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General Heroin Discussion 20 v. Walking Around in Women's Underwear

hey guys. so...uhh...im still alive!

after a radical shift in my friend group for the better, a 6 week long psychadelic detox (copious amounts of lsd, ketamine, mushroom chocolates, dmt, and mescaline), and a month at my new job that i fucking LOVE (i now work in a headshop full time. my job description is 1) be high 2) sell bongs, bowls, vapes, and ecig shit) I have JUST done dope for the first time since that began.

i was doing really well and only got some because a good friend of mine was really sick and i got a huge comission check from work this week so i split a bun with him. one bag has me itching like fuck and a little noddy (from the little tolerance break + massive quantities of ketamine that ive been consuming)

im not sure if im going to keep using after today. i wont be sick from this one day, which is also my only day off this week, i have access to subs and ketamine, and my life has been going great since i stopped.

oh well. i was just letting y'all know that im still alive, not incarcerated, and doing well.

this massive j of chocolope and line of dope is for you guys

I am glad your doing well Jeebis. I highly recommend you stay off the dope but its your life. If I was you I would IM K every time I had a dope craving.
 
Luck he even has access to K lol. Here it the Chi I haven't came across any at all, only PCP (which ive heard many horror stories about).
Put it this way, if your only at day one of use, don't wake up on the second day with some dope still in ur possession. I'd bet a gamble (with odds in favor of me) most ppl will probably use the second day. Then ur in partial w/D which makes u rationalize ur alrdy guna wd so why not do more.

Then it's all downhill from there lol. Just tryna save u the headache before it leaches its hooks back into u. Hope this helps u.
 
^^ haha, I've been doing so well then I read what you had just wrote and it makes me wanna float on those dope clouds. would be very, very nice but I guess I gotta stay clean and do this life thing right. lets hope no one around me is using or I read what you have just wrote again, ha.

good stuff, bud. you enjoyed that one.

Im from Jersey -- cop out of Trenton but live near Camden and yes, to answer your question. The majority of the stuff out here is cut with fentanyl -- packs a punch and lasts forever.
 
I'm good bro. just laying low, working and smoking weed and then once every month or 2 ill cop a lil bit and that's it. just living life and trying to stay away from trouble. I don't got time to be where I was a couple years ago. as much as I loved getting high 4-5x a week, I get so much more satisfaction from it now that its more like a party favor. I realized how big a trigger BL is, along with shows like intervention and drugs inc.

its sad that I cant post here everyday like I used to but for me getting high and going on BL was a marriage, they went hand in hand. hell they still do, look I'm here posting while high right now lol. and so staying away is something I had to do to keep myself in the right mind state. like I said I don't watch interventions or drugs inc that much cause, seeing piles of dope and dope fiends nodding off on camera, really makes me want to nod too. its like I know how good they feel at that moment cause ive been there many times. and now after 2 months I got that itch and so I scratched it with a half gram lol

whats been going on with you bro? everything been good?
 
Im gonna sell some computer parts for dope money this week

I owe someone some bags and was MIA for a minute but the shit I got today made me realize some shit

I havent spent my own money on dope in over a month I've just been middlemanning people

God bless America
 
whats drugs my dealers??

*team nod assemble*


what up chink real recognize real

i didn't see that til now bro, but whats good homie, whats new? making music, tours, c\just chillin? hows the woman, hows Claire?
 
good man, she's real good

not really playing any shows anymore. but the band literally made me $10,000 in royalties the past two months - I swear to God I'm not lying

unGodly amount was spent on durgs
 
Im gonna sell some computer parts for dope money this week

Bruh, did the suboxone plan fall through?

I've been doing .5 mg. subox daily for months now. This allows me to cop a few bags here and there and still feel it but at the same time the small dose of subox keeps the cravings in check. It also helps with aches and pains that come with being almost 60 years old.

