquil yesterday though ;)
 
I didnt know if you had been using a bit before you got whisked away to the colder climes of norway, I dont really pay attention but can't think of much more miserable than withdrawals in Norway in december with a young child present 24/7 so Im glad you're not having to suffer that.

I think people underestimate how long it takes to 'recover' physically and mentally. In my observation at around the 3 year mark you're getting there. Obviously this depends on the duration and extent of the addiction. Theres a lot of shit to unravel from the wilderness years.

The affliliation and relationship with the drug of choice will change and develop over time, its an organic thing. But I know you can reach a point where it fails to move you or resonate with you. Its a long road but worth it in untold ways, mainly through joy from human relationships, which are tricky tricky things & personal fulfillment. keep up the good work & good luck.
 
knockando said:
fickle.
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No, it's called being a human & having the power to see someone in a different way.

As I said before people judge me in life way to quick & fall on their face when they see the real side of me, a few months ago I was looked on as some Black magik / Occult Nazi by most on here, yet I am not or ever have liked the far right (I refuse to comment on the dark Magik side though ;) )

Anyway you said loads of times I am an idiot & other stuff, you can also add me to ignore list so we never cross paths on here.
 
knocks just exercising his newly aquired mantle of EADD resident shit goblin :) dont take him so seriously. Its only a word, you can choose how you see it. If you don't you'll be scrapping left right and centre.

Hearing the blue boy 'remember me' remix featuring jessie J is bringing back some memories.
 
Never used it meself but was definitely very popular for a while. Annoyingly so in fact cos no bugger was posting on the forum hardly. Pretty sure it's still used. Bump the thread and ask who's around sometime maybe. Or just drop in unannounced nekkid, cock in hand, webcam on maybe :D
 
Shambles said:
Or just drop in unannounced nekkid, cock in hand, webcam on maybe :D
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Did that again on chatroulette last night, went on as "bad santa" with some father xmas outfit. Got some guys from the USA taking the piss out of my accent so I just waved my dick at them & got banned yet again.

I got to do the "community service" before I can get back on there sadly :(
 
farmaz said:
anyone ever use the EADD room on tinychat?
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The only time I logged in there, there was Mugz on his own and he started waving at me on the webcam. Let's just say I logged off as quickly as I could and never went there again.

Edit: that might have been Mugz room actually, not the EADD, not sure
 
Mental Kenny said:
The only time I logged in there, there was Mugz on his own and he started waving at me on the webcam. Let's just say I logged off as quickly as I could and never went there again.

Edit: that might have been Mugz room actually, not the EADD, not sure
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LMAO

I can only imagine how terrible that must be
 
No tinychatty for me - against my religion. Time to climb the wooden hill to bedfordshire for me... Well... time to move from partially vertical to mostly horizontal anyway. Doesn't have quite the same ring to it put like that though. Nighty, all <3
 
'nite shambles/all ... I'm off to bed too <3
(well, to fall asleep while watchin' Dexter anyhoo .. )
 
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