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Gibberings CLV: Empathy is a Two Way Street

Eveleivibe said:
I see some of you are able to quote. Are you on your laptops because I'm still not able to do so on my iPhone. I could try the iPad but really cant be bothered lol. I hope people don't mind the DPs I've made. I'm awful sorry for doing so. Mods are you able to edit them for me or is it not working there either?
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You can type the quote tags yourself, for you it was-

[qu0te=Eveleivibe]blah blah[/qu0te]
 
Seems I jusr stepped into an ideal job conversation. Shockingly enough for a waster like me, I don't have one. As a kid I wanted to write/direct films and/or be a writer. Hasn't quite panned out that way. I guess the writer thing is purely down to me cos it's not like you need qualifications or owt - just inspiration and talent. If I ever happen to have one the other is always lacking. I also have a wide range of other excuses :o

That aside, evenin', all :)
 
Shambles said:
Seems I jusr stepped into an ideal job conversation. Shockingly enough for a waster like me, I don't have one. As a kid I wanted to write/direct films and/or be a writer. Hasn't quite panned out that way. I guess the writer thing is purely down to me cos it's not like you need qualifications or owt - just inspiration and talent. If I ever happen to have one the other is always lacking. I also have a wide range of other excuses :o

That aside, evenin', all :)
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I'm doing a media/ film degree because I want to do the same things as you did, however I've realized that doing a degree in it is pointless, most successful directors got big by creating a good portfolio of work, not by going to uni. Shane Meadows didn't even have any GCSE's.
 
Dunno if this helps Sham but unless you hit Harry Potter (ie massive shite for the masses) writing don't make bugger-all. My brother just wrote a 'famous persons' biography, reviewed in all papers (well, The Times anyway) as THE biography of said famous person. Got 20K advance and nowt since. Book took 3 years to write, you do the maths, I suspect in a decent flat you get more on Income support + HB.

Fuck inspiration, I'd want the money guaranteed.
 
I was very stoned last night and i wondered whether just printing out all my posts, or Shambles posts, or SHMS posts, or anyones posts could be edited to make an interesting read. I may or may not actually do this, i was probably suffering from delusions of grandeur when i had this thought last night. You know the way some ideas or thoughts can seem amazing when you are stoned but then in more sober reality they are just ridiculous ? Or is that just me ?
 
Was never about the money really, SHM. I just love words and writing and always have done. Is my non-druggy passion. At least it was... I kinda lost myself along the way somehow. Not through drugs. At least I don't think so. Just got all the inspiration beaten out of me over the years one way or another. I'm fairly sure it's still in there somewhere but may take some coaxing out. I need a muse. Applications in the post, please.

Hexagram: Yeah, I did three years of media studies at college (not uni - just college) then got into photography through the media courses and did another three years of photography. Shitty timing for both really. Media courses were kinda new at the time so basic to say the least. Photography was great but it's all digital now and I think digital cameras were still at the several thousand quids per pixel level at the time. Not quite (was one fella (a pro photographer) on the course who had one but the quality was appalling back then).

In more positive note, stuff like media and photography don't need qualifications - just need to know the absolute basics really. Not even that with digital stuff really. It's really all about finding funding and inspiration. Preferably in reasonably close proximity to each other.
 
Well obviously that would be nice - if I were in your brother's position I'd probably not be a happy bunny, oh no not at all :!

That's "proper" writing though - well researched and stuff. Any writing I do is for personal pleasure above all else. I'd never think of it as a money-spinner. Not since I left my primary school dreams behind and saw how the "real world" works anyway. If I could but make pocket money for it I'd be more than happy. Can't really though cos it'd screw me. It's a real shitter being stuck on benefits where you have either earn enough to cover your basic minimums (drugs, rent, council tax, bills, food, clothing) or risk homelessness. I think know I've drifted so far away from "normal life" that stuff like that is a real concern for me. Never used to be - I'd just do whatever I wanted to do and worry about where I slept and what I ate later. Am too old for that now. I just worry in general and go nowhere instead :\

Have my hopes set on moving away - back to civilisation and the people therein. One thing I have discovered over the years is that I just don't function as a monad. I've always functioned best (as in only functioned anywhere near properly at all) in conjunction with at least one other person on similar wavelength. I always longed for time alone to get myself together. Should be careful what you wish for...
 
well, my original plan of having a line of ethly to get rid of benzo grogginess and help me focus on revision ended well. I thought I'd have a few glasses of wine to take the edge of the anxiety. Then I thought I feel too drunk now so lets do a few more lines. Then I got anxious again so threw in a benzo and some booze. And I've still not really done much revision D=.
 
Mr Shambles you have great flowing, easy to read/follow style of writing. There are some posters on here whose posts i genuinely struggle to make any sense of most of the time they post.

Id say your way above average in writing skills.....but im no expert and English was one of my weaker subjects at school. You should attempt to start a book. And if you get writers block, turn to EADD for suggestions on where the story should go.
 
swedger77 said:
Mr Shambles you have great flowing, easy to read/follow style of writing. There are some posters on here whose posts i genuinely struggle to make any sense of most of the time they post.

Id say your way above average in writing skills.....but im no expert and English was one of my weaker subjects at school. You should attempt to start a book. And if you get writers block, turn to EADD for suggestions on where the story should go.
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Why thankyou, Mr Swedger :)<3

Much as I hate to be a living cliche of pure pretentious wankery, comments like this really do mean a lot to us tormented artistic types. Self-confidence when it comes to one's (warned y'all I was gonna start using that word when appropriate :p) medium is rarely that high... unless cocaine, speed or heavy amounts of alcohol are involved anyway :D

But ultimately I can make all the excuses I like, it's still all comes down to literally (see what I did there ;)) putting pen to paper. Or even fingertips to keyboard. Rinse/repeat. Hope for the best.

Lack of self-belief is most certainly a part of it, but in truth I'm lazy, fickle, uninspired and inflicted with one of those artistic temprements... which is another excuse for all the previous plus being a stroppy cunt :\

In more postive news, I do still think I have it in me. I really do need to sort myself out a bit more first though, I suspect. Need to break this oh-so-slowly downward spiralling state I've been in for the last few years. Cos I kinda think that underneath all that I've actually been making big strides forward. Just not quite been able to reconnect with myself yet 8)

/poncery
 
Just at the decision making point: finish last coupla drinks and call it a night and save proper drugs for tomorrow, go to shop to hunt and gather more booze and save proper drugs for tomorrow, some combination of the two. I'd probably appreciate proper drugs better tomorrow really so should probably stick with that. Should probably also not acquire more booze cos will only drink it meaning more hungover tomorrow. How sensible can a boy be? Answers on a postcard...
 
^ Way ahead of ya, Swampy. Am working as hard as a wasterboy is capable of towards sorting out my compulsiveness. At least as it relates to my chemchums... and less chummy chemmy chums :\

No hunting nor gathering of alkyholz for me tonight. Don't think I'm gonna bother with the 4-FA or 6-APDB either. Not tonight. Will appreciate it more tomorrow. Tomrrow, however, I iz getting fukked :)

Eveleivibe said:
Shambles I always assume you were female.
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It just so happens I'm rather in touch with my feminine side is all, Evey ;)<3

But I'll most certainly take that as a compliment =D
 
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