When I was younger I used to have dreams warning me against MDMA. I remember a very vivid dream when I first started using it, and thought I was exclusive for taking it... A load of other school friends were telling me that they had taken it, empathised with my joy of it, negating the exclusive feeling I had... they all warned me very succinctly DONT go near it, it wasn't the wonderful utopic stuff we falsely believed it was.
At the time I dismissed this as "just a dream", but it did stick with me.
Years later this was followed up with a premonition dream, in the dream someone offered me some, I had a big bag of pills in my room and I was later miserable in spirit and opposing all I loved, treating my mother contemptuously. When I woke up, the next day I had to visit someone and they offered me some pills in real life.
At this time I knew there was divine influence in the dreams and took them more seriously, later I became a born again Christian and my perception was that MDMA was more satanic.
I wondered what damage it had done and why I was warned against it, as human research suggested moderate usage was not neurotoxic.
This was elucidated to me by a spirit in a later dream, I was walking through University corridors and my perception was not what it once was. My appreciation wasn't there; everything seemed just a bit duller. I was shocked, horrified that this drug was altering my perception and experience of life and that it might not be the same ever again. I stopped using the drug, and urged others never to use the evil substance.
However, recently it's been argued to me years later that MDMA by itself isn't so harmful and it's the combinations of MDA and other related serotonergic drugs which cause the brain damage. It does interest me greatly, exactly how these drugs effect our brains as human research is, for the majority flawed. External psychological factors are integrated in the observable cause for neuro-synapse chemical release and it's hard to assess what actual damage, if any, the drugs has caused by itself..
other news EVEY says that she's had time to think things over and realised that she loves bluelight and wants to come back peacefully and not cause any drama. She's also been emailing foolsgold and he is fine. Oh, and also, I think she's spoken to Brimz again on the phone.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
