cool mate, let me know how it did go :D. Can't wait till mine arrive.
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cool mate, let me know how it did go :D. Can't wait till mine arrive.
ScotchMist
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I've been thinking the exact same thing DITP, im finding it detrimental to myself, ive got plenty of demons I need to work out. I've got a drug test today which could result in me losing virtually everything, and for what...? The same shit ive been doing for 15 years... I need to fuckin grow up and face up to my issues, I love this place but its just not helping me.
Knocks passing has been a bit of a wake up call for me, I need to change. Myself and drugs haven't been getting on for many years now...! Time to call it a day me thinks.
Never say never but bye for now BL.
Knocks passing has been a bit of a wake up call for me, I need to change. Myself and drugs haven't been getting on for many years now...! Time to call it a day me thinks.
Never say never but bye for now BL.
Ben So Furry
Bluelighter
All the best DITP. Best of luck with your recovery.
I'm glad you enjoyed the aMT Nicklazz. Great stuff innit? Can't wait to find out what Dan makes of it. Hope it lives up to expectations Dan. It's no secret I love the stuff.
Been getting mega PV cravings lately. Doing my head right in. The frustrating thing is the cravings won't win. Ever. So they seem doubly pointless. I have even been acting out the practice of chasing off foil at night. When trying to sleep it's worse. So weird it's been over 18 months since I last used and they have come on all of a sudden. I really don't understand it. Something must have triggered this but I can't think what. Surely I shouldn't be getting them after this much time. When I'm at work or with family it's no issue but lying in bed at night it's all I think about. It's driving me nuts.
I'm glad you enjoyed the aMT Nicklazz. Great stuff innit? Can't wait to find out what Dan makes of it. Hope it lives up to expectations Dan. It's no secret I love the stuff.
Been getting mega PV cravings lately. Doing my head right in. The frustrating thing is the cravings won't win. Ever. So they seem doubly pointless. I have even been acting out the practice of chasing off foil at night. When trying to sleep it's worse. So weird it's been over 18 months since I last used and they have come on all of a sudden. I really don't understand it. Something must have triggered this but I can't think what. Surely I shouldn't be getting them after this much time. When I'm at work or with family it's no issue but lying in bed at night it's all I think about. It's driving me nuts.
Mental Kenny
Bluelighter
Meh ethylphenidate truly is the Kia of uppers, does sort of get you there eventually, but a crappy ride.
Didn't enjoy it today, 150mgs oral, followed by 69mgs snorted and then another two wee lines(could have been 50mgs each) after a few hours, never really had any enjoyment from it. Kratom, pyraz and diclaz did make things a bit better I must say.
I even got bored of porn, started doing job applications out of boredom.
Really hope I manage to sleep tonight, should have no probs just don't want to finish all my benzos already.
Anyway as a word of warning to whoever is planning a purchase, I don't think there's absolutely any difference between the 2mg blue diclaz and the 1mg diclaz on sale, I mean same effects, really really unreliable. If there's any difference it's not worth the price difference
Didn't enjoy it today, 150mgs oral, followed by 69mgs snorted and then another two wee lines(could have been 50mgs each) after a few hours, never really had any enjoyment from it. Kratom, pyraz and diclaz did make things a bit better I must say.
I even got bored of porn, started doing job applications out of boredom.
Really hope I manage to sleep tonight, should have no probs just don't want to finish all my benzos already.
Anyway as a word of warning to whoever is planning a purchase, I don't think there's absolutely any difference between the 2mg blue diclaz and the 1mg diclaz on sale, I mean same effects, really really unreliable. If there's any difference it's not worth the price difference
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
Before you leave have you considered the recovery forums? There's no drug talk there n it may benefit you. Of course you need to do what's best for you. Take care n you're welcome to message me anytime if you ever want someone to talk to.
Evey xxxx
Shambles
Bluelight Crew
^ Evenin', Ceres. Nice to see you poke yer nose in 
Just to say that with the return of my modvision I'd be able to see if anything like that was going on and I've not seen a single U/A or deleted post anywhere in this thread.
EDIT: I see Ali answered himself but just cos I'd already written it and - given the somewhat conspiratorial nature of EADD at the moment - thought it worth keeping in. I don't do "company line" and can assure you - and anybody else - that if I saw evidence of anything as unsavoury as is being suggested I'd be the first to mention it. I can honestly say I've not seen anything other than sadness and regret at the loss of such a well-loved member and mod. Perhaps not the most satisfying answer for some but it is, nonetheless, the truth.
I really hope that isn't the case. People leaving for triggering reasons are fair enough and I wish them all the best in their decision, but it would be such a shame to see this place decimated for the wrong reasons.
Just to say that with the return of my modvision I'd be able to see if anything like that was going on and I've not seen a single U/A or deleted post anywhere in this thread.
EDIT: I see Ali answered himself but just cos I'd already written it and - given the somewhat conspiratorial nature of EADD at the moment - thought it worth keeping in. I don't do "company line" and can assure you - and anybody else - that if I saw evidence of anything as unsavoury as is being suggested I'd be the first to mention it. I can honestly say I've not seen anything other than sadness and regret at the loss of such a well-loved member and mod. Perhaps not the most satisfying answer for some but it is, nonetheless, the truth.
..leaving in droves, apparently. I'm starting to see their point really.
I really hope that isn't the case. People leaving for triggering reasons are fair enough and I wish them all the best in their decision, but it would be such a shame to see this place decimated for the wrong reasons.
Mental Kenny
Bluelighter
what ya getting Kenny?
