Gibberings CLXXIV - Cock Piss Partridge

[Eveleivibe]

Thanks for the update . How's the subs reduction going?

Raas is the best poster on this site.......... he's funny interesting honest and entertaining so I am friends with him as he is very interesting person n makes everyone on the forum laugh and I have just pmd him by the way. how are you are you still taking codeine let me give you some advie never go on suboxone the stuff fucking sux seriously it's the worst drug ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it doesn't get you high but makes you feel empty as hell.

Evey

 

[Shambles]

you are not my mate, and you are not my fellow DJ, good bye forever!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQqg6WrTOC8

Ive still not learnt how to do that with youtube links, anyone fancy reminding me? So the youtube link is the actual text?

Type whatever it is you want the link to be labelled as and either highlight it then click on the button that looks like a globe with what's presumably meant to be a chain link on it and put the necessary URL into the box that pops up and enter it. Alternatively, type link as before and use [url="put url in here between quotation marks"]put whatever you want to show in the post here[/url]

 

[parttime crackhead]

Summer you've lost the plot. No idea why you're flipping the lid at everyone over this. I'm hoping you'll feel daft about in the morning.

you are not my mate, and you are not my fellow DJ, good bye forever!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dQqg6WrTOC8

Ive still not learnt how to do that with youtube links, anyone fancy reminding me? So the youtube link is the actual text?

See the button that looks like a little piece of film? In between the image & quote tags button. Click that then paste the youtube link into the box that pops up.

 

[curious_24]

Ah, not to good then. How many days in are you? Must be past the worst of it by now. Hopefully tomorrow will be a little easier, then every day will get a bit easier still.

 

[mattnotrik]

Summer you've lost the plot. No idea why you're flipping the lid at everyone over this. I'm hoping you'll feel daft about in the morning.






See the button that looks like a little piece of film? In between the image & quote tags button. Click that then paste the youtube link into the box that pops up.

I fear for shambles computer if that happened I think hes got it for my anyway just in case, cheers. Maybe we need to swap that tiny youtube embed link for the text things, its a right effort to make it just a little neater.

 

[curious_24]

Try conducting all of your Bluelight activity from a smartphone with a swipe keyboard and aggressive autocorrect. This is why I prefer to keep things short 'n simple and don't post many images or links.

 

[Eveleivibe]

ahhhhhh back what was I thinking....... I will get off these subs..... at least I hope so....

fuck im sorry I ever had that first taste.... and i'm talking the diamorphine when I gave birth... fuck me that was good but oh so sedustive...... I wish I'd never tasted opiates...

Evey

 

[StreetHalo91]

ahhhhhh back what was I thinking....... I will get off these subs..... at least I hope so....

fuck im sorry I ever had that first taste.... and i'm talking the diamorphine when I gave birth... fuck me that was good but oh so sedustive...... I wish I'd never tasted opiates...

Evey

I can empathise with this, have similar issues but with benzos rather than opiates, so I feel your pain. Felt so beautiful at first but coming off them is very difficult, keep reducing my intake down a lot then fucking up by taking more to deal with (or avoid dealing with) things. I'm not very good at having a lot of drugs around and not giving into temptation so I wish I could just throw the lot away and have done with it, but I'm terrified of the effects that benzo withdrawal can have... feeling shit is one thing but seizures and sudden death is another really lol...

 

[curious_24]

At least there's no real danger with opiate withdrawal, as hellish as it may be. The seizure thing always made me very wary around benzos.

Anyway, night all

 

[Eveleivibe]

Did you ever have a complete bored-empty feeling where you'd do anything, almost ANYTHIMG to fill it, anytime to stop it? Where minutes seem like hours and hours seems like days and everything is sooooo dull, soooooo long, and there's no way to stop it, no way at all..... I need it to stop

Evey

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

Yeah I usually just have a wank and a cigarette or something.

 

[Shambles]

Good advice for life in general really. Aside from the cig bit I suppose.

