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Need some support guys, if anyone's around :(

I'm just waiting in Hong Kong for my connecting flight to Sydney, knocked myself out with xanax for most of the 12 hour Paris-HK trip but I'm feeling ridiculously depressed and lonely right now. Empty airport, going alone to a country I don't know, feel like my heart's been torn out because I can't see my fiancé for almost 5 months. My mom and sister came to the airport with me and my sister started crying which was just heartbreaking. I'm really freaking out about having made a mistake :( I've got another 9 hour flight ahead of me and I arrive in Sydney at night and I'll be on my own all night and tomorrow morning until a couple people I know arrive mid-day thursday. But fuck. How the fuck could I think leaving my fiancé for this long would be a good idea? I dunno if I can do this. I'm really sorry for the sob story but I need to hear some positive words :( :(

Five months is fuck all. You may never have a chance like this to spend proper time on the other side of the world. It'll be over before you know it and you'll be wishing you could stay longer (except of course you'll have MrCientist waiting for you).

Seriously five months is just 4 weeks, then another , then another, then another, then another. Finished. Really pretty fucking short. You'll be fine <3

And you'll spend the first month getting to know people, then you'll get into a party routine, a few interesting journeys, then oh shit time to go home!
 
Five months is fuck all. You may never have a chance like this to spend proper time on the other side of the world. It'll be over before you know it and you'll be wishing you could stay longer (except of course you'll have MrCientist waiting for you).

Seriously five months is just 4 weeks, then another , then another, then another, then another. Finished. Really pretty fucking short. You'll be fine <3

And you'll spend the first month getting to know people, then you'll get into a party routine, a few interesting journeys, then oh shit time to go home!

Yeah I guess you're right knock...I'll probably feel better once I get there, I think it's just being completely on my own for such a long journey that's really getting to me. It hadn't really hit me how far I was going til I landed in this empty airport where it's almost 8am and no one speaks my language, silly as that might sound. Before that it still seemed completely surreal but now I just can't stop thinking about all the people I'm not going to be seeing for a while. You're right, five months isn't that long, especially not when mrcientist and I have got our whole lives together but...I'm still having so much trouble thinking about it :(
Thank you so much for the kind words though, I think hearing objective opinions at the moment is good. Really appreciate it knock <3

And thanks a lot for the PM Evey, I've replied :) <3
 
I'm just off to bed, but before I go Knock has a particularly good way with these kinda things and I can't really think of much to add (perhaps due to being at least three-quarters asleep) but I will say that he's dead right. Five months is nothing. I've had longer sneezing fits (no really - gear was very bad quality for a few months this one time :D). It's natural to get cold feet when embarking on such a big change of scene but you know you'll soon be in the swing of things. You've been looking forward to this for ages now and you know you're gonna <3 it once you settle in.

With communications the way they are these days you can be in good contact with people back here and in France as much as you have time for (two of my younger brothers are in relationships with women from overseas and they're forever on Skype and stuff whilst between visits - I actually caught one of them mid... well I'll leave it to your imagination and wish it wasn't in mine :!). It's a great adventure, a great oppurtunity and you'll have a great time <3
 
Lawdy they don't half put a lotta clove in Sensodyne mouthwash. Never had it before but was on offer, just brushed teeth before bed and my mouth is numb and tastes like overly-mulled wine (well, mainly the mull part). Not entirely sure I like it, more a minty boy me. Ah well, that'll teach me for always opting for whatever's on offer 8)

Nighty, all <3
 
Need some support guys, if anyone's around :(

I'm just waiting in Hong Kong for my connecting flight to Sydney, knocked myself out with xanax for most of the 12 hour Paris-HK trip but I'm feeling ridiculously depressed and lonely right now. Empty airport, going alone to a country I don't know, feel like my heart's been torn out because I can't see my fiancé for almost 5 months. My mom and sister came to the airport with me and my sister started crying which was just heartbreaking. I'm really freaking out about having made a mistake :( I've got another 9 hour flight ahead of me and I arrive in Sydney at night and I'll be on my own all night and tomorrow morning until a couple people I know arrive mid-day thursday. But fuck. How the fuck could I think leaving my fiancé for this long would be a good idea? I dunno if I can do this. I'm really sorry for the sob story but I need to hear some positive words :( :(

My parents spent 2 years apart on either sides of the globe right after their first summer together. It was 4 months together, 24 months apart, but they pulled through. If it's meant to be, you will pull through too. Don't obsess over fb chat or skype - Write letters to each other instead. It's more romantic and the anticipation of receiving them will be what gets you through. Knock is right though, 5 months is not as long as it sounds, even when you're apart from your S O.
 