After being in the dope game for 45 years, give or take, one thing that I've learned is that the MOST RELIABLE dealers are dealers who doesn't use the product they are selling. Since January I've had two connections that I actually first met in rehab. I only dealt with them occasionally, once or twice a month, when I got the itch. Since I don't have a dope habit now, and had a 17 year run when I was NA clean and able to focus on my career, saving and investing cash, I have some resources. I can afford to piece off people who take care of me. At first, both of these people (a dude and a chick) took good care of me and I'd hook them up nice ... as in 60/40 or even 50/50 if they delivered it to me! After all, I just wanted to feel the warmth of one good shot. After dealing with them for a few months, things started to go south. They would come up short a bag and blame it on the dealer. Or there would be a dummy bag in the bundle, or the bags would obviously be pinched. Last month the dude called me to say he was in my neighborhood and was going to cop some “fire” (to celebrate his birthday) and was wondering if I was interested in getting down. I had $60 in my pocket at the time and met him a few minutes later, gave him the $60. He said he'd be right back. A half hour later he texts me to say his connect is running late. Long story short, he never showed and failed to respond to my texts until the next morning. I wasn't surprised. Of course he had some dramatic excuse to explain why he left me hanging but was "going to make it right" that day. I told him to keep the money, happy birthday, and I haven't taken a call from him since. Fuck him. It was chump change and I was tired of his games. A few days later, the chick also pulled some lame ass shit and I had to cut her off also. In both cases, I was dealing with people who had dope habits. People with dope habits can’t be trusted to make good long-range financial decisions. I know. For years I had a dope habit and was always broke and owed people and institutions.

Anyway, it's nice to check in and see some of y’all still hanging around. I'm wondering how tomatelli is doing. Finally, I'm going to NYC this weekend to watch SU beat St. John's in the Garden. I ran the streets of the Lower East Side in the early 1980s when things were open air, four corners. Times have changed and I don't know a soul down there. Regardless, I'll check out Tompkins Square Park just because ... maybe ... just maybe.
 
I'll check out Tompkins Square Park just because ... maybe ... just maybe.

Maybe is the operative word. There was a big crackdown there over the summer. There is definitely still dope to be had in the LES but it is no longer any sort of open air. You'll have to find yourself a trusty junkie most likely. And a lot of the crusties moved a good few blocks north last I checked. Good luck though.
 
been going to a spot thats way easier to get to for a little bit

i was under the impression the last spot I had gone to for about 2 weeks was ou on saturdays but I found out they take the whole weekend off

you know because standing around all day really tires you out and requires some days off

what about all these rap douches talking about "no days off" and shit?

ime, they are off more often than on

and if anyone has a problem with it they just blame it on the cops

"too hot out here man"

then get the fuck out of the kitchen

fuckin minorities. have some kind of system where you keep the shit in a house, the person comes up to you and tells you what they want, walk back to a street that isnt a blatant drug spot, slap hands there, and go back to standing around.

why do I have to do the deal right where youve been standing for the past 5 hours? that doesnt look shady at all...

god forbid they fucking walk a little bit

shit

yeah ill still buy it.

and thats the reason they dont care

because Ill still buy it
 
I'm good bro. just laying low, working and smoking weed and then once every month or 2 ill cop a lil bit and that's it. just living life and trying to stay away from trouble. I don't got time to be where I was a couple years ago. as much as I loved getting high 4-5x a week, I get so much more satisfaction from it now that its more like a party favor. I realized how big a trigger BL is, along with shows like intervention and drugs inc.

its sad that I cant post here everyday like I used to but for me getting high and going on BL was a marriage, they went hand in hand. hell they still do, look I'm here posting while high right now lol. and so staying away is something I had to do to keep myself in the right mind state. like I said I don't watch interventions or drugs inc that much cause, seeing piles of dope and dope fiends nodding off on camera, really makes me want to nod too. its like I know how good they feel at that moment cause ive been there many times. and now after 2 months I got that itch and so I scratched it with a half gram lol

whats been going on with you bro? everything been good?

Sup chinky. Long time.

