General Heroin Discussion #18 - v. Stupidity ain't no badge of honor

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I am not surprised.

and guess what? I havent used in at least a half hour. So I guess I am back off dope again, right?

will someone go and report this? lol.
 
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Ha. It's all good. It's not like all of us, especially me, haven't been in the exact same situation.. thinking we'd nailed the whole sobriety thing, only to fall right back on our face.

All you can do is hope the run you're on doesn't kill ya, and pick up again to try at being sober once more.
 
BBT Are you looking for a new buprenorphine provider or is that not even on your radar right now?
 
Mr.Scagnattie said:
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I wanna say I'm surprised you're back on dope given all you're supreme holier than now rantings of how great suboxone is and how awesome you felt on it, and that you were on a high dose so you wouldn't relapse, blah blah.... but I'm not.
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Haha i wanted to say the same thing...but didnt. I was wondering what happened to you bbt i thought youd given up on BL but now i see you were banned. Welcome back..
 
WhTs up guys how's it goin todY I might snort it instead of shooting it I'll have a lot of dope this week so I don't need to shoot
 
Still don't really have it all down, I just waisted so much of what I had when I was trying to get all the air bubbles out, I flicked it and slowed pushed up and I just couldn't get all the air bubbles out were as my friend did it instantly
 
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The whole, "if you shoot an air bubble you'll die" is a junky myth. It would take a very large amount of air to cause a problem, hah. Like a full rig full. One or two tiny little bubbles don't make a difference, so don't kill yourself and waste dope trying to flick out every last one.
 
About a month ago, Toma wrote: “I will admit you guys have kept me from trying to shoot up again I have the box of syringes I got just sitting in my room and I don't know if in gonna send them back or what”

@toma … I think I speak for most when I say I hope all the pleading, warning, etc. directed your way for the last month or so with respect to picking up the works at least delayed the inevitable somewhat. Had you been successful when you first acquired those gimmicks, you’d already be further down the road than you are today. Please be sure to read BlueHues post #914 as it contains critical information.

@somcilicious … I got off, and overdosed, in the back of a NYC yellow cab heading downtown from Spanish Harlem. I forgot about that experience until I read your post. I returned to semi-consciousness as the EMTs were pulling me out of the cab and loading me onto the back of their bus for a trip to Belleview Hospital’s ER. I’m not proud of that experience which BTW happened before cell phones were invented, so no pictures.
 
^^ 57 -- a young 57.

I’m ready for a road trip. I’ve been cooped up in this house for weeks. It’s been bitterly cold for months and more cold and snow is in the forecast. Both my girl and my dog are getting on my last nerve. I try to keep busy but nonetheless my tolerance for other is low and my desire to get loaded is high. I might just rent a car and drive: Toronto, New York, Boston, or maybe south to Philadelphia. I’ve been known to drive long distances to watch live thoroughbred horse racing so Penn National or the track in Philly are high on my list. I always travel alone. I like it that way.

I once was a junky who used dope everyday and was always broke. I’m still a junky, I just haven’t used very much (very little, actually) over the last 20 or 25 years so I’ve been lucky enough to be at a point in life where I can do things like travel and buy toys for myself.

I know that if I’m not careful however, I could be right back where I was, or worse, in no time flat.
 
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Yeah it's scary that after you've done well for a while, you accumulate shit, and now you actually really have stuff to lose. So you gotta be careful, because you know just how fast all that shit can be gone.
 
BostonBrownTown said:
OD's in mass have been through the roof over the last 3-6 months, but a lot of those OD's have to do w/ youngins making the switch from your typical opiate to dope. also, they are making the change from your typical sniff to a non-typical SHOT which they do not even know how to do or the right way to find that vein and hit that vein. that has A LOT to do w/ the OD's we have found as of late. same goes for those who are NEW and finding random dealers and buying something they know next to nothing about. all these things play such a MAJOR part in using. dope is BAD regardless.. but it has the ability to get much worse/scarier when you dont know HOW to do it, WHO it's coming from, WHAT is the cut.. and so much more! was reading another board the other day when someone brought up the fact they just got dope sent to them from Amsterdam and the dope is 85% PURE, lol. mind you this person has NEVER shot/done dope in his life but found it online and has now brought it here to shoot. come on now! supposedly he threw it away after the board were calling him a FOOL for even considering and for thinking what he heard/doing what right. he was under the impression that all dope in/around the US is at least 50% pure, lol. again, this is what worries me about the dope scene, random peeps pulling in things they know NOTHING about and just "trying" it because they think it's going to be awesome based on what they hear, or based on how so many people are ODing and dying from all this.. so it makes them WANT IT because why else would so many people give it a try considering how deadly it is, right? just a sick mind many people have, me being one of those peeps.. but what I have been reading/seeing as of late worries me. I am not saying you have to be a scientist to use dope, but you actually have to have a half brain in order to use and use the "right" way, per-say.