Bear with a sore head? Say it ain't so. Don't recall ever seeing you in a stroppy mood, ya big ol' cuddly bear you <3

As for what's going on with me, anther dozy night on the sofa mostly. Dunno what's up with me these days but tend to be rather tired of an eve and have become rather fond of a pre-sleep nap :o

You know that there are several thread for mods/ex mods etc - My last Private thread was 'Bear with a sore head' :D. Pre-sleep nap ? Ill send you some Jesus sandals and we can start a club (I think the expression is Nanna Nap :D).

Bear hugs (bromance way - not gay or owt).
 
I did the Long distance thing for several years (posted about it before) - My number one tip with skype etc. Do NOT use it as a telephone - do not sit in front of it and say the usual (miss you, weather, finally murdered that guy etc).

Leave it running - watch TV, read, study, sleep and everything else. Just having 'company' will really change the way you feel (more than a 'telephone' call).

We travel a lot and often have to spend time apart, we have skyped and watched the match together :D.
 
@pagey - its all been said above really but it will fly by... my girlfriend had already booked a round the world trip when I met her, we was together for 5 months then she was gone for another 8. We're still together, happy and have a family 8 years later. It can be done and if you want it, It will be done :)
 
My girlfriend's pretty thick, everything goes over her head. Fortunately, so do both her feet.
So we're still good.
 
I set that very question as a challenge in the Why Did You Choose Your BL Name? thread... but seeing as nobody took up the challenge, it translates as Ta Ma which is the earliest known term for cannabis found in an ancient Chinese medical text. Chosen for avatar partly cos cannabis was the first drug that demonstrated to me that drugs didn't have to be as shitey as booze, but mainly cos it looks good.

Hah ok. I was thinking it was going to be something wise. I didn't have you down as a cannabis smoker for some reason. Do you smoke often?
 
Need some support guys, if anyone's around :(

I'm just waiting in Hong Kong for my connecting flight to Sydney, knocked myself out with xanax for most of the 12 hour Paris-HK trip but I'm feeling ridiculously depressed and lonely right now. Empty airport, going alone to a country I don't know, feel like my heart's been torn out because I can't see my fiancé for almost 5 months. My mom and sister came to the airport with me and my sister started crying which was just heartbreaking. I'm really freaking out about having made a mistake :( I've got another 9 hour flight ahead of me and I arrive in Sydney at night and I'll be on my own all night and tomorrow morning until a couple people I know arrive mid-day thursday. But fuck. How the fuck could I think leaving my fiancé for this long would be a good idea? I dunno if I can do this. I'm really sorry for the sob story but I need to hear some positive words :( :(

Im sure it will hurt like hell but you can still keep in touch all the time whilst you are there. You are lucky to have someone with whome you have a special bond, even though you will be apart for 5 months.
 
Mornin', all :)

Laaaaaarvely sunny day this morn. At least it was when I woke up, seems to have gone a bit cast over now. Presumably cos I've gotta go into town in a bit 8)

Don't obsess over fb chat or skype - Write letters to each other instead. It's more romantic and the anticipation of receiving them will be what gets you through.

Excellent idea, Alby :)

A handwritten letter definitely hits the spot better than any other form of communication - especially when feelings and emotions are involved. I have had the odd handwritten letter from the odd (sometimes very odd ;)) online chum and I must admit I rather treasure them - far more so than online communications which, whatever they are, always have a certain throwaway quality. Perhaps the time apart could be a good basis for engaging in a lil oldskool romance. Like those couples who have boxes of letters written back and forth they can re-read and cherish forever. I've always thought that must be such a nice thing to have - a properly treasured box of treasure. A very fine idea indeed, Alby :)

Bear hugs (bromance way - not gay or owt).

Right back atcha, Bear <3

(and a boy can dream ;))

Leave it running - watch TV, read, study, sleep and everything else. Just having 'company' will really change the way you feel (more than a 'telephone' call).

That's exactly how I've seen my lil brothers using Skype. It's just on for hours at a stretch whilst they're pottering, cooking or whatever. Just chatting as though the other person was there with 'em in the room.

Hah ok. I was thinking it was going to be something wise. I didn't have you down as a cannabis smoker for some reason. Do you smoke often?

Pretty rare these days actually. In large part due to being stupidly overpriced and surprisingly hard to get hold of around here. I used to smoke habitually though and did for many years. I only smoke cigs now cos I ran outta weed once and thought I may as well use up the last of the cigs I had for rolling spliffs. Oopsies. Not one of my better ideas 8)
 
Can he not go over to Aus for a week or so to be with you? Or does he have work committments? Could he get some time off for a week or so within, say, a month?

Just a thought.

Received your PM, pagey you don't need to thank me honey, I PM anyone who is upset or what-not.

Now you enjoy yourself that's an order from us all ok :) xxxx

Evey xxxx
 
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