Gibberings CLXXX - one hundred and eiiiiiiiiiighty!

[s0laris]

I havent had mxe in a long long time A year almost. I never experienced kidney pain from it, even on large oral doses.....

I wonder how real this video is, looks like a better way to see the city anyway https://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=jJkuCzgg7fo

I always experienced kidney pain and I think it was a couple of years before things returned 100% to normal. Could have been completely unrelated. When I was getting things checked out they told me I had Gilbert's syndrome/elevated bilirubin levels which could have been an early symptom of gallstones.

 

[Allein]

Hugs and shit! And sativa-pheno Jack herer. The smoke smells like play dough.

Been taking amitryptiline for a few days now, been clenching my jaws and I sorta feel like in the initial stages of M or 2CB, more obviously serotonin-y than the other stuff I've tried so far (an array of SSRIs, and mirtazapine), odd dreams too. I'm optimistic, cos at least it seems very effective for nerve pain, I'm actually feeling al-right-ish pain-wise with just handful of codeine added. Hope it doesn't turn into strange sickly dreariness of sertraline andthelike for me. I remember reading on here, I think from Allein?, that amitryptaline somehow seemed more agreeable than the SSRIs, did it's serotonin-y job, and with the bonus of attenuating nerve pain? If you are reading, how long did it take before you stabilized on this amitryptaline and at what dosage? And has it stayed effective over time or are tolerance-breaks needed?

I've been on the stuff for quite a while now, since coming off Venlafaxine (that was fun). I can't take SSRI's ...full stop, from my extreme reactions to 4-5 of them I do suspect my chemistry just isnt compatible, possibly because of excessive use of MDMA but who knows and no doctor has ever even taken the query seriously.

I only take 60mg a day, as I wanted to minimise my ADs after finding a little more stability YMMV, it doesnt help me sleep at all even at 100mg + doses, It does seem to help a bit with the neuropathic pain I'm getting from recent surgeries but that a bit of an unexpected bonus.

I found TCAs more subtle in general that or they just don't bring about the unwanted side effects other ADs have, as a rule of thumb I've always tried to give ADs 6 weeks to 'stabilise' but it's a subjective thing IMO

I had thought about trying sertraline.

That stuff was almost certainly responsible for giving me an episode of internal bleeding, it seems it's a rare side effect so I must have gotten 'lucky'

 

[kingme]

Id use phone pr direct face to face contact if i were ypu mdb. Emails are easier to ignore and they allow you to think youve expressed your opinion without ever knowing if you are being read/recieved...

 

[lurching]

I had thought about trying sertraline. Think I will give it a miss and stick with methoxphenidine and maybe try baclofen ontop of the pregabalin. Maybe wean myself off pregabalin with baclofen.

Have you ever had MDAI? I'm figuring that a good SSRI or tricyclic is supposed to feel similar to the aftereffects of a not-too-heavy MDAI dose. At least I hope so? :/

Some of the side effects though! The jaw thing is grinding me down. Large dose of magnesium doesn't even take the edge off... at moments I feel like this:

 

[acieed_ed]

The only thing i dislike today about doing crack xanax and heroin is i become cocky and over familiar with very attractive women and find myself admiring my reflexion in windows lol
a lot of women like confidence in men and a badboy.
I will autograph posters of myself for a for a fee.

\coked up twaddle :->

 

[mydrugbuddy]

if drugs didnt make you feel as cool as and/or confident/cocky as fuck then half of them would have no point existing.

 

[swampdragon]

Ehh, I dunno.. I think a lot of people don't take drugs in order to feel cool/confident.. but it's uncanny how much acieeeeed sounds like brimz. (Speaking of whom.. has anyone heard from him recently?)

Id use phone pr direct face to face contact if i were ypu mdb. Emails are easier to ignore and they allow you to think youve expressed your opinion without ever knowing if you are being read/recieved...

Phone.. in my experience agencies tend to ignore anything you say by email. But it's definitely worth trying to patch things up with them. Or failing that, contact another agency.