anyway, HI, AGAIN, to all those who had me banned. I even got banned last time for mentioning how I got banned.. so maybe I'll get banned once again for bringing this up, but figured I should since people PM me and ask, why not just mention it in a post.

bye!
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Hey thats true shit. I was one those guys that went from shooting oc 80s(when they were around) then switched to k4s when the 80s fizzd out, then one day dopeman had some brown powder in a brown paper towl(10th) shit i had no idea about the shit. First time i shot h i OD. In the car of the people that were driving behind me that scored that needed to use a rig(after i used it ofcourse) didnt know what i was doing, how much to use. So i remimber last back loading the rig with near the entire bindle,felt so ficking good eyes rolld back next thing i know im on the parking lot ground with emt reviving me with the narcan i dont remember them using paddles the fucking paddle marks on my chest made it clear that this aint no fucking drug you should rush into doing. It was so new here in bham i even got lectured @ the hospital by the dr saying im helping funding terrorism in the middle east bc i bought some heroin.
This was years ago, now the shit can be found anywhere and once crack dealers are now heroin dealers,that big.
Bostonbrown u hit that shit on the head, now my thumbs hurt because i types all that shit on my iphone.
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Mr.Scagnattie said:
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Yeah it's scary that after you've done well for a while, you accumulate shit, and now you actually really have stuff to lose. So you gotta be careful, because you know just how fast all that shit can be gone.
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Yeah when i think about all the shit ive reacquired and gone from sleeping on the bus when i could afford the 5$ day pass or sleeping on a flattened cardboard box in downtown la with rats n roaches all around to actually havijg my own place with furniture really makes me reconsider going back into full blown junky mode. Yea i still shoot at night every few days..but i can control it and have been doing so for 13 months and i dont get sick if i stop. I quit once a month for my piss tests too.

The reseliency of us junkies is amazing. Its amazing to go from something, to absolutely shit nothing, then reacquire most things (albeit not as nice as before, ill never get over selling my paid off audi with 18k miles in 09) Im grateful in a way for what ive experienced because its given me a new appreciation for life like a warm place to lay my head, that i never even thought about before. I just expected those things to always be there ykno and when you lose em you really learn to appreciate that shit everyone else takes for granted.
 
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Yeah accumulating more stuff that you know you're going to keep and be able to use, feels really good. I love having money and being able to see something I want, and buy it. You're right, it really does help with making going back to using look unappealing because I know all this shit would be gone.

I mean, think about all the money you spend in a week using.. 500, 600, 1000 dollars, etc. You can buy some awesome shit for that much money.. and things that last and that can be enjoyed for a long time, not all that money pissed away up your arm for a high that only lasts a few hours.
 
somnilicious said:
Last time I overdosed in a busy parking lot and when they put me on the stretcher there were people all around me taking pictures with their iphones. My shirt was torn open from them doing CPR and hitting me with the paddles. I was confused as hell. At first I was afraid I had gotten in a wreck or had hit somebody because the last thing I remember is driving in my car. The cops were trying to chase all the people off and asked if I minded them taking pictures. I really couldn't care less at the moment. So I just smiled and gave the people taking the pictures a thumbs up. LOL... I was still high as hell even after the narcan shots. My dopey thumbs up picture is probably being used for some parents don't do drugs speech.
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Like when a football or hockey player gets his ass knocked out or they think he might've been paralyzed. Then while they are being rolled out on the stretcher, stuck down on the backboard, he gives the old thumbs up and everyone has a sigh of relief and cheers for him.
 
I still can't do it myself I don't know what I'm doing wrong I'm done fucking poking myself 10 times in a row not getting anywhere
 
^Of course he knew you were gonna say that!

If you're gonna do it, you can't be squeamish about it, you have to be steady and accurate while you're doing it...you can't just look at the vein and ram it in and hope it's in their...You probably need to adjust the needle a little after it's in your arm, pull it or push it to make sure the tip is actually fully inside the vein...sounds to me like you're missing, pulling it right out, trying again...and missing again..Once you poke yourself, there's a lot you can try before you have to pull it out again..as long as you're near the vein!

It's a pretty gross hobby if you think about it...definitely not something that impresses chicks...
 
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