Just keep going Nicklazz. No body here sits in judgement of you and if they do they are probably either wankers or hypocrites.
Just fallen off my month of booze free 8/9 days in and am pretty fucked off with myself and feel like I let S down as it was me that set the challenge.
I am fucking off it right now but it beats the hell out of how I was feeling earlier-covering up all the shit with booze and drugs aint the answer but I couldn't come up with another one soooo...fucking pathetic.
Big love Nicklazz...just keep trying that's all any of us can do. x
You such a lovely lady, so much greatness. Like Shambles said, try to do what ya told me. I will try myself for sure.Good to hear from you, Nick.
Wish these were better times, but one day they will be.
*waves at nick - try not to feel ashamed about such things cos shame is not a helpful way to feel when trying to tackle such situations - benders come to an end which means it's possible to pick yourself up and start again at any time you feel ready and able to - good luck with all
Nicklazz,
8-9 is ace and you should be PROUD OF YOURSELF - not ashamed... Have you seen my Maintenance and Aftercare thread? You're more than welcome to come on there, I'm hoping that a few of us will and we can support one another with our recoveries / maintenance, if on it or anything to do with trying to battle and overcome an addiction.
Last time you came here after 61/2 days and had a drink - now you're here after 8-9 days. The gaps are getting longer and that's how it is for some people. While some people are able to abstain straight away, it is not always possible for others to do that this way; they have short periods of abstinence, relapse followed by another short period of sustenance which becomes longer each time - and it looks like you may be in the later category and there is NO SHAME WHATSOEVER IN THAT... Look at all the responses you've received from what I would state as extremely straight-forward people in terms of opinions and what not. I'm sure if there was any reason for shame, people would agree with you - as there isn't, they're not...
I'm sorry that your tests are coming positive for benzos - but keep going, Nicklazz - we're here for you. I should imagine that alcohol addiction is harder to beat and overcome than other forms of drug addiction in that it is easy to access it, it's almost everywhere and considered "the social drug," so to speak. 8-9 days is extremely good achievement.
Keep going, Nicklazz, you've got this - and we're all here for you every step of the way!
Thinking of you and wishing you the very best
I know, I can't bear all the drama.
Will do inflo & big luv to ya
Yea 1 day mate, 1 day it have to be all better for me, I am hopin that so much.
yea man you right Shambles. Infact I should take the strengh I have to not use MDPV on this too. Because you of all like me know how hard MDPV is to resist. I can do it with alcohol too. Thanks
You are allso a lovely person matey. Will try my best
it is 9-10 days since I fall into alcohol Evey, not 8-9 days I have gone without any, longest I have hold is 6½ days still.
Sorry if my post was misunderstanding. But all in all ya post means a lot to me Evey, thanks very much!
I will check ya thread out for sure!
I will keep on going even if I fail & the tests say sum thing that aint true. I promise ya that.
All the best to you 2
yea man you right Shambles. Infact I should take the strengh I have to not use MDPV on this too. Because you of all like me know how hard MDPV is to resist. I can do it with alcohol too. Thanks
...I may have mentioned Two-Headed Shark Attack earlier. It's about as good as it sounds.
Really? Oooh, that's a weird coincidence.. and um, it's fairly self-aware but I wouldn't say it was quite a parody..
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
). Used to drive her nuts. She did try to convert angry manrock feelings into angry makeup sex but it rarely worked out due to... me being all angry mostly.
I'd love to try 2C-D, am a fan of phenethylamine type drugs generally and that one sounds really interesting, apparently has more auditory effects than most other 2Cx type chems? 2C-C and 2C-E are also on the list if one day I find a source. Got a lot to entertain myself with in the mean time though psychedelic-wise, have a few tabs of AL-LAD waiting for the perfect tripping day (tried it at 75ug before and enjoyed it but want to try a full tab dose, have done LSZ at various doses up to 300ug so now it's Al's turn :D), also some diphenidine I ordered whilst drunk the other day which I haven't done in a long time...
