Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
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Need some support guys, if anyone's around
I'm just waiting in Hong Kong for my connecting flight to Sydney, knocked myself out with xanax for most of the 12 hour Paris-HK trip but I'm feeling ridiculously depressed and lonely right now. Empty airport, going alone to a country I don't know, feel like my heart's been torn out because I can't see my fiancé for almost 5 months. My mom and sister came to the airport with me and my sister started crying which was just heartbreaking. I'm really freaking out about having made a mistakeI've got another 9 hour flight ahead of me and I arrive in Sydney at night and I'll be on my own all night and tomorrow morning until a couple people I know arrive mid-day thursday. But fuck. How the fuck could I think leaving my fiancé for this long would be a good idea? I dunno if I can do this. I'm really sorry for the sob story but I need to hear some positive words
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Five months is fuck all. You may never have a chance like this to spend proper time on the other side of the world. It'll be over before you know it and you'll be wishing you could stay longer (except of course you'll have MrCientist waiting for you).
Seriously five months is just 4 weeks, then another , then another, then another, then another. Finished. Really pretty fucking short. You'll be fine
And you'll spend the first month getting to know people, then you'll get into a party routine, a few interesting journeys, then oh shit time to go home!
Need some support guys, if anyone's around
I'm just waiting in Hong Kong for my connecting flight to Sydney, knocked myself out with xanax for most of the 12 hour Paris-HK trip but I'm feeling ridiculously depressed and lonely right now. Empty airport, going alone to a country I don't know, feel like my heart's been torn out because I can't see my fiancé for almost 5 months. My mom and sister came to the airport with me and my sister started crying which was just heartbreaking. I'm really freaking out about having made a mistakeI've got another 9 hour flight ahead of me and I arrive in Sydney at night and I'll be on my own all night and tomorrow morning until a couple people I know arrive mid-day thursday. But fuck. How the fuck could I think leaving my fiancé for this long would be a good idea? I dunno if I can do this. I'm really sorry for the sob story but I need to hear some positive words
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Bear with a sore head? Say it ain't so. Don't recall ever seeing you in a stroppy mood, ya big ol' cuddly bear you
As for what's going on with me, anther dozy night on the sofa mostly. Dunno what's up with me these days but tend to be rather tired of an eve and have become rather fond of a pre-sleep nap![]()
not gay or owt
Don't disappoint the man
I tried the chewing method and only found it sliiightly better than eating it. I'm going to try a kratom and banana milkshake next.![]()
Besides, milk is good for you.
I set that very question as a challenge in the Why Did You Choose Your BL Name? thread... but seeing as nobody took up the challenge, it translates as Ta Ma which is the earliest known term for cannabis found in an ancient Chinese medical text. Chosen for avatar partly cos cannabis was the first drug that demonstrated to me that drugs didn't have to be as shitey as booze, but mainly cos it looks good.
Need some support guys, if anyone's around
I'm just waiting in Hong Kong for my connecting flight to Sydney, knocked myself out with xanax for most of the 12 hour Paris-HK trip but I'm feeling ridiculously depressed and lonely right now. Empty airport, going alone to a country I don't know, feel like my heart's been torn out because I can't see my fiancé for almost 5 months. My mom and sister came to the airport with me and my sister started crying which was just heartbreaking. I'm really freaking out about having made a mistakeI've got another 9 hour flight ahead of me and I arrive in Sydney at night and I'll be on my own all night and tomorrow morning until a couple people I know arrive mid-day thursday. But fuck. How the fuck could I think leaving my fiancé for this long would be a good idea? I dunno if I can do this. I'm really sorry for the sob story but I need to hear some positive words
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Don't obsess over fb chat or skype - Write letters to each other instead. It's more romantic and the anticipation of receiving them will be what gets you through.
Bear hugs (bromance way - not gay or owt).
Leave it running - watch TV, read, study, sleep and everything else. Just having 'company' will really change the way you feel (more than a 'telephone' call).
Hah ok. I was thinking it was going to be something wise. I didn't have you down as a cannabis smoker for some reason. Do you smoke often?