 

[StreetHalo91]

Definitely know the feeling, as hard as it is you just need to push through it, try to distract yourself with something or someone, change things up a bit, or even see if you can fill it with something positive Obviously much easier said than done sometimes especially if you're struggling with cutting down on drug intake and the like. It's hard but if you can get through it then things will be easier for the future

 

[Eveleivibe]

Definitely know the feeling, as hard as it is you just need to push through it, try to distract yourself with something or someone, change things up a bit, or even see if you can fill it with something positive Obviously much easier said than done sometimes especially if you're struggling with cutting down on drug intake and the like. It's hard but if you can get through it then things will be easier for the future

Right now toppng myself seems the only decent answer. Nothing will ever change it hasn't in 5 years I doubt it's ever gna now....

Evey

 

[StreetHalo91]

Right now toppng myself seems the only decent answer. Nothing will ever change it hasn't in 5 years I doubt it's ever gna now....

Evey

Believe I know how tempting that can seem when you feel terrible and that there's no way out, but you have to focus on the positive things, the positive achievements you've made in your life and the positive ones still to come. From what I've seen from your posts you've done so well in battling against your addiction and your demons, you've managed to reduce your doses greatly in a small amount of time which is a hard thing to do (and is gonna factor into you not feeling good at the moment, but you're on your way for being free from them altogether!), as well as coping with a lot of stresses in your life on top of all this and raising your daughter in the best way you can. The fact that you've been fighting shows in itself that things are changing for you, and you owe it to yourself and to your daughter to continue, cos even though things may feel like shit atm you're so close and you've been doing so well, don't give up on it all now!

 

[Eveleivibe]

yea I dunno I can't deal with this I need to go back to 8 mg I can't handle this at all............

Evey

 

[Raasyvibe]

Right now toppng myself seems the only decent answer. Nothing will ever change it hasn't in 5 years I doubt it's ever gna now....

Evey

Believe I know how tempting that can seem when you feel terrible and that there's no way out, but you have to focus on the positive things, the positive achievements you've made in your life and the positive ones still to come. From what I've seen from your posts you've done so well in battling against your addiction and your demons, you've managed to reduce your doses greatly in a small amount of time which is a hard thing to do (and is gonna factor into you not feeling good at the moment, but you're on your way for being free from them altogether!), as well as coping with a lot of stresses in your life on top of all this and raising your daughter in the best way you can. The fact that you've been fighting shows in itself that things are changing for you, and you owe it to yourself and to your daughter to continue, cos even though things may feel like shit atm you're so close and you've been doing so well, don't give up on it all now!

Nice post but, er...

sORRY what did PTCH say to upset me? I'm drinking strong wine an JD here plus withdrawal from subs.......... good I need the alcohol it's too much far too much..... the complete and endless boredom the emptiness no one understands at all

Evey

Best not to take Evey too seriously after 12am time lol If you're quick enough, you might be able to catch her number, though...



eve if you catch this, ya inbox is full

 

[StreetHalo91]

Best not to take Evey too seriously after 12am time lol If you're quick enough, you might be able to catch her number, though...

Was just trying to provide a bit of support and encouragement, if someone's talking about topping themselves then they're probably not feeling too great at the moment so however serious it is or isn't I think the least someone can do is at least talk to them and let them know people are listening and care. Even if someone is just feeling drunk and unhappy then giving a bit of support or a friendly ear is hardly a negative thing to do.

 

[class-a-team]

Well the majority of suicides happen after drinking so I would see that as a reason to be especially careful.

Evey I don't know anything about you but it sounds like you've come along way and things can only get better. They obviously won't get better if you don't stick it out though, and you'll never get to see the brighter side of life, so just hang in there, you have so much life left to live.

 

[Raasyvibe]

Best not to take Evey too seriously after 12am time lol If you're quick enough, you might be able to catch her number, though...

Was just trying to provide a bit of support and encouragement, if someone's talking about topping themselves then they're probably not feeling too great at the moment so however serious it is or isn't I think the least someone can do is at least talk to them and let them know people are listening and care. Even if someone is just feeling drunk and unhappy then giving a bit of support or a friendly ear is hardly a negative thing to do.

It's nice to see some support. Great post, I'm probably jealous coz I'm not capable of eliciting such sensitivity. But, like myself frequently, probs best not to take the drunken posts too seriously. Nice post, she gets a lot of unnecessary stick from posters.... good to see some support