Bro, I have taken a long hiatus from BL as well. It is such a trigger for me as well. I just can't do the shit I was doing 3-4-5-6+, etc years ago. The last 2 years of my life have been 90% better. I got on the juice. Immediately I got my shit right again within 2-3 months. My health, strength, weight, mind clear. My head was in a perpetual drug fueled cloud from Jan 2014 all the way back to the mid 00's. I just can't do it anymore. 6 month runs, arrested. 10 month runs, back to rehab. On paper. Violation. More rehab, treatments, IOPS, Inpatients, Treatment Communities, 12 step meetings forced on me, drug testing, trying to stay clean and getting caught up with another habit ON paper. My nerves were shot. Losing jobs, dropping out of school, unemployed, hustling, stealing, anything to make money that day for drugs knowing any moment I get pulled over I am going to be hurting in jail for a while. It's just something I got tired of after arrest after arrest after court appearances up the ass for my driving cases. I clear one thing up and catch 2 more. It just doesn't work. I get on the methadone and my life changed. I gradually pulled myself away from all this shit.. Bluelight, all those docs and shows that are interesting to you when you are using drugs, people, places, things.. not to sound preachy. I am not on that 12 step shit. I chip every once in a while and regret it every time. But it beats hustling day in and day out with $0.00 in your pocket 24/7. I got a job, No legal issues -- all cleared up. Not on paper. Getting my license back in mere weeks. I know I can't come and just be part of this community like I was. It interested me but it sparked my junkie wheels in my head. I am just trying to move on with my life -- the car, the job, the girl. I still have a lot of issues to clear up, but it's easier to do with a clear head and not worrying about my next fix. Methadone saved my fucking ass. And I know the pro's and con's of it for sure. But I know for a fact if God forbid I ever ended up in a bad spot later on in life.. that I did it once this way before and I can do it again. The 28 day rehabs, months spent clean cold turkey in jail, all that treatment and therapy..scratches the surface 5-10%. But for me, in my case, I need this medication to live and survive. I'm happier than I was during when I was running hard for sure. And I said I have not been a complete angel. But it's a definite 90% improvement. And that works for me right now. And time will sort the rest out for me I presume.

Great to see some of the old familiar faces. I probably won't be around much as I used to. But anyone can always get up with me. Anytime.
 
Maybe is the operative word. There was a big crackdown there over the summer. There is definitely still dope to be had in the LES but it is no longer any sort of open air. You'll have to find yourself a trusty junkie most likely. And a lot of the crusties moved a good few blocks north last I checked. Good luck though.

Had a nice weekend in NYC. Saw SU get schooled by St. Johns in the Garden. Used airbnb for the first time and got a good deal on an apartment in the East Village on the same street where I lived for 10 years (6th St.) in the 1980s. Walked downtown and saw the World Trade Towers fountains and on my way back uptown stopped at 100 Centre St., went through the metal detector routine, and sat in the courtroom (open 7 days a weeks, 9 am to 1 am) and watched arraignments for about an hour just to get a dose of gratitude. You see I went through the NYC system years ago on more than one occasion during the Guliani drug sweeps and I needed to be reminded what a nightmare that shit is. There is a funk that is unlike any other funk I've ever experienced in that joint. Every once in a while while sitting in the gallery this weekend, I would catch a whiff. Canned pissy street bum. That funky smell alone is reason enough not to get back into the game.

I did check out Tompkins Sq. It was so clean that I'd let my grandmother walk through, if she wasn't dead already. The same old homeless and relatively harmless crew was posted up in the southwest corner, chillin' on the benches. My gut told me to keep walking. I followed my gut. Walked all the way over to Ave. D. Everything was pretty low key. Then I stood in line at Katz's for 20 minutes for a $19 corned beef sandwich. They should give you some lubricant with the sandwich, because they are fucking you pretty good at those prices.

What did they "crackdown" on during the summer in the park? And BTW, "trusted junkie" is a contradiction in terms (read my most recent post).
 
yeah ill still buy it... and thats the reason they dont care... because Ill still buy it

Yup. They know no matter what, we're gonna jump through their hoops. I remember back in the day standing in a line with 20 or 30 other people in a rubble strewn lot alongside an abandoned apartment building on the lower east side of manhattan waiting for the d-boys to re-up and start serving what at the time was the best dope in NYC ("poison" stamp). There was a kid about 16 or so who would carry a big stick whose job it was to keep the line orderly (and if you had an extra $5 he would escort you to the front of the line ... called it "express"). That fuck would threaten to smack anyone who would not move fast enough or who would talk too loud for his liking. Like good soldiers, everyone followed his orders. Not to do so would mean he'd not let you cop. That was 30 years ago. I hope that fuck is dead or locked up today.
 
