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Gibberings CLXXIX - No not Mormons... morons...

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Pagey said:
^If you're able to laugh about it doesn't sound like it scared you that much to come so close to death.



Sex really doesn't become something that incredible when you've seen the love of your life come that close to death with your own eyes honestly.
You hear all that bullshit about people finding a newfound respect for life after almost dying. I've just found a new disgust in it and how it just strives to snatch us away as quickly as it can.

Was re-reading Brave New World today and I think Huxley's got it right. Soma whenever you feel like this. Ie heroin. But then I won't, because he and I swore to each other never to touch drugs again, so what the hell's left? Feeling that he's dead whenever I'm not with him? Seeing his dying face whenever I close my eyes? Hearing the EMT tell me over and over again he doesn't know if I'm going to live or not, for the rest of my life? What the hell is the fucking point?
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wow sorry pagey i really didn't know that had happened i wasn't meaning to callus i was just trying to lighten the mood jesus hun really am sorry i guessed it was something else
 
Pagey sry didnt know u felt that bad i did last week and truth be told i wanted out of life sick of misery and monotony
pls stay strong u will get better in time ur an intelligent person wit ur whole life ahead of ya
peace
 
So sorry to hear that pagey, always here for you if you want another chat <3
 
Eveleivibe said:
Fpagey my PM is always open if you need someone to vent too honey

Ed sorry for what happened to you. That's dreadful.

Evey
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evey your a caring person thanx im over the worst of it i am glad i didnt die obv i feel i can get thru this have excellent support atm
plur
 
Going to bed have to be up by 8 am
massive gratitude to eadd for all ur concern much love nn
 
mornign all!
I doubt anyone is still here but hey...

got crazy kind of insomnia all of last night. but enough about me

Pagey, how are you? Im sorry to hear you re going through a though time. I really cannot imagine what you are going through, and as you rpobably already know, drugs arent the answer to your troubles. Your experience was quite traumatic and it would be foolish to think such a thing doesnt leave marks...
Im grateful though that you re still here with us to be posting, and to talk about your experience and feelings. If anything is worth doing in this state, is describing the place where you are, so that when you do return - as im sure you will - others finding themselves in that same place may use your experience to guide them back.

you are young, and even though you ve lived through a lot, im sure there is plenty more in the future for you. Finding something to do that is productive and relieves stress might be the best thing for you right now. Grab that scientist of yours and go do something together, all healthy and drugfreelike ;)
 
kingme said:
mornign all!
I doubt anyone is still here but hey...

got crazy kind of insomnia all of last night. but enough about me

Pagey, how are you? Im sorry to hear you re going through a though time. I really cannot imagine what you are going through, and as you rpobably already know, drugs arent the answer to your troubles. Your experience was quite traumatic and it would be foolish to think such a thing doesnt leave marks...
Im grateful though that you re still here with us to be posting, and to talk about your experience and feelings. If anything is worth doing in this state, is describing the place where you are, so that when you do return - as im sure you will - others finding themselves in that same place may use your experience to guide them back.

you are young, and even though you ve lived through a lot, im sure there is plenty more in the future for you. Finding something to do that is productive and relieves stress might be the best thing for you right now. Grab that scientist of yours and go do something together, all healthy and drugfreelike ;)
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Cheers for that message mate, it was a nice thing to wake up to.
My therapist keeps saying the best thing to do right now is to talk about it so that it doesn't become more of a long-lasting traumatic experience that'll continue to manifest itself over the years and stuff. But aside from her I've no idea who to talk to and even if I did, there's some things I just cannot say and I haven't even been able to say to my fucking shrink, because it feels like saying them will be proof of what happened. As if I wasn't sure it had happened...

I'm literally focusing all my life on my final year at university right now, seems to be my way of dealing with it since it keeps my head busy. It's the moments when I've actually got time to myself to think where I really fucking break down...

