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Gibberings CLXXIV - Cock Piss Partridge

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inflorescence said:
<3 Just keep going Nicklazz. No body here sits in judgement of you and if they do they are probably either wankers or hypocrites.
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Exactly. Just keep on trying & you'll keep making progress Nicklazz. Some progress is better than none... :)

Last part goes for you too inflo.
 
Nick & inflo you lovely people.. try not to be so hard on yourself.. fucked off, shame and regret, bollocks to those feelings. 8/9 days is decent, its so easy to slip up.. and theres plenty of time to try again
 
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Booze aint the problem so much for me...can go weeks without..but days like today it shouldn't have been messed with and now has led to this...lemmy would be proud..me NOT so much. Ahh well.

Loveage <3 Dan and sorry Chatative not myself today x
 
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I hate that all or nothing feeling that comes with trying to break a habit. As soon as you slip up once those thoughts of "I'll never get beyond so why bother trying" start coming into your head and you can't appreciate the good effort you've made.

You've got to try and focus on the positive thing you achieved and get back on the horse. It's really hard and sometimes disheartening but if you really want to change it will come.
 
Eveleivibe said:
I don't know what this is about, but just want to say when it comes to rejection. I don't know in context this is but, if, for instance, Sammy G fell for/ had a crush on someone n found out it wasn't recipitated - well that can be hard to take.

Olus, none of us truly know one another's pasts, childhoods n what-not. For instance, if a person faced a lot of rejection during childhood - adoption, favouring another child or whatever - they may feel that they are re-living that experience through the current rejection.

Rejection can - and does hurt, if Sammy G has felt rejected in some way n "cried" about it, I feel for him it's not very nice to go at him over it and no offence, but you do seem to appear to. All I see is a bloke who's battling with mental ill-health and addiction trying to make a living n get through things the best way he can. I actually have a lot of admiration for him, despite our fallings out, and there's been a fair few, probably will be more - as we're both ver opinionated people. But I wish him the best n don't think he's a bad lad. Just someone with issues , like the rest of us.

Evey
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I bet that really embarrassed him. lol

In terms of Sammy being good or evil; I'm undecided. I have noticed that he can be a sly fucker time to time... but i don't know if this is mild imperfections typical in most people... or if this is hinting at a deeper personal evil... Like a ripple in a pond, it will eventually spread to the whole surface...
 
raas_2012 said:
I bet that really embarrassed him. lol

In terms of Sammy being good or evil; I'm undecided. I have noticed that he can be a sly fucker time to time... but i don't know if this is mild imperfections typical in most people... or if this is hinting at a deeper personal evil... Like a ripple in a pond, it will eventually spread to the whole surface...
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I don't know him enough to judge him to be honest n I tend to go by how someone treats me or my friends as I'm hugely protective of friends n family. I've always seen Sammy to be quite straight-up, honest, intelligent, good at debating n likes a joke like the rest of us. As I say we've fallen out from time to time as we're both opinate so that's bound to happen but nothing to do with impaired character, slyness or anything derogatory.

In fact he 's aware of the town I live in n has never once uttered that info even when I've fallen out with him so I'd say he was trustworthy in that respect.

Sammy, sorry about talking about you like you're not here.

Evey
 
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I am off to spam the music thread with residual drama. Feeling one hell of a lot better..drugs and drink may have assisted but also some damn fine sensical (is that a word) conversation and even some laughter have started swinging this day around....

Fuckage-Dan =D
 
Nicklazz said:
Hey EADD. Thanks for all the support posts sum of ya wrote to me when I fall into alcohol 9-10 days ago. Read em' many times & means a lot for me. But I went on a bender sadly, allso sum Methylphenidate where involved. Feeling ashamed(I kno' I should not) to post here after ya lovely guys said those sweet words to me. & I not have answered ya posts.

But I have to post now + I miss BL too much + ya all. I hope ya all is good.
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Nicklazz,

8-9 is ace and you should be PROUD OF YOURSELF - not ashamed... Have you seen my Maintenance and Aftercare thread? You're more than welcome to come on there, I'm hoping that a few of us will and we can support one another with our recoveries / maintenance, if on it or anything to do with trying to battle and overcome an addiction.

Last time you came here after 61/2 days and had a drink - now you're here after 8-9 days. The gaps are getting longer and that's how it is for some people. While some people are able to abstain straight away, it is not always possible for others to do that this way; they have short periods of abstinence, relapse followed by another short period of sustenance which becomes longer each time - and it looks like you may be in the later category and there is NO SHAME WHATSOEVER IN THAT... Look at all the responses you've received from what I would state as extremely straight-forward people in terms of opinions and what not. I'm sure if there was any reason for shame, people would agree with you - as there isn't, they're not...