What did they "crackdown" on during the summer in the park?

There was a big media furore in June when somebody was shocked, shocked to discover that there was drinking and drugging going on in the park (among other places) and there was much hand wringing and pearl clutching about going back to the "bad old days"

The Post said:
As part of its “quality of life” offensive, the NYPD has installed a “SkyWatch” observation booth in Tompkins Square Park, where The Post recently revealed that hordes of homeless people were ruining the place for everyone else.

“The drinking, the drugs — you name it, it’s out of control,” a summer parks worker said.

Longtime neighborhood resident Normen Coben, 65, called the eyes in the sky a “good idea” to help scare off the junkies who nod off in the East Village park.

“People who’ve been here for a long time see the ebb and flow of the neighborhood and the park. We are on a slippery slope right now,” Coben said.

A 30-year-old resident said she “didn’t want to live in a neighborhood that needed one of those,” but added that she no longer felt safe in the park.

One vagrant maintained that the tower was meant to appease residents paying sky-high rents, but insisted, “They’re never going to get rid of the weirdos and junkies in this neighborhood.”

(source)

They just moved, of course, and that, essentially temporarily. A lot of them wound up more around Union Square, across 14th street, etc., all the while there being similar histrionics about certain parts of Midtown West around MSG, all media bullshit really. But it made these areas hot, of course. Now cold copping from junkies of course you can do anywhere and could do worse than going to those areas. Heading uptown, Lou Reed's beloved Lexington / one two five this summer was all synthetic cannabinoid freakouts, ambulances all day, every day. A bad scene. They've cracked down there, too, permanently placing one of those surveillance towers and mobile command stations there as well.

And BTW, "trusted junkie" is a contradiction in terms (read my most recent post).

Indeed. 'twas said with tongue firmly planted in cheek. Sure I am not telling anything new to anyone here but as someone with a fair bit of experience cold copping off random junkies you get a sense though at which one will at least just moderately tap your bags instead of running off with your money. The unstable couples screaming at each other are perhaps the easiest kind of junkie to find but they are too unstable to work with. Along with the chiller, more righteous type of old heads at the exchanges, hipster semi-junkies which is to say hipsters making the transition to junkiedom, after ceasing to give a fuck about visible track marks and public nods in the park, but before eviction, routine stays in the Tombs, and total degeneracy, are probably the best population to go with. All bets are off though ... while everyone has lost money through dodgy middlemen, all bets are off even with insurance ... I've not had this happen to me, but I've definitely know people who've been left with some random junkie's pack, dog, or even girlfriend while said junkie fucks off with a bundle or two's worth of cash and just doesn't come back. My buddy actually got a sickly crusty dog that way that he nursed back to health. Nobody I know got a girlfriend that way though, even a sickly crusty one. But I digress.
 
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... placing one of those surveillance towers and mobile command stations there as well.

Ah ha! That's what I saw on 2nd ave around 28th St. I walked by this elevated lookout tower covered in NYPD decals and was puzzled at first, only because of its novelty (at least to me). I'm not surprised though, as it's just another move in the decades long cat and mouse chess game between the cops and the dopers.

Thanks for the link and the update on the old neighborhood. While I got a chuckle out of the (over)reaction of some of the residents, I have to admit that if I paid $500,000 for my studio apartment overlooking 3rd St. and Ave B, I wouldn't want that corner looking like it did back in the 1980's. Man, those were the days, shit was wide open. Difference is, today many more people in the game are carrying guns.

Finally, your depiction of the wide variation that exists along the path to complete and total degeneracy, and the degree to which one can be trusted contingent upon their unique and often fluid position on this continuum, is quite accurate. A "sickly crusty girlfriend" offered as insurance against running off with dope money ... only in our world. BTW... If I ever find myself with that offer, I'd ask the couple if they had a dog.
 
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