Doing great thanks, lovely weather, a cold beer or two, just chillin. u?
Got some stuff
On the eph, diclaz, pyraz, beer and kratom right now
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Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
^ Evenin', Ceres. Nice to see you poke yer nose in
Just to say that with the return of my modvision I'd be able to see if anything like that was going on and I've not seen a single U/A or deleted post anywhere in this thread.
EDIT: I see Ali answered himself but just cos I'd already written it and - given the somewhat conspiratorial nature of EADD at the moment - thought it worth keeping in. I don't do "company line" and can assure you - and anybody else - that if I saw evidence of anything as unsavoury as is being suggested I'd be the first to mention it. I can honestly say I've not seen anything other than sadness and regret at the loss of such a well-loved member and mod. Perhaps not the most satisfying answer for some but it is, nonetheless, the truth.
I really hope that isn't the case. People leaving for triggering reasons are fair enough and I wish them all the best in their decision, but it would be such a shame to see this place decimated for the wrong reasons.
If anyone is leaving Bluelight for triggering reasons, as I've mentioned, please consider looking at the recovery section here first as there no/limited drug discussion there. There is also a lot of loving, warming, supportive people there. They've helped me through a few things. It's a very good sub-forum. Just thought I'd mention that. Plus there's a thread on EADD where there is no drug talk. What's it called please, Shambles?
Evey xxxx
Shambles
Bluelight Crew
It's not that there's no drug talk allowed (that's Teh Lounge territory to which even EADD will not sink 
) but we do have the Drug Sabbatical, Support and Appreciation Thread which provides a more... EADD stylee version of a "recovery" thread.
(oh, and in pm news, i got through a fair few last time i attacked it but was one short of replying to yours, evey. i returned after long weekend to find i appear to have gained ~50% more pms than i had before i replied to any. bugger. really am not good at pms. thank fuck i ain't a ladygirl cos i'd be screwed on a regular basis
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) but we do have the Drug Sabbatical, Support and Appreciation Thread which provides a more... EADD stylee version of a "recovery" thread.(oh, and in pm news, i got through a fair few last time i attacked it but was one short of replying to yours, evey. i returned after long weekend to find i appear to have gained ~50% more pms than i had before i replied to any. bugger. really am not good at pms. thank fuck i ain't a ladygirl cos i'd be screwed on a regular basis
)^ Evenin', Ceres. Nice to see you poke yer nose in
fly by night visit, nice to see you too, and back in power it seems
Shambles
Bluelight Crew
(although must admit that looks distinctly like a knock-off pic of inferior quality to the classic original
)Do pop yourself in now and then, sirrah
Uncle Robert
Bluelighter
[video=youtube_share;98LoiMZ59Jw]http://youtu.be/98LoiMZ59Jw[/video]
Fucking hilarious. Gets better with each viewing.
Fucking hilarious. Gets better with each viewing.
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
It's not that there's no drug talk allowed (that's Teh Lounge territory to which even EADD will not sink
(oh, and in pm news, i got through a fair few last time i attacked it but was one short of replying to yours, evey. i returned after long weekend to find i appear to have gained ~50% more pms than i had before i replied to any. bugger. really am not good at pms. thank fuck i ain't a ladygirl cos i'd be screwed on a regular basis
50 E-mails? How'd you manage that? We can only have 100, can't we? WOW you must be popular. Rather you than me I wouldn't like to read 50 E-mails lol
So fuckin hard when ya think ya doing the right thing telling sum very close people that u have ordered sum drugs, but it aint MDPV etc that would make you go mad, but they still go loco on ya, ffs. just tried to be honest.
just tried to be honest.
Shambles
Bluelight Crew
^ Never mind those that don't understand, Nick. The Big Thing is that you didn't order peev. You, I and all other fiends know this to be true. Don't let it getcha down, you're doing great
(and fwiw, i'm also intending to cut back on the peev orders cos it's been virtually weekly recently and that's waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much for me. yes it is at considerably lower quantity but i'm still spending the intervening time with naught but peev delivery to come on my mind which is a very, very bad sign![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
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50 percent extra, m'dear, not 50 extra
But, in relation to your question, as a mod my inbox just jumped to 500 capacity. Was previously a "mere" 250 (Crew Capacity) and that was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much for me. I'm sure I'd function much better in the PM department if strictly limited to... I dunno... five or summat. It's about my level of concentration
(and fwiw, i'm also intending to cut back on the peev orders cos it's been virtually weekly recently and that's waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much for me. yes it is at considerably lower quantity but i'm still spending the intervening time with naught but peev delivery to come on my mind which is a very, very bad sign
)50 percent extra, m'dear, not 50 extra
But, in relation to your question, as a mod my inbox just jumped to 500 capacity. Was previously a "mere" 250 (Crew Capacity) and that was waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much for me. I'm sure I'd function much better in the PM department if strictly limited to... I dunno... five or summat. It's about my level of concentration
brimz
Bluelighter
Alright ya fukas I will be back with a thread soon just thought I would say fuk youN luv n ting
N luv n ting
Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
wow I'd love to have a 500 inbox mine fills up too damn quick lol you're very lucky haha...
Nice welcome there, Brimz lol. You doing ok???? We've all been upset over Knock the past week. Wondered where you'd gone n if you were ok.
Anyway nos da peeps! Time to travel up the wooden hills n hit the sack....
Evey
Nice welcome there, Brimz lol. You doing ok???? We've all been upset over Knock the past week. Wondered where you'd gone n if you were ok.
Anyway nos da peeps! Time to travel up the wooden hills n hit the sack....
Evey
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