I'm sorry that your tests are coming positive for benzos - but keep going, Nicklazz - we're here for you. I should imagine that alcohol addiction is harder to beat and overcome than other forms of drug addiction in that it is easy to access it, it's almost everywhere and considered "the social drug," so to speak. 8-9 days is extremely good achievement.

Keep going, Nicklazz, you've got this - and we're all here for you every step of the way!

Thinking of you and wishing you the very best <3

swampdragon said:
I know, I can't bear all the drama. ;)
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Drama????

Anyway how are you doing?

parttime crackhead said:
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hahahahahahaha wtf???

Evey
 
parttime crackhead said:
No-one knows who you're beefing with marmalade. Keep your disagreement with non eadd mods to what ever dark and shitty section of bluelight they occurred on.
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Get fucked.

It was relevant to the cunt comment.

snolly said:
Haha fucking hell I'd have loved to see that :D Not even seen Mamma Mia actually, might get it downloaded while I'm on me own cos no way the missus will watch it.
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It's an absolutely fucking horrendous atrocity. Avoid at all costs.


Eveleivibe said:
Hiya you! You doing ok? Nice to see you in Gibs.



I don't know what this is about, but just want to say when it comes to rejection. I don't know in context this is but, if, for instance, Sammy G fell for/ had a crush on someone n found out it wasn't recipitated - well that can be hard to take.

Olus, none of us truly know one another's pasts, childhoods n what-not. For instance, if a person faced a lot of rejection during childhood - adoption, favouring another child or whatever - they may feel that they are re-living that experience through the current rejection.

Rejection can - and does hurt, if Sammy G has felt rejected in some way n "cried" about it, I feel for him it's not very nice to go at him over it and no offence, but you do seem to appear to. All I see is a bloke who's battling with mental ill-health and addiction trying to make a living n get through things the best way he can. I actually have a lot of admiration for him, despite our fallings out, and there's been a fair few, probably will be more - as we're both ver opinionated people. But I wish him the best n don't think he's a bad lad. Just someone with issues , like the rest of us.

Evey
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It was in ref to the 'coolest' guys he was referencing Evey.

And I appreciate you've got an opinion on Sam. I don't wish ill-will on anyone either. It's a good premise to hold.
 
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StreetHalo91 said:
Believe I know how tempting that can seem when you feel terrible and that there's no way out, but you have to focus on the positive things, the positive achievements you've made in your life and the positive ones still to come. From what I've seen from your posts you've done so well in battling against your addiction and your demons, you've managed to reduce your doses greatly in a small amount of time which is a hard thing to do (and is gonna factor into you not feeling good at the moment, but you're on your way for being free from them altogether!), as well as coping with a lot of stresses in your life on top of all this and raising your daughter in the best way you can. The fact that you've been fighting shows in itself that things are changing for you, and you owe it to yourself and to your daughter to continue, cos even though things may feel like shit atm you're so close and you've been doing so well, don't give up on it all now!
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Awh just seen this. That's a lovely, kind and thoughtful post. Thank you for talking the time to write it and for thinking of me. I hope that, someday, I am able to do the same for you. It's lovely to have you here and you're contribution to EADD... We love it when new members come along and liven it up somewhat... EADD is becoming a thriving and positive place again... and it's newbies, as well as us all contributing which add to that as well as having our new mods on board.

Evey
 
Eveleivibe said:
Awh just seen this. That's a lovely, kind and thoughtful post. Thank you for talking the time to write it and for thinking of me. I hope that, someday, I am able to do the same for you. It's lovely to have you here and you're contribution to EADD... We love it when new members come along and liven it up somewhat... EADD is becoming a thriving and positive place again... and it's newbies, as well as us all contributing which add to that as well as having our new mods on board.

Evey
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No worries :) I hope you're feeling a bit better today!
 
Marmalade said:
I havent read it, but I'm pretty interested in self-development (wanky expression but it's as apt as I can muster atm)
If the fourth chapter is called Try Your best (is that right? read it in this thread a few days ago, can't 100% remember now) .. then it sounds highly questionable as books go

I loathe that term, and generally the people who use it tend to mean, 'not a chance I'm gonna achieve that', rather than saying what they're actually thinking.

Then again, i heard it most when I was a demanding cunt of a manager. Always played fair mind, but truth > commiting to unachievable expectations ... realism and knowing (not just believing) your limits and potential tops all imo
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taken out of context, a lot of this kind of stuff can seem trite. i would encourage you to read the book.
Marmalade said:
Ali, if youre still about and youre feeling generous, I'd donate 20 quid to BL to have the Somni 'she put the cunt in cunt' quote as a signature.
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signatures are not available to bluelighters, i'm afraid, even for a contribution.

alasdair
 
Never seen somebody stand in such a peculiar way and smoke so many cigarettes in my life.....



I think hes got a black eye to, looks a bit ard... should stop staring at im shouldn't I...
 
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