 

[mydrugbuddy]

Have you ever had MDAI? I'm figuring that a good SSRI or tricyclic is supposed to feel similar to the aftereffects of a not-too-heavy MDAI dose. At least I hope so? :/

Ive tried both, MDAI and SSRIs i mean. I would estimate that the effects from an SSRI would be a hundred times weaker, but they are not really comparable atall, MDAI is a serotonin releaser, whereas the others prevent the re-uptake. Is the end result the same thing? You probably know the answer to that better than I do. I used to find MDAI amazing, its the perfect 'quiet drug' for watching a film, reading or listening to audiobook, i believe its known as an "empathic" in that you get more invloved with the subject matter than you might otherwise have done. For instance, as good as it is, I dont think id have stayed up all night listening to Jack London's The Call Of The Wild from the start right through to the very end, if i hadnt taken mdai. I just had to know what happened next. I dont think ive ever been so completely engrossed in a book as that.

 

[mydrugbuddy]

I guess it depends who you've met SD, obviously different drugs affect different people in different ways. I can imagine smack and crack making me feel supremely grandiose, so its probably just as well that i continue to avoid them. Even speed and meph made me feel more than usually composed, calm, and collected, i could have just used the word "cool" instead of all those 3 others, but the results's the same.

Cheers for both replies re the agency - well rehearsed phone call tomorrow it is then. The very worst that can happen is they'll say "im sorry we dont have any suitable vacancies at the moment"

 

[acieed_ed]

Sorry swampy ur wrong brimz was delusional talking like a black jamacan yardie increasing becoming more black (in his mind)
i am perfectly articulate and live in reality its crack that had/has me & brimz cocky and i acknoledge that aspect, he never did. Ok bloke tho

 

[swampdragon]

True that.. crack does seem to be to blame for turning people into cocky twats. (Um, no offense.. but you are much nicer off the stuff. )

 

[Ceres]

MDAI was naice but felt hard on the liver. Methoxpheninidie is my perfect drug atm.

 

[acieed_ed]

Why thank you swampy your always easy to talk to yourself i admit flaws n apologise if i cross the line. And am myself no false ego bs. I cried after nearly dying dont feel a bit ashamed to admit it.

 

[Sammy G]

Happy reunions, mutual apologies and being able to pick up exactly where we left off.

It's good to get one of your best friends back.

 

[Tangerine Dream]

Crack, Smack, a big fat slap. The name's Bender. Crack sucks. I want some brown though. I am content with pregab and codeine (the latter I get 100x 30mg a month... and hopefully will be trying O-Desmethyltramadol soon. I've managed to become slightly addicted to etizolam with just 50 1mg pills... which considering I don't feel any benzo that much is saying something. Diclazepam order is needed I think. yay drugs.

 

[Ceres]

You guys take a lot of drugs. No benzos, no stims, no psyches, no alcohol, no cigarettes for me.

 

[Sammy G]

Crack, Smack, a big fat slap. The name's Bender. Crack sucks.

Amen to that. When I started buying smack, we'd get free rocks thrown at us, with the expectation we'd be back for more. They were good rocks too - ammonia and all that - yet I could instantly see it for what it was - a drug designed to make you want / need more drugs. Right away. Not for me. Fun though, once in a while.

 

[Tangerine Dream]

I rarely take anything these days, bar booze (and pregab and codeine). The etizolam problem is a new thing because I was sleeping poorly... Should have seen that coming really. I'd happily take stims occasionally, same for psychs, opiates and dissociatives. Just occasionally though. Never smoked unless drunk so thats something I have going for me! But my drug use is sporadic for sure.

 

[swampdragon]

Happy reunions, mutual apologies and being able to pick up exactly where we left off.

It's good to get one of your best friends back.

Aw, seriously good to hear that.

 

[Sammy G]

Thanks. It made my week, it did. I expected frostiness and distance, but no, we're still the same juvenile bastards.

Oh, and he took one look at my attire and my hairstyle (bit shorter and spikier than you saw) and asked me what 'all this Anthem-era Danny Wildheart business' was about. :D