Ugh. Dunno what else to say. :( thanks everyone else too for the kind messages. Esp Dan for chatting me through the panic attack last night <3

Have a good day everyone :)
 
morning all :)
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Morning, I'm really not up for work today...I just cannot be arsed and to make things worse I have some terminally dull meeting this afternoon with a supplier so I'll have to feign interest in some irrelivent shizzle.

I'm looking for some positives .......nope :)
 
Hmmm

I am meant to be decorting today but soon as nottle of wine and some clarky cat has been had it's looking umm doubtful..suppose pulling a sicky out the question Allein? :\
 
Pagey said:
But aside from her I've no idea who to talk to and even if I did, there's some things I just cannot say and I haven't even been able to say to my fucking shrink, because it feels like saying them will be proof of what happened. As if I wasn't sure it had happened...
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a good guy on this forum here once said that if you dont have anyone to talk to, you may as well write things down. putting everything on papaer, letting the idea flow out. even if you dont plan on letting anyone else read it, just having them out of your mind might be a relief. you can also do whatever you want with the paper later, burn it, stow it away, give it to a loved one for reading or just safe keeping.
its better to talk things through, but even if you dont, i think these things take time either way, to get over.

doing things, learning, reading, writing, actual physical work, are all good means to give a sense of purpose and reality to our existence.

Also, dont sweat it too much.
university is a hard enough eh ;)
 
dull meeting?

wear no underwear. that will make it interesting ;)

(not that i do that. too often)
 
Ugh this keeps crashing.

A counsellor / therapist cannot breach confidentiality unless

- you're at harm to yourself (excluding self-harm as it's considered a defence mechanism) or others
- a child protection issue
- you're a terrorist or
- if they're supemed to court

They can, however, discuss things within a multidisciplinary team (eg NHS) with others who work with you or they're supervisor - but you're referred to in code form (not identified).

If that helps somewhat.

Evey
 
just found out my niece was rushed into hospital yesterday not sure as to what's wrong nosebleeds blackouts and fits

typical family last to find out and i suggested that they make sure the doctors check for nbome as she just started college and got the most disgusting response of she not you sort of thing she going for a ct scan later today so here is hoping everything turns out ok
 
Morning all..

Slept ok last night without any help, which makes a welcome change! Feeling a bit stressed out this morning for no apparent reason though, which sucks. Sure it'll pass soon though.

Pagey said:
Cheers for that message mate, it was a nice thing to wake up to.
My therapist keeps saying the best thing to do right now is to talk about it so that it doesn't become more of a long-lasting traumatic experience that'll continue to manifest itself over the years and stuff. But aside from her I've no idea who to talk to and even if I did, there's some things I just cannot say and I haven't even been able to say to my fucking shrink, because it feels like saying them will be proof of what happened. As if I wasn't sure it had happened...

I'm literally focusing all my life on my final year at university right now, seems to be my way of dealing with it since it keeps my head busy. It's the moments when I've actually got time to myself to think where I really fucking break down...

Ugh. Dunno what else to say. :( thanks everyone else too for the kind messages. Esp Dan for chatting me through the panic attack last night <3

Have a good day everyone :)
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Glad you are doing a bit better this morning. We're all here if you need us... <3

foolsgold said:
just found out my niece was rushed into hospital yesterday not sure as to what's wrong nosebleeds blackouts and fits

typical family last to find out and i suggested that they make sure the doctors check for nbome as she just started college and got the most disgusting response of she not you sort of thing she going for a ct scan later today so here is hoping everything turns out ok
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Doesn't sound good at all. Hope she is ok FG...
 
foolsgold said:
just found out my niece was rushed into hospital yesterday not sure as to what's wrong nosebleeds blackouts and fits

typical family last to find out and i suggested that they make sure the doctors check for nbome as she just started college and got the most disgusting response of she not you sort of thing she going for a ct scan later today so here is hoping everything turns out ok
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im sure you meant well FG with your concern and recommendation. not sure how they (docs) could check for that, or ideed, what they could do differently though.

at this point there s no point speculating. let the m do the tests and figure things out. hope for the best
 
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