Thanks to all of you for the WONDERFUL advice! I am amazed that some of you seem like chemists to me! Ha!
Deconstruction, that's a good question about the hydros. But being that I am an opiate person, I've overdone my stay and have been having a very hard time on them. Mostly or one of the main things, what I don't like about hydros is the fact that I feel so bad when I take them because of the w/d after they are out of my system for several hours (8 to 10 hours+)! But having to take them long term as I have, or even taking them for pleasure, I hate dragging like a wet rag from hydors ALL of the time with the short term hydro (and I KNOW I can be dragging in a worse way with the fentanyl...way worse...but overall I hope to use it differently as you can read below...and if this seems to cause me more problems because I only go up on my dose consistently, I will definitely get off the train since I will have just started it before it gets way too deep)! I feel like crap basically on the hydro, being that it lasts little time for me and psychological pill popping is a problem for me too among other reasons! So not only do I have tolerance, but,opiate dependence! I do hate that, too! But that's one of the reasons I switched, along with other reasons...but I some of this hope that makes sense.
Boy, that's the first time I've heard that expression "a ralph." Where have I been?
Sound, you have some great information that you conveyed to me! Thanks a bunch (just want I am looking for...knowing more about it)! And what you said made total sense because now I realize why I didn't feel as much as I should in the beginning (although I am aware of building a tolerance, too, where I don't feel them)! And at first, this fentanyl WAS so different with the way I felt. It does take getting used to, at least for me, but they do work well for me with pain. My plan is I hope that I can cut the patch into smaller and smaller pieces when I do want to lower my dose gradually (since this patch is different from the others), and I mean gradually because I realize it's very strong in comparison to almost anything I could have in my system. I know that I am dealing with a different medicine, but I hope the gradual lowering of my dose CAN work this way (at least with the Mylan patch, I hope), but obviously I don't know much about this drug itself and am learning. The reason I am saying this is because from my experience I did have some time-released pills a LONG time ago (and I know they are in a totally different ball park from these patches though) but for me, I can honestly say that it was so much easier lowering my dose and getting off them when I needed to. Doing this never happened overnight (and I hope I am not fooling myself about "what I think/hope" I can do with this particular patch), but with the time-released pills, it certainly didn't hurt nearly as badly as trying to lower hydros...not at all, nowhere near. But I was very careful and went very slow. I do hope the same holds true for the patch, as I plan cut this brand into smaller pieces when I dose so that it isn't as painful. I realize it's a LOT stronger than hydros, but so were these time-released pills that I had a few years ago. That might seem crazy, but it wasn't as hard because I could go without feeling awful and could lower my dose as I needed. So I am going by the time factor and what happened to me before when I say this. Other than that, though, I've pretty much had only hydro most of the time. This "seems" to make sense to me, to keep cutting the patch smaller and smaller (and not feeling like hell) until I get the dose down practically to nothing. But I may be wrong...but it's not like I would ever stop cold turkey on these anyway...never! Does that make sense (despite the fact that the drug is strong)?
Ktx49, I need to be scared to a (big) certain degree, and honestly I appreciate your warnings!! I can tell that you ONLY have good intentions! In fact, I didn't tell you this in my post to you before, but I did go online to research the fentanyl the first night...to find info about the strength, how it works, etc. But when I did the search, I could say that probably the first 30 returns had pages about death and attorneys that revolved around the fentanyl! My heart sunk! I had put on two patches that night and after I saw that I freaked and took off one of them and flushed it down the toilet! So I pretty much wasted a whole 50 mg patch (or however we want to look at it) but it's better than messing up! At this board is where I found a lot of the information that I did want to read, too, (so that I didn't go overboard), and people do have personal experience here with this drug, so that helps a lot. Other people's advice and what they have done give me at least some boundaries and precautions I need to know, too! To me, the 72 hours can be a good thing If I am very careful, but it can scare me at the same time!! BUT you gave me some of the best advice I could have when it comes to being careful...like you said, those patches are very strong and they sneak up on you, so I NEED to be aware of that! (So now I want to understand more about the mcg. and how they are released in your body every hour you wear one.) I know all about hydros, but this drug IS so different and I know little about it! That's why I came here to make sure that when I use the patch at least don't overdo it to where my life is at stake. Actually, the effects of wearing the patch are more evident now than they were in the beginning, but I do want to make sure that I don't allow myself to stay on too strong of a dose. I read some posts about the Mylan patch and it seems to be so different that the brand name. From my point of view only, it seems like it may be safer in a way, and I hope that is the case...as long as I do what you say and know what I am getting into! I am glad that I do NOT have the brand name. For some reason, the gel spooks me. It seems more unpredictable...but again, I am going by what I have read so far. I hope they are a little bit easier to control (by being able literally to cut the patch down gradually and also by having some pain relieving qualities that last longer to help me with this). I definitely need to use as much moderation as I can (very important), and like I said above I hope that I can wean myself down after taking it for several days by cutting the patch (being that it is not a gel) and do it very slowly. It seems this will be a possibility...but as you know, I am learning about this and have nowhere near the knowledge about it as you do or others do here! Again, THANKS for the advice/warning! I appreciate it very much!
Have a great night!